Getting older I have learned a lot about being uncircumcised and how to your foreskin should be taken care of. And Im not sure if this is where you would put this, but this experience has been eating at me to be shared for a while now. So I am going to put it here for you all to read and maybe it will spark some kind of discussion.
Ill preface this that whether it was right or wrong my parents had always been very invested in properly maintaining my foreskin. They are both very anticircumcision and my mother didnt want me to ever undergo any type of unnecessary surgery as a child. My foreskin did not fully retract until the age of 10 when I retracted it myself in the bath. I remember as early back as 4 or 5 my foreskin being retracted at baths and exams. There are home videos of some of my first doctors visits and even of me being changed on the side as early as 1 or 2 years that my mother or aunt or a nurse relentlessly pushed back on my foreskin to examine and clean it while I cried and squirmed.
This added to my memories leads me to believe my foreskin was retracted daily from the age of 1 to 10. This was always painful but what could I do uncircumcised boys must have their foreskin cleaned. I rememeber most of my exams went about like this. I was probably 5 or 6 I remember and I was there for my monthly foreskin exam. My foreskin was too tight according to the pediatrician and until it was loose enough I had to visit for monthly foreskin exams. I was laid down on my back my pants taken off and the doctor came in with two nurses. He began by rolling the head of my penis between his fingers then pulling slightly on the foreskin opening which made me whince. He asked my mother if she had still been retracting me to which she told him yes which was true. She was always told to stop retracting me 3 days before the exams to make sure it was back to normal and had stretched out by my exam which it never did.
Every morning I woke up and my mother began the day by stretching my foreskin back with force. She would leave my penis exposed and bandage my foreskin behind the head in an attempt to maintain retraction during school. The glans was painful and sensitive and my foreskin would rub closed while walking. When I came home I was bathed my foreskin was pushed back painfully for the second time and my glans scrubbed raw. I was then checked again before bed and yanked into retraction a third time. My foreskin and penis were almost always sensitive sore and bright red. Hell during holiday gatherings my foreskin was sometimes pulled back as punishment just because it hurt but was still considered good for me.
Sorry back to my examination. A nurse would come to my feet and hold them down and my mother my arms. The doctor would then grab my foreskin and pull sharp but ineffective tugs on my foreskin that just began to make me sore and did not retract me much at all. He then would push all of his weight into the retraction and force it back till the tip of my glans bent downwards and my foreskin was stretched tight along with my frenulum. My foreskin opening would tear and my glans would bleed a little around the foreskin attachments. When I was 6 he started the second phase of treatment. After forced retraction he would close my foreskin and reopen it several times while I yelled out. He would then close my foreskin and push what I now know is a hemostat beneath it and open it wide and remove it scrapping the torn inner foreskin and stretching my foreskin opening painfully wide until the hemostat was removed and my foreskin snapped shut. He then yanked my foreskin back down and pinched my extremely sensitive and tight frenulum with the hemostat. He held my foreskin back gently as he did this only until it rolled up beneath the glans. Then he pulled my frenulum using the hemostat as far away from the glans as he could until it was overly taught. He then held the hemostat in place putting extreme tension on my frenulum as the second nurse yanked my now unretracted foreskin down to the base of my shaft 3 times. I screamed and began to cry as my tight frenulum was stretched past its limit and began to tear from the foreskin up towards the glans slightly causing me to bleed.
The doctor held my foreskin down in place of the nurse and turned the hemostat downward bending my glans slightly and relieving some pressure from my frenulum where it had begun to tear from my foreskin. As he sent the nurse to grab what was needed to finish up my pain dulled a little as my foreskin stopped being manipulated. As I calmed the nurse returned with a sharp small hook shaped hemostat and with out warning jammed it into my glans between the urethra and the frenulum i screamed loudest I could as she dug into my glans and opened the hooked hemostat and pushed in clamping down on the frenulum where it attached to the glans. She cut my frenulum out of my glans and pulled down on my bleeding foreskin tearing my frenulum about half way off of my glans. The pain through this procedure is indescribable my raw bloody glans was then shoved back into my underwear my foreskin left retracted. I was not given any pain relief or doctors note and was sent home and to school with my raw glans and foreskin rubbing against clothing and itself.
This was performed on me once a year until at the age of 10 I pulled my foreskin back permanently for the first time myself. It terrified me and I only knew my foreskin had to be retracted as I was told painful or not it was for my health. My foreskin is mo longer tight and I have 2 punctures in my frenulum from the procedures.
I may have been unable to retract had this not been done to me or worse circumcised. I know they say it damages your foreskin to retract before puberty unless it is ready. But my foreskin was stretched every day until retraction and now works perfectly. Im not suggesting to tear childrens frenulum or anything. But if it worked on me then maybe it isnt so bad to just pull it back?
Im interested to hear from anyone and everyone and ill answer any questions as well