I had already been stripped several times while I was here, treated as a patient, now I had to walk around in these paper slippers which really made me feel all the more controlled. I imagined the orderlies watching me shuffling along in them, smirking, thinking all this fruitcake needs is the diaper and straitjacket. I was started to get paranoid and this was not the place for that at all.

We were now headed for the cafeteria but before that Dr. Chang told me to join a line, a line that I realized in a couple moments was to a medication window. Remembering what happened to me the last time I took these meds, I was very reluctant to do it again.

Dr. Chang- Jeffrey, I have changed the meds that I gave you before out for some new ones. These are anti-anxiety drugs that should help you.

Me- I'm not anxious (sounding very anxious now)

Dr. Chang- That is your sick mind telling you that.

Me- I don't have a sick mind. Im fine, really. I just want to get out of here.

Dr. Chang- Ok, lets make a deal. You take the meds, have a nice dinner, and then you can leave.

She was very reassuring, rubbing my back a little and putting me into a sense of ease. I really did not want to experiment with these drugs anymore though. What would these make me do? I also was not a patient here, I could leave whenever I wanted to. She had no right to keep me here.

I decided..

Me- No, you bitch, I don't have to listen to you. I am not a patient here. I don't even want you as my psychiatrist anymore. Give me my shoes back and unlock the door so that I can get out of this nut house. That's final.

Dr. Chang- Poor Jeffrey, right on the verge of a nervous breakdown it seems.

Now I was offended.

Dr. Chang- Let's go to my office and chat shall we?

I had no choice in the matter. I was grabbed on each arm by two orderlies and led to follow the doctor.

Once inside her office, the doctor sat down behind her desk and I was sat in the chair on the opposite side of it.

Dr, Chang- Well Jeffrey going over your file, I see a lot of stress here, definitely some immaturity, aggression towards those who want to help you. However what concerns me is some surveillance videos that have come to light. Take a look at this.

She turned her computer monitor around to show me running, and then deciding to sneak past the sleeping guard.

Dr. Chang- Do you want to explain this?

I looked at it, baffled as to what to say.

Dr. Chang- Maybe you would like to explain this one.

This video showed me in the bathroom, taking off my pants and trying desperately to wash the enema shit from them.

Jeffrey- I was forced to...

Dr. Chang- Jeffrey, I don't want to hear it. What I see here is a person who cares nothing for authority and one who has very little control, even over his own bodily function. Now I was going to give you a chance to address these issues as an outpatient, it would take some work on your part but I thought you could do that.

I felt there was a but coming on and..

Dr Chang- But I am seeing someone who is out of control and headed for a big breakdown unless I intervene. That is why I am placing you on a 72 hour hold starting now and to be made indefinite if I still feel you are headed for disaster. The tour is over Jeffrey, now its time to get to work.

Next up- My time in the hospital if you're still interested.