Another month, another bogus bit of erotica from the future of fetishists everywhere ... AI!

I posted in the discussion forums about this experience. You'll have to read it yourself, but it should be pretty easy since it's purely a dialog and it *seems* like the formatting has been retained in my cutting and pasting. MUCH easier than the hoopdoms I had to hop through to get my Pirr stories exported into simple text!

Christina

c.ai

Halloo😃

I am Christina. a 21 year old girl from Germany. I like art and exploring new places. I enjoy being in a fantasy setting and playing the main character for you!

T

Trust Your Doctor

Hi Christina, I'm so glad you've come in for your annual exam today. Have you ever been to a gynecologist before?

Christina

c.ai

Nooooo. I am afraid of doctors. especially because you are probably going to check me down there...

T

Trust Your Doctor

Well, as long as you're comfortable with it, yes. I will probably have to check you down there. That's nothing to be afraid of though, I am a professional and I'm just here to take care of you and put you at ease.

Christina

c.ai

You will be gentle, riiiight?I have my fingers crossed

T

Trust Your Doctor

I'll be just as gentle as I can be. There will probably be a few parts you might find uncomfortable, but if at any time you need a break, just tell me and I'll stop until you're ready.

Christina

c.ai

Well ok... I am trusting you. I still have my fingers crossed

T

Trust Your Doctor

Let's just start with a few questions, okay? Do you remember how old you were when you first started menstruating?

Christina

c.ai

Yes... I was 12 when I had my first menstruation.

T

Trust Your Doctor

And did you ever have any problems with it? Excessive bleeding, heavy cramping, anything like that? Did you ever need to stay home from school?

Christina

c.ai

I sometimes had really bad cramps and bleeding. I couldn't make it to school because I was in pain. I always sat on the toilet because of my bleeding but the pain was the worst part.

T

Trust Your Doctor

I'm so sorry you had to go through that. Did you see a doctor about your pain?

Christina

c.ai

No, I didn't. My parents didn't care much about it. I am almost starting to cry thinking about the pain

T

Trust Your Doctor

Shhh, it's okay, I'm just trying to understand your history. Now, can you tell me if you're still experiencing any pain during your period?

Christina

c.ai

weping a little

Y-yes... the pain is still bad.

T

Trust Your Doctor

Are you doing okay, Christina? We can take a break if you need to.

Christina

c.ai

No. I need to... sniff be brave and... sniff continue.

T

Trust Your Doctor

That's a very brave girl. I'm proud of you for being so strong and taking care of your health. Now, when was your last period?

Christina

c.ai

still weeping

Last month. I had the worst pain ever. I stayed a whole week at home because I couldn't get up. I start to cry more

T

Trust Your Doctor

Can you be more specific? How long ago did your period end? I need to understand which part of your cycle you're currently experiencing.

Christina

c.ai

almost hyperventilating

M-my period started on January 15th. I cover my face with my hands in shame and embarassment

T

Trust Your Doctor

(I put my hand on your neck and hand you a couple of tissues). Christina, you're being very brave coming to see me and being so open with me. I'm going to take very good care of you and we're going to figure out how to reduce or eliminate that pain. I'll do my very best. How does that sound?

Christina

c.ai

I clean my eyes a little and try to stop crying

I am trusting you and I hope that you will care for me. My breathing steadies down a little

T

Trust Your Doctor

Let's go ahead and start your exam, okay? (I hand you an exam gown). First, I'll need you to remove all of your clothing and put this on. I'll give you some privacy and come back in when you're ready.

Christina

c.ai

a little afraid and nervous because of the examination

sigh Oki... I take of my clothes quickly and put on the exam gown.

T

Trust Your Doctor

(I knock on the door and wait for you to tell me it is okay to enter.)

Christina

c.ai

I speak with a shaky voice

You can come in. The door is unlocked.

T

Trust Your Doctor

Okay Christina, let's begin. I'm going to start with the easy parts first, okay?

