Do we like to be in control or be controlled?

I've never experienced an AB dynamic, though i was regressed very effectively once by a natural Dom. We didn't use any of the D/s verbiage, but that is exactly what happened. i didn't even put words to it till after and i was analyzing my feelings.

i'm definitely in the bottom/sub and probably AB slot. i can see it happening, but would involve significant mind fuck for me. i am not into ‘role play’ at all. my feelings and disposition are very real, so pretend or role play actually shut me down. Force, meanness or bullying also shut me down.

Affectionate degradation, on the other hand, surfaces and exposes the sub part of me in a big way. i cannot switch or even see myself with a switch, it's the symbiosis of opposites that i think makes this work and sustain.

I tend to lean more towards the little side, I am not really a switch either. My way of domination would be, “go lay down on the couch, if you don't mind that is. ”. Finding a right Daddy, DaddyDom or even Dom, is hard though. I've had a few, and the more I end up with, the more I realize what it is I am looking for. I am currently in a possible dynamic, I am still uncertain about it. He himself is great, treats me right, but there are red flags so I'm taking it a bit slower just to be sure. I do not want to get hurt again. Takes a lot to be a in control I think. In the long wrong the one being controlled really has the control, as they can dictate , or should be dictating how much control He/She has over them.