“What is all that?” “Well, you recognize this right? This is an anoscope like I used last time.” “That looks bigger than the last one.” “Well, babe, it is a little. I need to see a little bit more, and I’ll need to stretch you a little bit more.” He picks up another tool. “This is an anal speculum. It does the same thing as the speculums I use to do your pap smears, it’s just used rectally instead of vaginally.” He picks up the last one. “This is a special sigmoidoscopy. It’s going to let me see farther into you than the anoscope, like a regular sigmoidoscope, but this one is a special type. It’s also going to inflate and dilate your colon stretching it. It’ll allow me to see better, but it also will help you. You’re a little more tight than normal back there, baby. I heard you crying the other day because it hurt you to go to bathroom because it was too big. I’m hoping this might help that problem. Now do you have any questions?” “No, I don’t think so.” “If you have any questions during any of these procedures, you know you can ask.” “I know, babe, thanks.” “Alright, Nicole, I’m going to position you a little different than I normally do. I want you to get on your hands and knees, with your bottom facing me.” I hesitate for a moment, really not wanting to go through with all this. “It’ll be ok, I promise.” I get up on the table like I’m instructed. “That’s great, Nicole. Now, I want you to put your chest and head on the table. That’s right, just lean down for me, perfect. Ok, spread your legs for me. A little more, I need you really spread open. Ok, great!” I’m so open back there I can feel the cool air of the room on me. That only lasts a minute before I feel the warmth of his lamp on me again. “Alright, babe, I’m just going to take your temp and then just do a DRE. You’ve had these done several times, so you know it’s not a big deal.” I just nod my head the best I could, and try to take deep breathes. Even though I know what he’s going to do, I’m still very nervous. I try to watch him the best I can, but I can only see a little. He picks up some gloves, and I hear him snap them on. I see him pick up some lube, but then it disappears. A moment later I feel something really cold at my bottom, and I jump. “Easy, babe, I’m just going to rub some lube in the outside.” I then feel something small and cold slide into me, which I figure is the thermometer. A few minutes later, I feel him slip it out. “Good, you’re not running a fever. You’re going to feel my finger enter you now. Just try to relax.” I feel something cold at first, and then I feel pressure and then I feel his finger enter me. I grunt a little at the shock and uncomfortableness of it. “You’re doing great, Nicole.” I feel him move his finger around, and try to feel deeper into me. A few minutes later he finally takes his finger out. I can feel myself clenching like there’s something still in me. “What are you going to do next?” “I’m going to use the anal speculum next. I’m going to take some swabs while you’re open.” “Is this one going to hurt?” “Honestly, babe, each tool is going to stretch you a little more each time. So, this one will be more uncomfortable than my finger, and it might hurt a little, and the next instrument will be a little worse, and so forth.” I just groan and nod my head. I know there’s nothing I can do or say to stop this from happening. I watch him pick up the shiny instrument. I can feel my heart rate pick up. “Just take slow even breathes, try to relax.” I feel the coldness at my back entrance. I feel a lot of pressure, as he gently tries to push the instrument into me. He’s not forcing it though, he’s just keeping even pressure on it, waiting for me to relax enough for it to slip in. “Keep breathing, babe, you’re doing great.” I feel it slowly enter me a little, I jump and tense up without meaning too. “Easy. Easy.” He keeps the same even pressure, and I wimper as more is slowly pushed into me. As much as I try to relax, I still tense up every time more is advanced. “Oh, that’s uncomfortable, Travis.” “I know it is, babe. It’s almost all in.” I feel a little more push into me, and then he stops. I already feel so full and uncomfortable. It doesn’t hurt, but it’s definitely bordering on pain. “I’m going to give you a few seconds to relax, and get used to it being in there, and then I’m going to slowly open it. Just try to relax as best you can, and breathe.” It takes a couple of minutes before I’m semi-used to the cold, hard intruder being in me. I feel myself relax a little, and then out of nowhere, I feel the tool opening. At first it’s really uncomfortable, then it starts to really burn and hurt. “Ow, Travis, it’s starting to hurt. Ow, don’t open it any more please!” “Shh, I’m going to let you get used to that, and relax again, but then I’ll have to open it just a little bit more.” “More?!?!? Why more? It feels like you could park your truck in there now!” “I know it feels that way, but you’re really only open about the size of a quarter. You have less than a half inch left to open. You’re doing really well, babe.” I tried to ignore the burning stretching. Finally after what feels like forever I feel myself start to relax around it. Of course that didn’t last long before