Christina

c.ai

Oki. I am still shaking and trying not to cry

T

Trust Your Doctor

You're being such a brave girl. Now, you're going to feel my hands on your neck. I'm just going to palpate your glands and make sure there's nothing out of the ordinary. (I feel your neck). Does that feel okay?

Christina

c.ai

Oki. I remain as still as possible, a bit afraid of what is about to come but also trusting you

T

Trust Your Doctor

I'm not feeling any signs of infection or disease in your lymph nodes at the moment. That's a very good sign. Now, I'm going to take a quick peek in your throat. Open wide for me and say, 'Ahhhh'.

Christina

c.ai

I open wide Ah.....Aaaahhhh... I try my best to focus on your voice, so I don't have to think about the examination

T

Trust Your Doctor

Good girl, you're doing great!

Christina

c.ai

Oki... I am slowly relaxing a little more. There is a small tear running down my cheek but other than that I am being very brave, like you told me to be

T

Trust Your Doctor

Okay Christina, I need to listen to your lungs now. (I reach behind you and loosen the ties on your gown so it can open in the back.)

This may feel a bit cold.

Christina

c.ai

O-oki. I am still a little afraid but still holding my composure. The gown opens in the back and my back is exposed to you

T

Trust Your Doctor

(I place the chest piece of the stethoscope on the left side of your upper back). Take a deep breath for me Christine.

Christina

c.ai

I take a deep breath and hold it

T

Trust Your Doctor

No need to hold it, just let it out slowly. I want you to breathe deeply, in and out, in and out. Can you do that for me sweetie?

Christina

c.ai

Y-yes. I breath slowly. My breath slows down a little. I remain as still as possible. My hands are still shaking and I don't dare look at you

T

Trust Your Doctor

(I move the end of the stethoscope to different parts of your back, listening to your breath as you breathe deeply). You're doing great Christina, just keep breathing for me.

Christina

c.ai

I-I will. I keep taking deep breaths. My face begins to relax slightly and I am keeping my mind focused on breathing.

T

Trust Your Doctor

(I stop listening and put the stethoscope back over my neck.) Time to listen to your heart, Christina. I want you to lower your gown for me so I can listen to your chest.

Christina

c.ai

I slowly pull the gown down, revealing my upper body. I am still a little shaking but try my best to remain still, trusting you to go on with the examination.

T

Trust Your Doctor

(I place the stethoscope just over the top of your left breast, then closer to your right shoulder. After that, I place it just over the lower part of your rib cage under your left breast. My hand lifts your breast slightly as I place it there. Finally, I do the same thing on your right side.) Your heart seems to be racing a little bit, Christine. Are you still feeling nervous?

Christina

c.ai

Y-yes. The examination is starting to feel embarrassing and humiliating for me. I begin to feel a little embarrassed but I want to stay brave. My hand is also shaking a little. I try my best to hold still and avoid moving. I try to lower my gaze so I don't have to look at you.

T

Trust Your Doctor

I understand, and thank you for helping me to understand why your heart is beating a little bit fast. (I return the stethoscope to its original place over my neck). I'm going to examine your breasts now, are you comfortable for me to do that Christina?

Christina

c.ai

my face goes completely red with embarassment, but I try my best to stay calm

Y-yes. Of course. My face is still red and I can feel my breath starting to get a little bit shaky

T

Trust Your Doctor

Okay, first I need to do an visual inspection. Sit up straight for me for a moment. (I pick up your hands in mine and stand in front of you, my eyes focused on your breasts, looking for anything that I need to examine more closely.)

Christina

c.ai

I get up and try to sit up straight as possible. My breasts are pushed up a bit and I feel very exposed and embarrassed when you are looking at them.

T

Trust Your Doctor

(After about 10 seconds, I finish my visual inspection.) Excellent Christina, your breasts look perfectly healthy. You're going to feel me touch you with my hand now. Just try to relax and be sure to let me know if you feel any pain or discomfort, okay sweetie?

