Sure I've used toys in the past that lovers/partners have owned, but I've never bought anything just for me. I do own an Aneros and that's certainly fun, but I tend to think of that as more therapeutic (although it is fun to use) and not particularly conducive to simulating sex This was the first toy that I bought for the sole purpose of fucking myself with it.I very much enjoy ass play and I wanted something to insert and be able to ride. I'd seen videos with dildos that have suction cups for wall/floor mounting and I wanted to be sure it had that. Next consideration was size. I've played with things like cucumbers and such, but I wanted it to be more anatomically accurate if you will. I've kinda stretched myself on occasion, but never really went "there" for something bigger than I thought I could (or possibly couldn't) handle.So I went to a sex shop nearby and a girl behind the counter was nice enough to give me her views on what I might enjoy. Good thing too, because I was aiming towards a toy that she said would degrade over time and would need special cleaning, etc. She advised me to stay with silicone because of ease of cleanup, realistic feel, and so on. She also gave me a few tips on which lube to use and I grabbed a gel type water-based lube as I was almost out.So she pointed me towards this product: http://www.scandarella.com/reviews/ns-novelties-coloursoft-8-silicone-dildo/ They had some smaller ones, but I took a chance on getting the largest one--the 8" model in black--a neon blue or purple just wasn't doing it for me. 😃 I've never had anything that large inside me and I was a bit nervous knowing that I couldn't return it if I couldn't get it in or if it didn't feel good. This was the first stop of a few errands I had to run and I was speeding through everything so I could get home and try this baby out.As I got home, I stripped quickly and with my lube I retreated to the bathroom as I wanted to give myself an enema to make sure I could enjoy some clean fun. Then my mind started working...what if I could take an enema with the toy inserted? I decided to skip the enema and go for insertion first. I lubed up my ass and the toy liberally. The head on this baby is pretty big and I started leaking precum at the though of what's to come (me). I smacked the base down on the tile floor--great suction cup--I could see that it ain't going anywhere! I kneeled over it and started to ease my way down.I could feel the head at my opening and the two lubes starting to intermingle. I grabbed the base and started to push myself down on it. Feeling the head making its way inside was wonderful. The momentum slowed and stopped as I started to realize that it might be too big for me. Feeling adventurous, I moved my hand up the shaft and gripped firmly to keep it from bending as I started to push down harder. I felt a stab of discomfort and I backed off it--I added a bit more lube to both sides and started again. Pushing harder still, I hit another pang of a sharper pain and backed off again. A bit more lube and another try...I took deep breaths and tried to relax as much as possible this time. I felt it moving further and another pain--a bit sharper this time--but then it kept moving. I stopped and kept breathing deeply to relax my ass and trying not to clench. I got the head inside me! It was just lightly throbbing, so I decided to pull off again and apply more lube. I repositioned and pushed down again nice and slow. I could feel everything now and as I head started pushing in, I wasn't afraid of the pain any longer and I felt more relaxed. As my ass opened further, I could feel the head slowly moving past my sphincter and as it did I let out a moan of pleasure. It kept going and going until I could feel the balls against my cheeks. Wow...all eight inches were inside me. It felt amazing.I sat there for awhile just getting used to it and then I started to ride it. It was a bit awkward and I could feel that I should have cleaned out before. Then it dawned on me that I wanted to attempt an enema with it inside me. I clenched and stood up with the toy still in me--wow that's big! I had the bag prepped and moved to the shower as I didn't know what kind of mess I might be in for. I lubed the tube and worked its way in along side the toy. I opened the clamp and...nothing. I could barely see the water moving in the bag. I pushed the tube in further and eventually the water started making its way into me. As the bag emptied, I was now dealing with a new dilemma--how to get up and out without shooting everything out of me. There were a couple of leaks and awkward squirts, but I was finally able to get to the toilet. I wasn't looking for a cleaning, I just wanted to pull the dildo out of me as the water gushed out at the same time. I sat on the toilet and started pulling the toy up and out of me. As the head hit my prostate on the way out, a gush of precum worked its way down my shaft. I paused for a second or two working the toy slowly back and forth and milking my prostate pushing out the fluid out of the tip of my cock. I finally pulled the toy out in one quick motion and the water gushed out of me. I gasped as I threw the dildo in the sink and started jacking my cock. The precum helped lube my hand as I got very hard and the water still leaving me I quickly came on the bathroom floor with about three large spurts of cum. The water continued out of me until it finally ceased. I cleaned up everything and after a short break went for another round.This time I found that taking the enema FIRST and then inserting worked much better--and felt way better too. The feeling of being full from the enema and adding the cock in my ass started making my cock drool all over again. This was a great purchase!