I nod my head and he rolls his stool back to the end of the bed. I feel a slight pulling sensation between my legs. “Nicole, I’m going to start filling up your bladder now with the solution. Just try to breathe through it, ok?” I nod my head, and then feel something warm enter my bladder. As soon as the solution hit it felt like I had a huge fireball in my pelvis. My whole lower stomach and the entire area between my legs started burning. I just held on to Travis and tried to breathe. As if the burning solution wasn’t bad enough, my bladder was so full it felt like I was going to pop. “You’re doing great, Nicole. All the medicine is in you. I’m going to go check on a patient, and I’ll be back in 30 minutes to take out the catheter.” I was in too much pain to even acknowledge what he said. “Travis, I can’t take much more of this.” “I know it’s hard babe. You’re doing such a good job.” “I want to go home. This isn’t fair.” “Shhh, don’t cry babe, it’ll be ok. You’ll be able to leave in about an hour, and then I’ll help you get settled in bed.” “Yeah, but then I’ll just have to go through all of this again.” “Don’t think about that right now. You’ll have to get a shot tonight, but everything else won’t happen until tomorrow.” The rest of the time I just laid there whimpering and groaning, sometimes crying a little. Travis comforted me the best he could. When thirty minutes was up Dr. Graham came back in the door. “How are you holding up, Nicole?” “Horrible! I want this stuff out of me!” “Alright, I think it’s been long enough.” I hear the snap of gloves for what seems like the hundredth time today. He then sits on his stool between my legs. I feel a lot of tugging. “Take a deep breath.” I breathe in and when I was breathing out I felt the tube being pulled from me. I groaned from the pain it caused. “You did good, Nicole. Now I need you to pee for me.” I start to get up, but Travis stops me. Dr. Graham says, “Sorry, Nicole. I need you to lay here and pee.” “No! I don’t even like peeing in front of Travis. There’s no way in hell, I’m peeing in front of both of you.” It just slipped out before I could catch it. I looked up at Travis, and by the look on his face I knew I was in trouble. “Nicole, I’ve already warned you.” “I know, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to say it, it just slipped out.” “It doesn’t matter. That was crossing the line. First apologize to Derek.” “I’m sorry, Dr. Graham.” “Now, because your bladder is full, instead of taking you over my knee like I should, I’m going to be nice and let you stand up and bend over the table.” “Travis, please not here in front of Dr. Graham, please.” “You disrespected him, he has a right to watch your punishment. Now I’m going to tell you one more time, otherwise you’ll get three more licks.” “Ok, ok.” I knew I didn’t have a choice, so I stand up, turn around, and lean over the table. I am so humiliated. I’m sure I’m red from head to toe. “This is so embarrassing!” “Maybe next time you’ll think before you open your mouth.” I feel the first sting as soon as his hand made contact with my butt. The second time it was harder and I started crying, not really from pain, but just the humiliation. The third was even harder and I couldn’t help but yelp a little. It also didn’t help that the table was pushing on my bladder every time I jerked. “Ok, Nicole, one more. Derek do you want to do the honors since it was you she disrespected.” “No, I think it’ll mean more coming from you.” I felt the last smack, and it was harder than any of them, I couldn’t help but call out. “Now, go ahead and compose yourself, and get back into position.” While I’m getting myself positioned again, Travis turns to Dr. Graham, “Sorry, Derek. It had to be done.” “Don’t apologize. I understand completely. If it was my girlfriend, I would’ve done the same. Now, Nicole, are you ready to pee for me?” “I’ll try.” “Ok, I’m ready. Start whenever.” I take a deep breath and try to relax. No matter how I try I can’t make myself pee. Travis is halfway down the table, watching, which isn’t making things any easier. He’s stroking my thigh trying to get me to relax. “Just close your eyes babe and let it happen.” “I’m trying.” A few minutes later I’m still trying, I feel it getting closer, but it still won’t come out. “I have an idea,” This coming from Dr. Graham. I hear him get up, so I open my eyes to see what he’s doing. He walks over to the sink and turns the water on. “Just try to focus on that, Nicole.” I focus really hard, and before I know it, I