Is pooping your diaper really worth the cleanup? I'm torn

It's all about the moment when it happens. Is it worth it? Yes! Especially the very first time that you consciously do it, fully dressed with some kind of protection in your pants, and made the strong decision to not allow yourself to go to the toilet, resist every instinct to dash to it at the last moment. Until you just can't hold it anymore!

This first time, I do remember that as well. I never had the same again as well, untill my big sister (in my ABDL/kink family that is) decided (mutually of course) that I am not allowed to use the toilet when I am on my way to her or with her and in any circumstance. This makes it possible to have that ‘first time feeling’ every time again, because there is no choice in this matter. So when the urge hits, I can contemplate all I want, but the outcome will be the same. This is not a sexual dynamic, but she knows that messing my diaper makes me feel extra little and she is just being supportive in this particular way.

She knows my facial expression when I need to go and always calls me out on it and reminds me of the fact that I am diapered for a reason.

Spike

This topic reminds me of the time Natasha experienced her first intentional dirty diaper. She stood in the middle of the living room wearing a dry kids diaper and pushed a large load into the seat of her diaper. The emotional response was so cute, she broke down and cried like a little girl would upon having a poopy diaper accident. The room of friends burst out laughing when she slipped and planted her bottom on the ground. The finishing experience of a good dirty diaper, sitting in it.

I think pooping in a diaper or my pants is well worth it. It makes me feel so babyish pushing the poopy into my diaper. I don’t mind the smell or the clean up not afraid to mess in public as well

I have found that filling my diaper is a great feeling.

A full bladder and rectum, then inject 15ml of glycerin into my butt hole. Diaper on and relax. Then the spasms start, gently and work up to very intense over 40...50 minutes. Loss of control over my bladder, just feeling the warmth flowing around me. Then the uncontrollable pressure build up to the point of exploding.

The clean up afterwards is well worth it for myself. I found the lack of control for that short time, exhilarating.

At first I didn't like the cleanup at all but it's not a big deal now, just worked out the quickest way to get cleaned up

I'd rather use an enema first, then either evacuate another enema or load of bananas instead, slightly less mess? Do I like the squish feeling so I can see the thought of filling the diaper with cooled oatmeal as a mess substitute, it's not bad for the skin either, unlike the real shit. (See what I did there?)

It's definitely worth it if it's a choice between pooping in your pants or down your pant leg or pooping in a diaper.

Really, no. It's a moment of intrigue and build-up in exchange for a much longer moment of clean-up. I've never had the fortune of meeting a woman for play, but if she would want to do that, I'd want to be with her when she has the shorter moment of experiencing the release she needs, but we'd need to mutually agree that clean-up is her task.