I'm 19 yrs old.
And I remember that some time long ago I had a crush on my best friend, my bro, who studied with me in my cadet school.
There was I dialogue like…
‘Duuuude, I need to confess you in something.’
‘Is anything wrong? What else [bad] have you managed to do?’ he chuckled.
‘Screw you.’ I laughed.
‘So what is it?’
‘Duuuude, I… I have a crush on you.’
He stopped drinking his tea and his look upon me was too shocked and I felt that he was freaked out by saying words.
‘Um… Bro, I was suspicious that you’ve dated with your gf in order nobody could think that you're gay or something like that, but I wish it wasn't true!'
‘What? Wait, I’m not!..'
‘Stay away from me, faggot. Just… Just stay away. I’ll talk with our officer so he can accommodate us in different rooms.'
Of course everything went well and I've explained him that I'm not interested in ‘giving my ass for free’ and other shit. But due to this, I felt really awful and terrible and I never confessed about my feelings into age-mates I liked. . . Until the moment I met my boyfriend.
I'm not gonna tell you about how cute he's too me but he's too immature… And I decided to search for some older males everywhere they could ever be. And Zity and other similar forums were one of the best decisions to look for them but I couldn't establish long-term relations just because of numerous reasons that I'm too lazy to write here. So… I'm still searching for them. I even tried to make personal ads but it wasn't crowned with success.
I won't say that I haven't met ‘daddies’ at all, but it happened only several times in a year. :c
I'm too eager to do this since… I feel better with ‘daddy’ nearby. That's much more psychologically superior for me.
Thank you for reading it.
Also I'll be very grateful to you if you can give me some useful advice for achieving my purpose.