@SwitchableSusie thank you very much for your reply, I really do appreciate your answers and I have some more questions if you don't mind. 🌹 The woman I approached in hopes of finding about what it is to be with another woman, is as I said bisexual and had a woman partner for years but is happily married. Her husband knew about her relationship with the other woman as it was long term. When she relented and agreed to take me and allow me to learn I found out I was not the woman of the world I thought I was at all. Looking back it was embarrassing at the lack of skill and knowledge that I had and in many ways, with her I was in over my head and we both knew it.
Although I had sought her out for this, she is a family friend, I was no means the "lead" and I soon found out I really did not know what it was to make love with another woman. Especially someone so very skilled and giving as she is. When you were with Beth that first time and her being attracted to other women since high school and her following her lesbian yearnings, were you as skilled or familiar with making love with another woman?
For the first few times I was on the receiving end of this woman's touch and it was incredible and I just knew I wasn't totally prepared emotionally for the depth of feelings she pulled from me. I clearly was not anywhere near she was in her life experience but she is so giving and understanding that she gave me confidence to try that first awkward time when she lay back for me to "go down" her. In both instances you took the initial step in taking the chance and making the advance with your two friends. I got the feeling that you did not feel you were taking as large a risk with Beth when you kissed her. I am also assuming that Beth was the first friend you approached or expressed your desire for and kissed her the way you did. I got the sense that you may have anticipated her responding in kind and you reached out for her. Did her history of attraction for women make you more confident in kissing her? Which of you made it known that you wanted to go to bed with the other?
But with Joan, and her being heterosexual, you made me feel that you had risked it all in telling her you had strong sexual feelings for her. Did you have any feeling from her that she may have felt the same way or 'got that feeling'?
Or when you wrote of you and your husband playing together with Joan and her husband, and Beth and her partner, had this been in place before you took the chance on either or both of them? Or did that follow after you became sexually involved with Beth and Joan? And is this something you all do regularly?
I know I am prying but I don't see any other way of finding out what I need to know and you are straight forward.
Thank you for answering my original questions. 🌹
When I was with Beth the first time, that was by no means my first experience with a woman. I made the first move one night during high school with a girlfriend when we were trying on clothes. She and I had gone clothes shopping many times together and had seen each other nude in store dressing rooms many times while trying clothes on, but one night we were just trying clothes on at my house and I came right out and asked her of she was ever with another girl. It was both of our first girl-girl experiences. It felt a little awkward at first, but we enjoyed the hugging and kissing and exploring each others bodies from head to toe. We masturbated and oraled each other and had a wonderful time being close together.
When it came to making love with her, I just did what I knew I liked. It came very naturally for me. With Beth, I did not intend to start a sexual relationship. I just gave her a loving kiss, she was the one who took it from there. With Beth being a lesbian, it was probably natural for her to take it from there. I will say that I was confident when I kissed her that it would not be taken in a bad way. I just didn't expect her to take it as far as she did. Had she not given back such a warm long kiss, my kiss would have been the end of it. I would say she took my loving kiss and made it sexual.
With Joan I took a very big risk. She and I have a strong friendship, so I was hoping that if she was not interested in the sexual aspect that we could write it off as a misunderstanding and continue with out platonic friendship. Nevertheless, it was a big risk.
We were all married before Beth and I, and Joan and I had sex together. Beth and I and Joan and I have sex once or twice a year. It is a special occasion. Neither of them have sex with my husband. At the mummifications, they were there as assistants to help monitor us when we were mummified. They always had their clothes on. The more tightly you are restrained, the better the monitoring has to be. You cannot move at all when you are mummified. For such long periods where sleep is necessary, I wanted there to ideally be two people awake for monitoring. Among Joan, Beth and either my husband or myself, there were always two people awake during the night. With only one monitor, it would be too easy for them to fall asleep too, especially if my husband or I were also asleep. We were very careful about monitoring our vital signs. We used a Nonin Pulse-Oximeter and a Welch Allyn blood pressure monitor.