The next few weeks were troubling for me. As much as I enjoyed my evening with Kim I felt as though I had betrayed Sarah even though we weren't really boyfriend girlfriend or anything like that. On top of that I was beginning to have a nagging thought that while I was enjoying erotic play with older women immensely, I was making zero progress at meeting and dating an appropriate girl my own age. I longed to be with Sarah. I wanted to worship her voluptuous body. I felt as though a good enema would flush all of this negative energy out of me.

My birthday came and went uneventfully. My mom made a really delicious pot roast with red potatoes and baby carrots and gave me $200 for my car fund. I really appreciated that. She worked hard at the hospital and didn't have much money after the bills were paid.

Mom's work weekend was upon us and I arrived at Sarah's on Friday night. We had a real pizza delivered, I was happy to actually have money and being able to contribute and we enjoyed a nice dinner together.

After dinner we retreated to the living room.

"So how was your birthday Brad?"

"OK"

"Did anything special happen?"

"No, not really"

Sarah looked at me and made a masturbating gesture with her hand "Did you get your birthday present?"

"My birthday present?"

"Yes. Your evening with Kim. I arranged that for you. I hope you enjoyed it"

A wave of relief came over me. I didn't have any secrets to keep from Sarah.

"I only wish I could have been there. You're both gorgeous. I would have loved to have watched. You could come into my bedroom and thank me. You can tell me all about it too."

As we got up off the sofa I reached out and wrapped my arms around Sarah. I kissed her and put my tongue deep into her mouth and felt her breasts push into my chest. We had way too many clothes on as I wanted to feel her nipples against my bare chest. Sarah led me to her bedroom and stopped at the doorway to kiss me again then sat on her bed and began removing her clothes. I undressed as quickly as I could while kissing Sarah on the mouth, then dropping to my knees I sucked each of her rotund tits. Kim may have been amazingly beautiful in a fashion magazine kind of way but Sarah's body set me on fire. I worked my way back and forth sucking her breasts and nipples and the left a sloppy trail of saliva down her belly and then into her pubic hair where I found her clit. I began lightly licking on either side of Sarah's clit then began to make circles around it. Sarah took a deep breath, laid back on the bed and drew her legs up, resting her feet up on the mattress.

"Brad come up here next to me."

I climbed up onto the bed and laid next to Sarah.

"A few weeks back you said you loved me. Granted, you were coming at the time, but did you really mean it?"

I immediately felt uncomfortable. "Uh, sure, of course I do."

"I love you too Brad. Don't worry, I'm not going to invade your life. Do whatever you want. When you meet a nice girl your own age, I'll understand and just be happy for this time in our lives. Understand?"

"Yeah, sure." This was turning out better than I had originally thought. As much as I loved Sarah, I couldn't imagine taking her to the gravel pit and swimming with my friends.

"Do you know what a female lead relationship is?"

"Yeah." This wasn't too hard to figure out.

"I've had some pretty bad relationships with men over the years, I guess that's why I gravitate toward other women. I just want you to know I feel safe with you Brad. Don't get me wrong, You're very much a man, a very hot young one. And your cock is gorgeous."

I laid back and listened wondering where this was going. So far it was going well.

"I haven't actually had sex with a man in over ten years. In fact the only physical male relationship I've had since my divorce has been with you. I think I'm ready to get back on the A-team again, at least part of the time. So have I convinced you that I'm totally psycho?"

"No, not at all. That's all very personal. I'm glad you trust me enough to share it with me. Is there anything I can do to help?"

"You're doing it right now."

Sarah began stroking my cock and it got hard again almost immediately.

"Scooch over to the middle of the bed Brad."

I did as directed and Sarah straddled me on her knees, bending over to kiss me and put her tongue in my mouth, them moving up to allow me to suck on her nipples.

"Let me do the work this time" she whispered.

Sarah scooted up further and pushed her pussy up to my mouth and I resumed licking her clit and then started to tongue the inside of her vagina.

She moved back down and began stroking my cock again, then rubbed it back and forth in her slit until the head was in her pussy lips. She started pumping up and down until I was completely inside.

I looked up into Sarah's brown eyes as she began to rock her hips and making short strokes keeping my cock safe from falling out. She smiled and silently continued the soft warm rocking motion. I admired her full breasts bouncing with every stroke, occasionally she'd lean forward so I could feel her nipples rub against mine. I felt a load building behind my balls and Sarah was beginning to breathe faster as she continued rocking, faster and taking increasingly deep strokes on my cock.

Sarah's breathing continued to accelerate until she was coming with her orgasmic squeak and I let loose with an explosion of cum inside her moments later.

She continued to rock slowly as my hard-on softened , then stopped and laid on top of me with my satisfied cock still inside her. She smiled and kissed me. "Oh god, that was great." My cock shrunk a bit more and exited it's new best friend and Sarah slid off to the side of me.

"So am I a good fuck for being forty four years old?"

"I guess, that was my first time."

"First time? Oh my god, did I steal your virginity? I feel like a bad evil woman now."

"I wouldn't have wanted anyone else."

"I love you Brad."

"I love you too."

We drifted off to sleep, well satisfied.