My darling,

First I want to say that I know that I've contributed to our seemingly on again, off again relationship but the truth of it is that I get scared when I think about you because if I'm really honest with you, I've been very afraid of falling in love with you but I've come to figure out that falling in love with you isn't something I can control. I am deeply in love with you darling!! It's alright if you can't reciprocate because I don't want that to become burdensome to you. If you can reciprocate, I'm really very happy (and I believe that you can)!!!

I can't even write you an email without thinking about how good it would be to feel your naked body against mine. You make me feel young again and when I look at your pictures, I almost immediately feel my peter growing in my pants and then it's not long until a little pre-cum starts to dribble from the tip of it. Several times I couldn't help stroking myself and while not meaning to cum, it feels so good that I sometimes can't stop in time!! I'm so hard right now that I want to do it but I won't because it would delay my writing to you the things I hope we can do someday.

One of those things of course is to kiss you very deeply with my tongue slipping deep into your mouth and it playing with your tongue while I feel your breasts with your nipples becoming erect and your areola becoming obviously aroused as I lick and suckle them. When I imagine this, I also imagine your hand touching my cock and it holding my balls in it. That would nearly drive me over the edge by itself but having you play with me there and with the middle index finger of your other hand being covered in your natural feminine juices, sliding slowly up my butthole at the same time mine is sliding up into yours and slowly sliding back out and then back in as deeply as I can get it. (I hope I don't cum in my pants before I get this written sweetheart!!

I want to have you lay naked on your back looking up at the massive, bulging open top enema bag full of sudsy, soapy, almost hot water with suds overflowing from the top of it and while you're looking at it, I can see your sweet pussy begin to glisten with your sweet juices in anticipation of receiving the first of my loving, gentle enemas. You watch as I coat the colon tube with Lubriderm, then making sure to get a dollop of it on my finger and applying it to your hungry little butthole making absolutely sure to slide plenty of it up into your bottom! How I love feeling the texture of your asshole as I rub my finger tip around it while I'm suckling your sweet breasts.

Now, it's time for me to start slowly sliding the colon tube up inside you! I can tell it excites you while I start it on it's way into your bowel. I slide it into you and then a little way back out so I can be sure your bowel is well coated with the Lubriderm all the way I'm sliding the colon tube. You're moaning my name and as you do, you tell me how good it feels! I take a moment and start licking your very wet cunt with the tip of my tongue paying special attention to your erect clitoris!!! I lick and suck you there until you CUM for the first time!!! Then I return to administering the colon tube a little further up into your bowel. You feel it snaking it's way further up into you and when I get it inserted roughly half the way up your descending colon, you hear a distinct CLICK as I start to allow your enema water enter you and you can feel it oozing deeply into you going a little ways up inside you and then I stop it while I introduce the tube further up inside you. I allow a little more of your enema to squirt up your colon and I slow down the flow so the the soapy hot water can make a pathway for the tubing to slide even further into you. You ask me how much further I'm going to slide it into you and I tell you that it's going to end up clear into your ascending colon. Then I resume sliding it further and further until it's made the bends of your colon and into your ascending colon because, I want to make sure I get you as cleaned out as I can this first time so I turn the flow on full blast and you know I do because it's now coursing deep inside you.

You tell me feel some cramping starting so I slow down the flow and gently massage your tummy for you and soon the cramping has passed so I open the flow again. I can see you watching the bag as it becomes less and less inflated until finally you can hear the suction from the bag as all the rest of your enema makes it's way down and into your colon. Now I tell you what a wonderful job you did of taking this first enema as I slowly slide the tube out of you little by little until you feel it slide all the way out of your anus. "Honey, you need to hold this for about ten minutes so it can do it's good work but I'll be right here with you" I tell you.

After the ten minutes has passed, I help you into the bathroom and ask you to just stand there while I take a seat on the toilet. I'm seated on the toilet and I ask you to come sit on my lap so you can start to shoot your enema and solids out between my legs and as you do your job, I reach around in front of you and massage your tummy and finger your pussy a little and squeeze your beautiful breasts. You keep shooting more and more of that poo water out and fart some as you get rid of the gases that you were holding. I keep fingering your cunt as you release more of the enema and soon you CUM again and again.

You've released all of your first enema so I wipe your bottom for you and after Ive done that, I guide you over by the sink and get a washcloth soaked in warm water and soap and I wash your bottom thoroughly and then I help you back to our bed so you can rest a bit till I give you your second enema. (to be continued). Oh baby, I love writing my dreams to you and I'd love to hear some of yours as soon as you're able to write back to me.

All my love is yours darling lady