I feel even more burning while he opens me up the last little bit. I can’t help but whine as he does it. “Ok, Nicole, it’s open all the way. The worst part of this exam is done. I’m just going to take a peek and take some swabs.” “Everything looks great.” I then feel a slight tickle and scrape inside me. “There all done with that part. I’m going to take it out now.” I feel the pressure slowly ease, and then the weird sensation of the speculum being removed. Once again I feel my anus clenching trying to keep anything else from going in there. “Ok, Nicole, you’re going to have to be stretched just a little more so I can insert the anoscope.” “No, please, Travis! No more stretching, please!” “Baby, I have to. I’m sorry. I’m just going to insert two fingers and then I’ll put in the anoscope.” I groan, and try to relax as best I can. I feel his fingers rub over my sore and sensitive anus. “Shh, it’s ok babe. Relax, and let me in. Try to bear down some, it’ll help.” As embarrassing as it was, I did try to bear down. It helped some, but his two fingers still hurt. Once he got them in, he started twisting them and opening them, making me wider. It caused me to moan and whimper even more. “I know that doesn’t feel good. I’m sorry. I’m going to take them out and then insert the anoscope. Just relax.” I feel his fingers slide from me, and before I even had a chance to close back up he pushed the anoscope in me. “Owww!!!!” “Sorry, that was the easiest way to do it.” I was still sobbing from the insertion. My ass is already so sore, and feels like it’s on fire. I still have one more instrument left, and I’m not sure how much more I can take. I just lay they half whimpering and half moaning, waiting for him to take it out. “I know that hurts babe. I’m almost done, I just need to look around a bit more. Everything looks great so far. Alright, I’m going to take it out now.” I feel the instrument leave my body. It was instant relief, even though there was still some burning. “Alright, babe, one more thing and then through with your rectal exam.” “Thank God. I can’t take much more.” “Alright, here’s the sigmoidoscope. It’s shouldn’t be too bad at first. You’ll feel some cramping with this one, though.” I feel him rub more lube on the outside of me, and I jumped and whimpered from where I was so sensitive there. “Deep breathes, Nicole.” I feel something that felt like a tube pass up into me. It seemed rather small, at least compared to what had previously been up there before. I was still pretty sore though. It seemed like it snaked up into me forever. I could feel it way up in me and it caused me to cramp some. “Ooh, how much more?” “About six more inches.” “What?” “It’ll be over before you know it.” “But I’m already cramping.” “I know, just try to breathe through them.” “Ow.” “There it’s all the way in. Ok, Nicole, this is going to be the worst part. I’m going to pump it up until it expands you and stretches you. You’ll feel more burning, and from where it’s so far into you, you’ll feel a lot more cramping. Just try to bear with it, ok, babe. I’m sorry I have to do this to you. We’re going to go for five pumps. I’ll go slow.” I hear him squeeze the bulb, and the pressure got a little worse, it still wasn’t too bad though. The second pump was uncomfortable, but the third one actually started to hurt and make me cramp. “Can’t you stop there? I can’t take five!” “Yes, you can, babe. I’ll give you a little bit to get used to it.” The fourth pump made me jump and cry out. “Please, stop, Travis.” “One more. Take a deep breath.” “OWWWW!!!!!! Take it out of me!” “Shhh, I’m done pumping it. Just let it sit there for five minutes. You’re doing great.” Through my soft whimpers I hear him take off his gloves. The next thing I know, Travis, is rubbing my back and trying to hold me. He started whispering in my ear. “Easy, baby. I’m here, it’ll be ok.” He just kept trying to comfort me. Finally, my five minutes was up, and he put gloves back on. I heard a loud hiss, as he let the air out. I finally felt him pull the tube from my body. I felt him rubbing something cold back there again. “What are you doing? I thought you were finished?” “Don’t worry, I am. This will help the tenderness I promise.” I could tell that it was already working. The irritation was starting to ease. “Nicole, you can go ahead lay out flat on your stomach if you want. Luckily it looks like you only need one shot this time, and then I’ll get some blood from you.” As I lay down completely on my stomach, Travis walks over to the counter, and prepares a needle. He walks back over and I feel him swab a place on my right cheek. “Big stick and some burning.” As soon as he said that I feel a sharp pinch, and I jump. I take a few deep breaths, and then I start to feel some burning in my butt cheek. Luckily it’s not half as bad as some of the other shots he’s gave me. “OK, you turn back over.” I do as he says and he walks next to me with another needle. I hold out my arm and I feel a small pinch as he takes some blood. “Alright, babe, you’re all done. You can get dressed, I’ll see you at home tonight.” “Alright, babe. Have fun working. I love you.” “I love you too.” He gives me a hug and kiss and then leaves so I can get dressed.