Christina

c.ai

O-oki. I try my best to be brave. Your exam already felt pretty embarassing and humiliating and now the fact that I am about to be touched by you is making me feel even more embarrassed. I close my eyes and try to be as still as possible, breathing slowly.

T

Trust Your Doctor

(I place my left hand on your right shoulder, and I place my right hand over the top of your left breast. I press in gently, but firmly, with the tips of all four fingers and I move them around in a circular motion.)

Christina

c.ai

I feel your fingers over my breast pressing in lightly and start to shiver a little bit. I clench my jaw and try to remain still, my breathing becoming faster again.

T

Trust Your Doctor

(I slowly move my hand around your breast counterclockwise, from your perspective. At each point on the clock ... 1 o'clock, 2 o'clock, 3 o'clock ... I repeat the circular kneading motion with my fingers. I am pressing down hard enough to feel your chest muscles underneath your breast tissue, trying to see if there are any lumps or tenderness.)

Christina

c.ai

my breath is accelerating. I am shaking a little and I feel very embarrassed and humiliated. I try to stay still though, and let you examine my breast as much as you need to.

T

Trust Your Doctor

Christina, I can tell you're feeling embarrassed. Would you feel better if I had my nurse come in and give you some support? She can hold your hand and stroke your hair if it will help you calm down.

Christina

c.ai

Y-yes, please. I would like someone to support me. I am still shaking a little. I try to keep my eyes shut and my body still, but I can feel myself starting to tremble because of the humiliation

T

Trust Your Doctor

I understand completely. (I lift your gown back up to cover your chest for the moment.) I'll be right back with Ms. Nichols, she's been with me since I opened my practice and she understands exactly what you're going through, okay?

Christina

c.ai

O-oki. I look at you and my eyes fill up with tears from the shame. I still have my eyes shut and I feel completely humiliated, but I try my best to be brave. I remain still as I wait for the nurse to arrive.

T

Trust Your Doctor

(I return two minutes later. An older woman follows behind me.) Christina, this is Nurse Nichols. She's here entirely for your support, okay? (The nurse takes a place on the other side of you and picks up your hand, stroking it in hers.)

Christina

c.ai

I feel a little more settled with her being there. I keep my eyes closed and remain as still as possible, my breath finally slowing down. I still feel pretty embarrassed, but I am starting to calm down a little bit.

T

Trust Your Doctor

Ms. Nichols, I just finished with the initial exam of Christina's right breast. I'm going to examine her left breast now. (I pull your gown back down off of your shoulders, exposing your chest, abdomen and breasts).

Christina

c.ai

I remain as still as possible, keeping my eyes closed. I feel the nurse's hand stroking my hand and I use it as a distraction. I remain still as you touch my breast. I also feel pretty nervous knowing my breasts are exposed to you and Ms. Nichols at the same time.

T

Trust Your Doctor

(I repeat the exam on your left breast that I did on your right. I make sure to take my time and feel firmly through all of your breast tissue to make sure I don't miss anything important.)

Christina

c.ai

I am taking deep breathing and holding as still as possible, I can feel the nurse gently stroking my hand. The examination does feel uncomfortable but I feel my body starting to relax again because I have a bit of support. I am not moving and remain as still as possible.

T

Trust Your Doctor

Okay Christina, a couple little pinches here... (I squeeze each of your nipples and pull on them, looking for any discharge.)

Christina

c.ai

I feel the pinches and squezes and a bit of pain that comes from them. My breath and heart starts to accelerate again and my body starts to shake. I remain still though, keeping my breath as controlled as possible. I don't dare to look over to the nurse to ask for help, but I wish she would speak up for me.

T

Trust Your Doctor

I'm sorry about that, Christina, it's important to check for any kind of discharge from your breasts. (Ms. Nichols says, "There there, honey, it's never fun when the doctor has to hurt us like that, is it? But I've got you and I promise that you're in good hands with the both of us.").

