Was Receiving a first blowjob embarrassing?

Like you were really brave to receive such a thing I’m sure any woman reading this will say lol.

That being said, I remember being with a young cheerleader who was very tan and attractive (we were the same age). I was shy and not great socially at that age so still not sure how I stood out enough to have a relationship with this girl.

Anyway, one evening after school we were hanging out and afforded some extended, unintentional alone time by her parents. While sitting on the couch she looked down at my pants and said, “if you show it to me I will put it in my mouth”. I was caught off guard and my heart started racing a thousand bpm. We had not even really kissed that much and I’m pretty sure I could count the times we had even held hands at that point.

I slowly undid my pants and moved them part way down, but was hesitant to fully expose everything. She finally took over and lowered them all the way to my knees. I felt very awkward with her looking at it for the first time and even more so when she wrapped her hand around the base to hold it up for her mouth.

As she started to lower her head to my lap it felt like she was going in for a close inspection which increased my feelings of embarrassment. She paused for a minute hovering her head above my penis. Her brown hair shrouding any view of when the actual moment of her going down onto me might happen. I held my breath with anticipation.

Then, finally, I heard the quiet sound of her lips opening and felt myself going into her open mouth. In a moment of feeling a need to reciprocate the level of intimate contact I blindly reached my hand to her her lower neck then pushed my hand down the front of her unbuttoned Abercrombie polo. I inched deeper inside her shirt until I felt the crease of the top of her breasts. I chose to go right for ergonomics sake and effortlessly slid inside her bra and down until the mound of her breast filled my hand, feeling her nipple against the center of my palm.

She stopped and looked up saying to me, “When your ready, go in my mouth, okay?”. I was red in the face at this request. The thought was horrifying as the sensation still assimilated somewhat at that age with the feeling of uncontrollably peeing.

Speechless, I nodded and was quickly back in her mouth. Before long I knew the moment was imminent and quickly warned her I was about to go. I heard her take a deep breath and I felt the uncontrollable peeing sensation. I could tell she was making some awkward swallowing attempts as I pulsed and she retained me in her mouth as she swallowed.

Obviously it was erotic, and still is thinking back, but also felt awkward after and embarrassing at the time.

Anyone relate?