Thoughts afterwards

Hey everyone, I’m new to this site and I have a few questions I’m looking for some guidance on. I know I’ve been an AB/DL my entire life, but I’ve never played before. On one rare occasion I found three girls goodnites diapers and filled them and shortly after spanking myself. About using the diapers, I got off as this was a huge turn on for me. After I got off, I felt disgusted in myself. When I watch diaper porn I have the same feeling sometimes. The best was I can describe the situation is that I’m willing to do anything for a diaper and I’m loving everything, but once I get off I immediately hate myself and judge myself for what I just did. Does anybody else have this problem? I want to be able to enjoy myself and learn to accept this part of my life.

I think that that is normal. At least for me, and I've read a lot of stories like yours during the last 20 years.

In my case, If I was wearing a diaper I had to take it off immediately and had to wait several hours until I felt attracted to diapers again. By the time this *issue* didn't disappear at all, but I can be in *diaper mode* a lot of time till the *situation*.

It’s not unusual to feel as you do. Many feel just as you do, I too feel this way sometimes, but I have come to pretty much ignor it, or just let it pass, just as it came over me.

I would liken it to, wanting a chocolate shake real bad, then drinking it right down, after you have, you feel like, you wouldn’t want another chocolate shake for a year. But, once it’s digested, you’ll have another.

Yep. Happens every time to me. It's actually hard wired into human males to get turned off sex after an orgasm. Otherwise we'd screw ourselves to death. When you have a diaper orgasm that "turn off" gets compounded by the social taboo of adults in diapers. That's when the guilt and disgust thing kicks in. That part is all social conditioning. Once you get comfortable with yourself and you realize you have a right to be happy, that your diapers are nobodies business, the guilt pretty much falls away. That part took me years to realize.

The loss of interest? Well for me, time pretty much took care of the crazy wild sex part of diapers. At 65 I normally just enjoy the comfort and the security of knowing that I can have an accidental wetting without it being a disaster. Plus I've found diapers to be psychologically calming (that crazy frantic feeling when you aren't wearing your diaper). So all in all I've come to terms with the all of the self loathing. The less frequent orgasms I have now don't keep me out of diapers any more. When I diaper up afterwards it feels more like putting on underwear. No thrill, just getting dressed. It isn't too much later that the warm comfortable feelings of being in diapers returns. Diapers. YES!!

I find this a fascinating topic, thanks for posting it.

i confess i had to google what AB/DL is (i guessed the "dl" part from content, was a little slow with he "ab" part). i have a generally kinky soul and even though i am not familiar with all kinky facets, i can see myself being pulled in by any number of them if my buttons get pushed, usually by another. IOW, as far as i can discern, my kinks involve connection with another vs being satisfactory in and of themselves.

To me, one of the best things about having a kink (an atypical wrinkle?) is how it can set one up to examine and question the status quo. Stuff like: "where does guilt and/or shame come from?" i tend to agree with metoo, that much of our conscience or emotional disposition is socially engineered. i suspect that some of it is passed down genetically as part of our limbic system, but my personal feel is that even the 'passed down' stuff was at some point socially/culturally programed. That's just belief though, i don't think anyone really knows.

For me, few things are intrinsically 'wrong,' and thus something to be ashamed of or feel guilty about, but that is reason and reason rarely seems to beat out emotion in a match of strength.

Metoo about sums it up, for years I would have the same reaction. I would think I was a twisted prevert and it didn't help that I had no idea there were others like me. I was 40 plus when we got the internet and discovered there was others that liked diapers, lots of others. After that my guilt was much less.

I have seen many struggle with the same sexualized feelings about diapers. You are not the first or the last to have this issue come up. You either beat it or it beats you.

There's a good chance as you age it will work itself out.

Wear and enjoy diapers regularly and eventually your body's kinks will level out. The more you try and control it by avoidance the more it will control you. Embrace the kink and master it. If you diaper regularly even if you do have strong urges Eventually your mind will understand this isn't some crazy thing to overstimulate about this diaper wearng day of xxxxx normal.

I went through this for years. Just remember there's a whole community of us out there. As long as you're not hurting anyone, there's no reason to feel guilty or ashamed. As far as fetishes go, ABDL really is one of the more playful and light hearted things you can indulge yourself in. In my case it took years of working on things I can be proud of in my life along with a few near death experiences. It shouldn't take all that to attain self acceptance but that's what it took in my case. I hope you can work through any negative feelings you have about your kinks. Also keep in mind that when you're getting off, the chemistry of your body is going to be changing very suddenly. Any negative feelings you may have may just be a matter of coming down after getting off. I hope this helps.

IT happens but then soon after you no your a adultbaby so just let it be as you cant change what you are as long as it hurts no one and it is adults only it is ok. Thank god for the internet as it showed that we are not alone so hold your head up baby and just wet and wet. plus i have found so many different abdl groups although some of my favorite have closed like abpixel and so many place to buy adult baby stuff so i just have to accept.iI have on different occasions thrown out my adult baby stuff only to feel so bad the next day after trash was picked up.

WOW! I'm resurrecting a slightly old thread; but, I found it to be of interest. I have never felt guilty about anything I do related to sex and my fetishes. Why? Because I've never forced my kinky desires on anyone else. What I've done with partners has always been consensual. What I do alone affects nobody else. Any guilt one might feel is likely a result of placing other people's perceived restrictions into one's own life. Remember, while you may think your parents/friends/etc. would think your kink is over the edge, do you truly know if they have kinks they keep hidden? I'll bet a large number of them do.