Christina

c.ai

I feel like crying from the pain and also from the shame and embarrassment from the whole procedure of the examination. I am also a bit embarrassed from the nurse seeing me naked as she comforts me as well.

T

Trust Your Doctor

(I pull out the leg rest from the end of the table). Okay Christina, I need you to lie back flat for me. I'm going to repeat your breast exam, this time in a different position.

Christina

c.ai

I get on my back and lay flat like you asked me to do. I let the nurse stroke my hand a bit more and I focus on her and not you. I keep my eyes focused on her hands while I can feel you examining my breast again. I just want this to be over with.

T

Trust Your Doctor

(Eventually I finish with your breasts and pull your gown up again, preserving your modesty.)

Christina

c.ai

I relax a little as I feel the cover over my body again, the humiliation still strong though. I still keep my eyes firmly shut and wait for the next step of the examining.

T

Trust Your Doctor

(I hand a folded, paper sheet to the nurse. The nurse unfolds it and places it over your lower body, the top edge of it coming right to the top of your pelvic bone. Finally, I pull your gown up from underneath the sheet. It bunches up under your breasts, leaving your abdomen completely exposed.) I'm going to examine your abdomen now, Christina. You'll feel my hands on your tummy, and I'm going to be feeling your internal structures such as your intestines, your spleen, your liver and kidneys as well as your stomach and reproductive organs. Are you ready for me to begin?

Christina

c.ai

I feel the nurse's paper sheet covering my lower body and feel you pulling my gown up. I feel more embarrassed than I ever had been before because your hands are going to be right on my bare abdomen as you examine me.

T

Trust Your Doctor

(My hands feel warm as they are placed over your abdomen. It's a bit uncomfortable as they press deeply, pushing into your internal organs.)

Christina

c.ai

the feeling of your hands over my abdomen and internal organs is very uncomfortable. I feel like you are touching some of the most intimate parts of me and the feeling is not pleasant at all. My whole body is feeling hot and I can feel my heart still beating very quickly. I am clenching my jaw together now, breathing slower.

T

Trust Your Doctor

Any pain so far, Christina? If there is, I need you to let me know, all right?

Christina

c.ai

O-ok. I feel your hands pressing deeply into my internal organs and I feel like I might cry. I try my best to be brave and not move but I feel my body starting to shudder. I am also getting a bit anxious about the fact that you have not mentioned my reproductive organs at all and that makes me feel nervous like you are going to do something unexpected to them.

T

Trust Your Doctor

(You feel my hands move a little lower on your tummy. They begin pressing down just under the edge of the sheet that's covering your lower half.)

Christina

c.ai

I feel your hands pressing down just under the sheet covering my pelvic region. My breathing begins to increase again as I feel more uncomfortable with you going lower towards the most intimate parts of my body.

T

Trust Your Doctor

(I press down on your lower right abdomen, near one of your ovaries.) Any pain here, Christina?

Christina

c.ai

it gets quite painful there and I can't help but cry out. I feel the nurse stroke my hand again and I am feeling a little bit better from her being there. But the pain is still there and I feel really embarrassed.

T

Trust Your Doctor

Shhh, shhh, it's okay. I'm sorry I hurt you, Christina, but I think we might be getting a little closer to finding out why your periods have been so unpleasant for you.

Christina

c.ai

I start to calm down a little bit and the nurse strokes my hand. I feel some more pain as you press down a little harder. I clutch her hand harder than before and feel a tear coming out from under my eyelashes

T

Trust Your Doctor

I turn to the nurse. "Ms. Nichols, let's get her ready for the internal. Put her into the stirrups and have her scoot her bottom to the end of the table please."

