Is pooping your diapers worth the trouble of cleaning up the mess?
Well, I think it is. But let me explain why I think so, and ways to enjoy the fun and minimize the clean-up.
First, let me point out that, pooping your pants / diapers is a very "niche" kind of fetish (even among us ABDLs) and an acquired taste. I didn't begin to enjoy it until I was about 35. Prior to that, I'd been--to some degree--into wearing diapers as far back as I can remember. But I drew the line at pooping them. Yes, there were a couple of times when I was intrigued with it and tried it and enjoyed the fact that I was doing it--but I didn't like the smell or the cleanup AT ALL.
This all began to change when I was becoming middle-aged, more comfortable with my diaper fetish, and I was going through a very stressful period in life and wanted to take my diaper fun to the next level. What happened then was a "spur of the moment" decision I made one night when wearing thick cloth diapers (soaked!), plastic pants, and a t-shirt while sitting outside on my front porch one warm September night. (I lived on a busy road but it was dark and almost impossible for anybody to see me where I was sitting). While enjoying being the naughty toddler that I am, I suddenly felt the urge to poop and thought "Why not?" and just did it.
This time I enjoyed it way more than the few times I'd tried it in the past, and led to a series of "experiments" where I'd load my diapers and, each time, I became more comfortable with it, then, after a while, I actually began to crave it. It was just like drinking coffee or eating sushi. For years I didn't like it and thought it was gross. Then I tried it a few times. Then, one day, out of nowhere, I had an uncontrollable urge to do it. That's when I realized that I loved it.
And why do I love it? Because I love acting like a naughty three-year-old who knows I'm supposed to use the toilet but continues instead to do it in my diapers because I'm a bad baby--and intentionally pooping yourself is the most flagrantly naughty baby thing you can do. Others on this thread have noted the joy of just letting loose and doing it, and that's certainly part of the fun. But, I enjoy sitting there in the huge mess that I made and--as necessary--continuing to make it even worse. The feeling and the smells are part of what makes it real, and I've grown to love the experience.
As our beloved Susie said, yes, some of us diaper guys love sitting there in our urine soaked, feces filled diapers, and we're going to do what we are going to do. Wink wink.
Now, this absolutely grosses out lots of people--even many who otherwise enjoy wearing diapers--and that's OK. As I said, this is an acquired taste and it's not for everybody.
And it's not something that I do often, either, because it requires being alone in the house for several hours and that's a pleasure that I almost NEVER get because I still have kids who live at home. Pooping your diapers and staying in them for a few hours absolutely smells up a large area of your home and when you're done, it takes a few hours for the smell to clear out. So I never do this when my kids are in the house or likely to show up at any time. They must be out of town or at some location where I know they will not be back for hours. And work doesn't even meet this requirement as, one of my kids does work, but often gets off early or is told to go home if the work slows down, so, you just never know.
I can poop my diapers around my wife, she knows and understands, but she doesn't like being around me when my diapers are loaded so I stay in a complete different part of the house. And I think if she could see how much fun I have in them--bouncing up and down and squishing the poop as I get myself off in them, getting poop all over me in the process, I think that--even though she knows, she'd still be a bit shocked.
So, it is what it is. Something that most ABDL's don't enjoy, but, on the rare occasion when it's possible and I'm in the mood, I do.
So that being said, there are three things you can do when you have messy fun that helps minimize the clean-up. One of them is to wear disposable instead of cloth diapers. When done, wipe yourself off with the un-pooped front of the diaper, then go take a shower. Then all you have to do is get rid of the diaper. Best to take it directly outside and toss it into the garbage can so it doesn't smell up your home. It's even better if you can throw it away somewhere else, like a dumpster somewhere.
Me? Well I'm a cloth diaper lover, I don't much like disposables, so when I want to be totally naughty and do this I instead wear a pair of white, wide-crotched "granny panties" that I bought on Ebay under a pair of plastic pants. I have one particular pair of plastic pants that I use for this so that my other ones don't smell like poop (and even if you wash them, once that smell gets into them it's hard to get it out). Sometimes I will wear the granny panties inside of my regular diapers as "containment" panties, or stuff a diaper down the front to soak up the pee while I load the rear. It's much much easier to merely have to wash a pair of panties than do a big load of poopy cloth diapers. And if the panties somehow are found by one of my kids, they will just think that they belong to my wife.
That being said, you have to rinse off the panties in the shower before you toss them into the washer. And that brings up the third thing: If possible, when you get yourself off in your loaded panties / diapers, do it in the shower. This really only works if you have a shower stall and a shower head with a hose that you can take down and use for a sprayer. When it's time for my fun to be over, I go in the bathroom, lock the door, turn on the fan, then go into the shower stall and close the door. I sit on the floor up against one of the walls. Sometimes I take a mirror in there and put it opposite me on the floor so I can see by looking at what I did just how bad I've been. Then I have my fun.
When done, it's all contained in the shower. Turn on the water, get it warm, then clean up. I always clean it off of me, first. The reasoning is, if the fire alarm goes off or some other emergency, I'll at least be clean and better able to deal with it. Then I rinse it all off of my diapers (if I wore them) or the panties. Then I rinse it all down the drain. Then I take a regular shower. Then I clean the shower stall using Tilex. By the time I'm done I'm clean, my baby clothes are rinsed and ready for the wash, the shower is spotless, and the smell is gone--all you can smell is the chlorine in the Tilex.
Works like a charm, it's not that big of a deal to do, and one you get used to after a while. So, if you want to try loading your diapers but don't because of dreading the clean-up, well, here are a few tips to make that better. Give it a try. If you're like me you'll learn to love it. I can even sometimes get away with this (in the panties) when my wife / kids ARE in the house, though I always do it early in the morning before they wake up. No need to take any unnecessary chances! Good luck.