I never had to admit I was a DL. I've been a life longer pants pisser and discovered the joy of wearing and wetting diapers only with 28 years old. Just to compare, I piss my pants on purpose since I was 3 years old and never stopped. All my childhood, my teens and even in my adult life, I have been wetting on purpose everyday. There's a small period after finishing trainee, when I got two jobs at the same time, that I couldn't have time to wet myself on purpose. Sooner I tried a diaper (loved it!) and realized I could wear to work and wet myself on purpose all day long, better than before that I would wet on purpose only if I was alone or if it was a planned moment in public, taking precautions to don't cross anybody I know. So, from 28 to 39 years old I've been wearing diapers now and then and I used to wear to work from monday to friday. Then Covid happened and I got sick on January of 2020. Right after 10 days, when I got better from the common symptons, an sequel happened: I always had overactive bladder, but now I was having bladder spasms I couldn't control in 2 minutes after I feel the slightest urge to pee. After two major accidents. one driving (I was over a bridge and couldn't stop the car, the bladder started to contract itself and I released all my pee inside the car, part on the floor, part on my clothes and part in a bottle I could reach from my gym bag during the confusion) and the other at work (I left my desk and arrived to the bathroom, but I just opened the bathroom door and the spasms started releasing the pee. I wet my pants right there, trying to reach the toilet without it all coming out on my clothes. When the bladder start to contract, It's impossible to hold, I feel pain and it's difficult to walk), I went to an appointment with my Urologist. He already knew I had OAB, and his first question was if I had Covid. I didn't knew there was a correlation, but he told me I wasn't the first patient with OAB that had severe bladder issues after Covid. But, hey, good news: he tried three medicines to help me to control my bladder. First Retemic, then Vesicare and the Myrbetric. All they worked, but I had problems with collateral effects in the first two. So Myrbetric worked great and for my surprise it could control not only the spasms, but also reduced my frequency to urinate. Instead of goind 20+ times to the toilet, like I was used for all my life (and I didn't know it wasn't normal), after Myrbetric I would go 2 or 3 times ONLY during all day. Wow, pretty impressive. But the sad part: when I tried wet on purpose, I wasn't able. I forced to pee and nothing was coming out. My bladder was too slow. So each morning I had to make a choice: I take the medicine and have bladder control or I wear diapers and wet myself all day long in small amounts each 15 minutes (thats's how it happens now). I choose diapers always, because I'm addicted to wet myself, I've been doing that for almost 40 years! (I'm 41 now, and my first memory of wetting deliberately was in kindergarten). What I had to change in my life? Mainly it was the cost of wearing 24/7. Part of my ward robe was already prepared because I had larger pants since I used to wear diapers in public many times. And because I used to wear to work, my colleagues couldn't have a clue I was wearing everyday. They didn't notice before, nothing was different for them. I had to adapt wearing to the gym, but it was easy because I've already been using to the gym now and then, and the weird thing it was a day my mom was visiting and found my diaper stash by accident. She just asked if the diapers were mine haha. All my family know I have OAB since my childhood, she must have done a correlation with the Covid sequel, despite she knew Myrbetric worked, and didn't ask anymore question.
So, this is my conclusion: I still don't need to admit to others that I'm a DL because now I have a condition that allows me to wear without having to admit I have a diaper fetish. But I know that I could be taking the medicine instead of wearing diapers, so I know I truly enjoy being a diaper lover! I love wearing them with the purpose of being wet all the time, I can do all my activities and diaper changes easily, and now this is my normal routine after two years from becoming incontinent. I don't mind nor bothers me wearing around family or friends. And I told my close friends I'm wearing them for my incontinence needs. I was a DL before having to accept my need of wearing diapers, so becoming urinary incontinent wasn't a major problem for me.