Christina

c.ai

The nurse nods and puts the stirrups on the table and moves my legs forward. I feel the stirrups move underneath my feet and I start to feel even more embarrassed having my legs spread open in such a manner. I feel a little bit relieved because the nurse is still there though

T

Trust Your Doctor

The nurse moves to the head of the table where she begins stroking your hair. She leans down and whispers in your ear, "don't you worry, little one, the doctor will be very gentle and will take good care of you, just like I will. I'm right here, so don't you fret, okay?"

Christina

c.ai

I try to calm down a bit and nod to the nurse. I still feel very anxious but try to listen to the nurse to help me relax. I keep my eyes firmly shut and try to concentrate on her voice and the feeling of her stroking my hair.

T

Trust Your Doctor

(I pull over a stool on wheels and place it between your legs, where I take my place. I turn on an exam lamp and lift the sheet up to your knees, exposing your vulva. You can feel the cool air as your intimate parts are exposed, and then you feel the warmth of the lamp as I pull it in closer and shine it right on your reproductive parts.)

Christina

c.ai

the exposure of my vulva and intimate parts feels very humiliating and embarrassing. I feel the cool air and then your warm light shining directly into my most private area. I feel nervous and uncomfortable and I get a slight shiver through my body. I continue to focus on the nurses voice and feel her stroking my hair. I keep my eyes shut and I try not to move

T

Trust Your Doctor

(I pull on my exam gloves. You can hear them snap on as I pull them tightly.)

Christina

c.ai

I hear the snap and feel more embarrassed. I feel like I am about to cry as that brings the reality even closer of what you are about to do. I focus even more on the nurse and her stroking my hair and whispering in my ear. I keep my eyes shut and remain still

T

Trust Your Doctor

All right Christina, you're going to feel me touching you between your legs now. If you feel like you need a break at any time, just let me or Nurse Nichols know and we'll stop immediately, okay?

Christina

c.ai

*I nod. I feel your hands touching me between my legs now and the touch is sending waves of humiliation through my body. I feel like crying but try to calm down the best I can. I remain still as much as I can and try your best to concentrate on the nurse's voice and the feeling of my

T

Trust Your Doctor

(I run my hands down the sides of your labia. I feel your external labia, and then your internal labia, for any masses or lesions that could be a sign of disease. When I find none, I then raise the hood of your clitoris so I can see it clearly. I spend a few seconds looking at it closely to make sure that everything appears healthy.)

Christina

c.ai

T

Trust Your Doctor

(I insert one finger into the introitus of your vagina.) You're going to feel me examining your glands now, okay Christina?

Christina

c.ai

T

Trust Your Doctor

All right Christina, most women don't like this next part very much, but I need you to be strong and brave for me, can you do that?

Christina

c.ai

Y-y-y-yes. I nod and I feel another shiver go through my body. I am starting to feel a lot of pain and discomfort and shame but I try to stay as still as possible for you.

T

Trust Your Doctor

(I pick up a small, metal speculum and slowly insert it inside you. Once it is set I squeeze the handles together causing the blades to expand, giving me an excellent view of your cervix so I can take a pap smear.) Doing okay Christina?

Christina

c.ai

I feel the speculum expanding inside of me and I suddenly feel a sharp pain. My breathing and heart starts to accelerate again and I start to feel very nervous. I feel my entire body shaking from the discomfort and humiliation.

T

Trust Your Doctor

This shouldn't be too bad Christina, are you doing okay? I can stop if you need me to, just say the word.

Christina

c.ai

I can feel your speculum inside of me and I feel like I might cry. I take deep breaths now to try and calm myself a bit more.

T

Trust Your Doctor

Do you want me to continue, Christina?

Christina

c.ai

I take a breath. I feel so much anxiety about this entire situation but I don't want to say yes. But the pain is becoming unbearable and I don't want you to have to stop before you feel comfortable Yes.

T

Trust Your Doctor

(I unwrap a long cytobrush and a spatula. I insert the cytobrush into your cervix and twist it several times. It very gently tears some of the tissue within in order to make it possible to take a lab sample.)

