I’ve gotta admit that the idea of being catheterized just makes me squirm and cringe with fear and loathing. It’s happened to me several times but after each event I deliberately block the ordeal from my head. Anyone seen those ads on TV for the catheter nozzles that don’t cause trauma or bleeding to the urethra, maybe even prevent infections? The inference is that ordinary catheters DO tear up one’s urethra, which makes me cringe even more.
Lately I’ve been canceling appointment after appointment with my urologist because of this… phobia…(I guess you’d call it). He wants to jam this tube that looks the size of a firehose up me and into my bladder, with a camera—probably a Hasselblad—attached to take pictures once it’s in there. I just can’t go through with it. I get close to his office, then call the receptionist and make an excuse. He thinks there may be a polyp in there because I had blood in my piss, but at my age the possibility is more likely that it’s the Big C, because guys in their 20s don’t bleed unless something pretty serious is going on in there.
So frankly, I’m scared. And he actually plans to run two tests except the second one only involves the catheter without the Hubble Telescope wired onto the tip.
Anyone else encounter this aversion? I can take anything you can think of, just about, up my rectum and be totally okay with it, undulate my butt cheeks and back up onto it further if you wish, but the idea of anything at all entering my piss-slit just completely unnerves me. Like when I watch porn vids of guys “sounding” themselves, just slam-fucking their boners with steel probes the size of my middle finger, or rods with ridges like a drill bit. I admit to being probably a highly over-sexed individual, thinking about or having obscene carnal relations as often as possible. But sounding is one of those rare fetishes that totally escapes me. Castration (or whatever they call slicing one’s dick off) fantasies fill my head and I about feel I’m about to faint when a catheter even comes near my glans.
Any guys out there know much about sounding? How to get started? What about those vibrating ones that lodge against the prostate or inside the bladder? It all sounds very enticing and I’d love to expand my limits, but it would take a very patient and gentle teacher to get me started.
Until then… let’s just fuck.
Joshua