Ashley felt her stomach lurch. They weren’t done yet?

“The next step will be a quick rectal exam. Again, not everyone’s favorite, but it should go quick.” Ashley blushed.

“Um, I don’t think, I mean, look Sarah, I’ve never had that happen I mean, I’ve been to the doctor for exams and everything, but they’ve never done that. I don’t think I can…”

“I promise it won’t hurt. You an also watch in the mirror, and see exactly what I’m doing.”

She felt a little panicky now. “I seriously don’t think I can. I mean I haven’t even touched myself down there.” There was a pause. Ashley was still lying on the table, legs apart, Sarah standing next to the box of gloves.

“Would that make you feel more comfortable?”

“What?”

“Touching yourself there first. Like,” Sarah’s voice changed back to her more professional tone” “If you were able to be a part of the exam?”

“Like, my butt?”

Ashley felt like all the adrenaline in her body had been dumped into her bloodstream all at once. Touch her self? Down there? In front of Sarah? Did she mean like-

“Yeah, our teacher said that one of her patients always asks if she could put the speculum in herself during pap smears.” She paused again. “This isn’t… I mean, it’s not that different. We can always try...”

Ashley waited. “I mean… you’re sure it’s not, like…”

“It’ll be fine. Here.” Sarah passed her a pair of gloves.

“Put these on. I’ll show you what to do.”

Still lying on the exam table with her legs open, Ashley numbly pulled on a pair of gloves. She hadn’t worn exam gloves like these before. Not knowing what to do, she rested her hands on her stomach. The nitrile felt dry and a little cool, the fingers slightly loose. Sarah finished putting on her own gloves, then picked up the tube of lube.

“Here, we’re just going to touch a little bit first. Give me your hand. I can help you.”

Sarah took Ashley’s gloved hand in hers, and slowly guiding her down, between her legs. Ashley closed her eyes.

“This is your perineum. It’s the space between your vagina and your anus. We just palpate it a little, like this.” Ashley felt her own fingers pressed into her perineum, then Sarah’s. “See? No problem. Don’t forget you can always look in the mirror as well.” Ashley looked at the mirror, still positioned so she could see herself. Her vagina was mostly blocked by her hand now, but she could feel she was still wet. She watched as Ashley took her pointer finger in her gloved hand. “Now we’re just going to move down a little bit more. Can you feel your anus now?” Ashley nodded. “Now just press it with the pad of your finger.” Sarah moved Ashley’s finger around in little circles. It felt weird, feeling her anus through the glove. She’d never toucher herself like this before. “That’s the muscle we’re going to try to relax in just a moment. Here, I’m going to lubricate your finger for you.” She reached for the tube of KY jelly again. “Unlike the vagina, the anus doesn’t self-lubricate, so we need to give it a little help. Here-”

Ashley watched as Sarah squeezed some lube into her hand, then taking hold of Ashley’s hand, worked it up and down her outstretched finger. As Sarah held her hand, slowly lubing it, Ashley felt more and more turned on. What was happening? “And this goes without saying, but if you’re ever going to explore down there on your own, wearing gloves is a good idea.” Ashley blushed. “Now, your finger is going to feel a bit slippery, but that’s ok. Reach back to where we just were, and touch your anus again.” Ashley could feel the cool, slippery lube on her glove as she pressed once more on her anus.

“Good job. Now I’m going to help guide you in.” Ashley watched in the mirror as Sarah held her finger, and slowly began pressing. She could feel her vagina, pressed against her wrist, getting wet again. “Try and push like you’re going to the bathroom. That’ll help you slide in.”

Ashley’s finger slipped in. She watched as the tip of her finger was pushed in, almost to the knuckle. “Uh,” she grunted. She felt full, weirdly like she was about to poop.

“Good job! Now keep pushing, and you’ll slide out.” Her finger slipped out as easily as it had gone in. “Do you think you’re ready for me to try?” Ashley blushed, looking at her still-slick finger tip.

“Yeah, sure, let me just, you know.” She pulled off her gloves and Sarah put them in the wastebasket.