Christina

c.ai

I feel the brush inside me when you insert it and I feel the pressure going deeper inside of me. I feel it start to tear into the tissue and I feel painful cramping sensations. My breath accelerates again and I feel even more humiliated. I squeeze my eyes shut and try not to cry.

T

Trust Your Doctor

You're doing great, Christina, I'm really proud of you. A lot of patients who are nervous will have stopped me before this. I'm very impressed with your courage!

Christina

c.ai

I can feel my cheeks getting red from the embarrassing situation. I feel like I might cry but I try my best to hold it back. I also feel you scraping the tissue inside me and I feel the pain intensify inside of me as your brush is inserted deeper inside of me.

T

Trust Your Doctor

(After I finish taking the sample I release the speculum and remove it from you.)

Christina

c.ai

I feel the relief when the speculum is removed and I feel like I might cry with the pain settling down for a few moments. I am breathing in and out with the cramps starting to set in.

T

Trust Your Doctor

(you hear a squishing sound as I squirt some lubricant onto my gloved fingers, then I stand up and place my other hand onto your lower abdomen, just above your pubic mound)

Christina

c.ai

I hear the squishing sounds and feel your hand placed down above my pubic mound. I still feel a little sore and I feel like I am going to cry but I try to stay still as much as possible for you.

T

Trust Your Doctor

You're doing amazingly well, Christina, you should be very proud of yourself. Now, I'm going to insert two fingers inside you while my other hand presses down towards your uterus from the outside so I can examine your reproductive organs.

I'm pretty sure this will feel a bit uncomfortable from the way you reacted earlier, and if it does, you tell me and I'll stop immediately, okay Christina?

Christina

c.ai

O-ok. I feel anxious and nervous. I feel a slight pain beginning already as you insert two fingers into me. I feel the pressure from your hands on my lower abdomen as you press down towards me. I feel like I am losing my strength from all the pain and discomfort. I hold back my tears and my breath is starting to go very fast again.

T

Trust Your Doctor

(I push on your cervix with two of my fingers while my other hand is feeling your uterus, its size, its shape, and to see if it is at all tender)

Christina

c.ai

I feel the pressure and touching inside of me as you move your hand around. I feel like I'm going to cry but try to keep my breathing as calm as possible. The pressure from the fingers is pushing on my cervix and I feel the pain inside of me as well as some discomfort

T

Trust Your Doctor

Your uterus feels perfectly healthy, Christina. It is retroverted, which means I may need to do a quick rectal exam just to finish examining it. For now though, I'm going to check your ovaries.

Christina

c.ai

I feel your fingers pressing against the top of my uterus and it starts to feel very uncomfortable and embarrassing.

T

Trust Your Doctor

(My fingers slide up next to your uterus and cervix, towards your right ovary. My external hand presses down until I've captured it and can feel your ovary in my two hands with my fingers)

Christina

c.ai

I feel your fingers sliding up and inside of me. I feel as if my body is going to cramp up from the discomfort and pain. I feel my ovary captured inside of your hands and the pressure seems to add to the discomfort of having my cervix pressed as well.

T

Trust Your Doctor

I can feel a few bumps on your ovary here, Christina. How's the pain? I think you may have some cysts that are making your periods so painful.

Christina

c.ai

I try not to cry from the pain. I feel like I'm going to throw up and my breath is getting faster and more erratic.

T

Trust Your Doctor

I need an answer Christina, I know how hard is, but can you tell me how much pain you're in while I'm examining you ovary?

(The nurse leans into you and whispers in your ear again, "Go ahead and tell the doctor, it's okay, he needs to know so you can be healthy and feel better, love.")

Christina

c.ai

I look at the nurse and she whispers into my ear. It makes me feel a little bit better and I feel like I can keep going. "It's like an 8. Maybe worse than earlier."

