The first time I remember ever wearing a diaper after being potty trained was when I was living in Virginia. I lived in some apartments with my mother and my brother. I was I think seven when this happened. I was being watched by some of my neighbors that also had two kids downstairs when I needed to go to the bathroom to pee. When I walked in I went into the wrong room and walked into the younger kid's room while everyone else was outside. I looked in the room and saw a package of diapers sitting next to the bed. So I got the bright idea to try one. I walked over took one from the package, right now I can't remember what type they were, and went into the bathroom to put it on. After that moment I was hooked. I would try to get them whenever I could. Some times I would even wear the diaper at home and to bed. I did this for about a month until I got caught in bed with a diaper by my mom. She was pissed and then made me apologize to the family taking care of me for taking diapers. And that was the last of it for about seven years.

The next time I had a diaper experience was when I was in middle school, about seventh grade. The class was going on a field trip but I was not able to go so the teacher told me to go the Special Ed. Hall to the teacher that helps students in classes. I was there and all we did was sit around and play games during the day. I asked for a pass and decided to go to the closest restroom, which was the handicap restroom. When I stepped in I thought that I was in heaven. I had been longing to wear a diaper for so long and now I was surrounded by them. I walked over to a package of depends that they had and read it carefully to see that it would fit. The first package I looked at was too big so I looked at another open one and it was the right size. I took one out and taped it up as tight as I could. And it was a great fit. I put my clothes back on and went back to the classroom a little nervous but the teacher jokingly asked if I fell into the toilet. I jokingly responded yes. So I was able to get diapers occasionally from the handicapped restroom until I was out of middle school never getting caught. And that was all I could do until I got to high school.

In high school I was not able to get diapers right away. So I was diaperless for about a year. When I was a sophomore I was able to get a job, which then allowed me to get money and I was able to buy my own diapers so I tried out many different kinds I found that I liked depends the best. I have been able to be diapered almost every time I wanted to now but now that I am doing martial arts I have less money to buy diapers so I have to be careful as to how I spend my money. A Walgreen store just opened up close to my house and they have the cheapest diapers I have found so whenever I get the chance I try to stock up on their store brand diapers. It my not be Depends but they are still very comfortable. I have actually gained enough confidence that I am starting to wear them to my kung-fu classes. I also wear them to school and nobody seems to notice or if they do they don't say anything to me.

Thanks for taking the time to read my story and if you want to chat just email me at: needalight@gmail.com. Have a good day and don't always stay dry; it is good to let go sometimes.