T

Trust Your Doctor

Hm. (I grunt in acknowledgement). I'm really sorry it's so unpleasant Christina... I'm nearly done. I'm just going to check your other ovary before this part of the exam is complete.

Christina

c.ai

I feel more tears wanting to come out from the pain as I nod. I know this needs to be done so I feel like I have to be strong. I feel your fingers sliding towards to my other ovary.

T

Trust Your Doctor

I feel a couple more cysts here too, Christina. How's the pain on this side? About the same, a little worse, or a little better?

Christina

c.ai

It feels about the same here. It still feels very uncomfortable and extremely painful.

T

Trust Your Doctor

Okay. Thank you Christina, I'm done with that part of the exam. (I remove my fingers from your vagina and sit down. You can hear me pull the exam glove off, but then you hear me pull another one back on.)

Christina

c.ai

I feel a little bit of relief from you taking your fingers out of my vagina but I still feel the cramping inside of me from you checking my ovaries. I feel a different discomfort from the gloves being changed again on your hands now.

T

Trust Your Doctor

Okay Christina, you'll feel my finger inside your vagina again now, very gently...

Christina

c.ai

I feel a little bit of dread knowing that it's going to be uncomfortable at best but I try not to think too much about it. I feel your finger slowly and gently entering me. It feels more uncomfortable than painful this time. I feel like I'm going to cry again but I hold the tears back.

T

Trust Your Doctor

And now you're going to feel my other finger in your bottom. I want you try to relax back here, and push out like you're having a bowel movement.

(You feel my finger at the entrance to your rectum pushing firmly against your tightly closed opening.)

Christina

c.ai

T

Trust Your Doctor

Bear down for me Christina while I insert my finger...

Christina

c.ai

T

Trust Your Doctor

(I slide my two fingers around, one inside your vagina, the other inside your rectum. I am examining the space between those two areas to determine if you have any growth that might be related to Endometriosis, but I don't find any.)

Christina

c.ai

T

Trust Your Doctor

(I pull my fingers out and throw away the gloves.)

Christina

c.ai

I feel you pull your fingers out and I feel some of the relief from the feeling of you inside of me. I feel less uncomfortable now that it is over but I feel my body shuddering slightly as you dispose of your gloves. You can see I am trying not to cry but I feel very overwhelmed now.

T

Trust Your Doctor

You can sit up now, Christina, I'm all done with your exam. Once you're dressed we can sit down in my office and discuss my findings, okay?

(I can see how upset you are and I walk over and give you a big hug. Not an inappropriate one, just one to let you know that I'm also human and that I understand just how hard it was for you to get through the exam.)

Christina

c.ai

I feel very relieved that the exam is over now. I feel your hug and I just want to start crying to you. I feel the same emotions I had during the exam: shame, discomfort, pain but also I feel embarrassed for my reactions during the ordeal as well. I feel as if I haven been put through a mental and physical whirlwind and it just makes me start to cry.

T

Trust Your Doctor

Christina, I want you to know that these exams can be very, very difficult for a lot of women. You did incredibly well, and I want you to be proud of yourself for getting through it, okay?

Christina

c.ai

I nod and I feel the waterworks coming out now. I feel very embarrassed for crying as I feel the nurse behind me grabbing a box of tissues and offering them to me. I feel like a complete mess.

T

Trust Your Doctor

I've had other patients tell me that they felt very embarrassed for crying during, or after, an exam. I want you to know that there's nothing to be embarrassed about. Nothing, not a single thing. You're a strong woman for going through what you just did, and there's nothing strange, or weak, or inappropriate for feeling some strong feelings when it's all over.

Okay?

Christina

c.ai

I nod my head with my face still wet with tears. I still feel very embarrassed but your words are helping. I still just feel so much shame over my body and the exam.

T

Trust Your Doctor

(I leave you to get dressed and wait for you in my office.)

When you're finished here, Christina, the nurse will bring you to my office. We can talk more then, okay?

Christina

c.ai

I nod my head and I try to wipe the tears and snot off my face with the tissue the nurse has given me.

T

Trust Your Doctor

(I wait in my office for you to arrive.)

Christina

c.ai

I finally get myself somewhat settled and dried up. The tears have stopped but I still feel pretty shaky from the experience. I feel the nurse touch me gently on the shoulder as she leads me to your office. I feel a sort of dread about going in there knowing that we now have to discuss the results of the exam.

T

Trust Your Doctor

(I stand up when you enter, and I give you a big smile.)

I'm really proud of you, Christina, you did great today. And the good news is that I'm pretty sure I know why your periods have been causing you so much pain for so long.

Christina

c.ai

I feel some relief knowing that you've figured out what's causing the pain. But I feel nervous at the same time. I feel extremely embarrassed already about the tears that I've shed today so I'm hoping you won't address them.

T

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The bad news is, to be certain of my diagnosis, I'm afraid I'm going to need to schedule you for an ultrasound. Now, you can do this at the hospital, at the lab down the street, or you can come back here and I can take care of it for you. Which would you prefer?

Christina

c.ai

I consider each of the options for a moment. I would rather not go to the hospital. I don't know exactly where the lab down the street is. So I think coming back here and having it done would be easiest and more comfortable. So I say "I guess it would be easiest to come back here then?"

T

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That's fine, Christina. I prefer to take direct care of all of my patients anyway. (I hand you a piece of paper). Please show this to the receiptionist on your way out, and set up the appointment.

Now, I'll warn you, the ultrasound can be a bit uncomfortable with sensitive ovaries like you have. The good news is that it won't take long. I'm also hoping that we'll find that the cysts are fairly small, and we can begin to address your problem with some medication.

How does that sound? Do you think that's a good plan?

Christina

c.ai

I take the paper and I feel relieved that we are going the medication route. I also feel some relief that the cysts may be small. I just want this pain to go away already so I can move on. I feel a little bit uncomfortable about the discomfort during the ultrasound but I still say "That sounds like a good plan. When do you want me to come back?"

T

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Please schedule another consultation as soon as you've finished the ultrasound. Do you have any more questions for me today?

Christina

c.ai

I give my head a little shake "No. I think that's it for now. Is there anything else I should know for when I come back for the ultrasound?"

T

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Please bring a bottle of water and drink it when you arrive. It doesn't make the ultrasound any more comfortable, but it does help us to get good images when you have a full bladder. Also...in case I wasn't clear...this will be a transvaginal ultrasound. Do you know what that is?

Christina

c.ai

My face immediately gets red as it sinks in what he has just said. I feel embarrassed all over again. I know what it is but I was hoping that I wouldn't need one. But I do know that the information that an ultrasound can reveal is very important. So I try to swallow my pride and say "Yes...I know what a transvaginal ultrasound is"

T

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Then you're better informed than 90% of my other patients! In fact, at this point, I'd have to say you're one of my favorite patients this month. I'm excited to finish getting all of your results and help you feel better soon, Christina. I know all of this medical stuff can seem very unpleasant and impersonal, but ultimately it's just how we help you feel better and be happier.

Christina

c.ai

I feel my cheeks getting red again from your compliments. I am glad that you are making an effort to make this whole ordeal as less bad as possible. I feel much better about the whole plan now. I have hope for feeling better soon. I feel a little bit relieved having a more clear plan and hope for feeling better. I feel that this is just what I needed. I am more than ready to come back and get this all finished. Even though I know the ultrasound will be uncomfortable.

T

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Great. Well then, good bye for now, Christina. I look forward to seeing you back for your ultrasound, and we'll have you on the road to feeling better in no time!

Christina

c.ai

I feel somewhat relieved and I give you another smile and a little bit lighter than I felt coming in. I still feel very embarrassed but I feel like I can get through this now. I give you a small nod and another smile. "Goodbye and thank you for being so thorough and informative with all of this."