feel myself let my bladder go, and hear the sound of it hitting the metal basin. “Oww! It burns, it burns so bad.” I couldn’t help but stop. “I know it does, Nicole, but I need you to try to start again, and this time don’t stop. Just focus on the water, and on Travis.” I try to do as I’m told. I focus on the sound of the water, and on Travis stroking my leg. He grabs my hand with his other hand. I start peeing again. “Oooh, ow.” “You’re doing great, babe. That’s it don’t stop.” “But, it hurts!” “I know it does babe, but you’re doing so good. Just focus on my voice.” “I’m trying. Oww!” I hear Dr. Graham from between my legs, “You should be about through, Nicole.” About that time, I feel the last trickle run out of my body. I’m so relieved that that humiliating and painful experience was over. “Do you feel empty, Nicole?” “Yes, Dr. Graham, I do.” “Good, I’m just going to get you cleaned up, and then insert the suppository.” I feel Dr. Graham wiping me with what feels like toilet paper. It’s so embarrassing having another person, especially a man, wipe me after going to the bathroom. “Travis, have you ever inserted a urethral suppository?” “Not in real life. I had to on a practice on a dummy in med school.” “Alright, come down here and watch me, so you’ll know how to do it at home.” Travis moves between my legs, and I can feel both pairs of eyes on my privates. It’s so awkward. “Alright, first spread her labia, really wide, so you can visualize her urethra.” I feel myself being spread really far open. I hate the feeling. I feel cool air, where air shouldn’t be. “Next, sterilize the area like you would if you were inserting a cath.” “Ooh, that’s cold!” “I know, I’m sorry. Alright, after she’s completely sterilized, take the suppository, and hold it like this, with the narrower end pointed first. Now, be gentle, but add steady pressure and push as much as you can inside her.” “Ugh, I hate the feeling of stuff being put in me there. It burns!” “Just a little longer. Keep pressure on it, until you can’t push it in anymore, and then push your finger against her urethra.” “Ow!!!” “I know it’s not comfortable. Just a little longer. Alright, next, you’re going to take this little tool, and push it in her. You’ll feel the suppository, then you’ll use the tool to push it up against her bladder.” “Ugh, I don’t like this! It hurts and burns.” “Shh, babe, it’s ok.” “Once, it’s in all the way. Place a pad or cloth or something between her legs to catch the medicine as it drains out.” I feel pressure and something soft against the whole area between my legs. “Alright, Nicole, go ahead and take your legs out of the stirrups. And hold this pad between your legs.” I took my legs out, and he held the pad there until I could squeeze my legs together. “That’s good, Nicole. Now, I want you to lay there for about fifteen minutes, then I’ll be back in to check on you, ok. I will warn you once it starts to melt it’ll start burning like it did in your bladder. Just try to breathe.” I nod my head, and he leaves me and Travis alone. “How are you feeling babe? “It’s a little uncomfortable, but it’s not too bad, yet.” “That’s good babe.” A few minutes later, though, I felt a warming sensation. It soon got hotter and hotter. It was really uncomfortable. “Oww, It’s really starting to hurt.” “Deep breaths, darling.” “I can’t! Oww! I want it out of me, now!” I instinctively go to grab myself to try to ease the pain. Before I could though, Travis had my arms above my head, and had them pinned down. “Easy, babe. Try to relax.” “I can’t. Ow, please, make it stop.” I was openly crying now. “Shh, Shh. Just five more minutes.” Those were the longest five minutes of my life. I finally heard a knock on the door, and Travis told him to come on in. “I see the medicine took effect. Are you ready to get it out of you?” “Yes, please!” “Ok, go ahead put your legs in the stirrups. Travis, you might want to watch this part too.” I didn’t even care that they were both staring between my legs this time, I just wanted that horrible stuff out of me. “You’re going to spread her open, and clean her again, like you did before.” I felt the same spreading and then the horrible coldness, like I did last time. “Now, you’re going to take a syringe of sterile saline, and use it to wash out her urethra.” I felt a little pinch when he inserted the little tube, like he did with the numbing gel. “This will feel a little cold, Nicole, but it should make you feel better.” I then felt a cold rush right up inside me. It felt really weird, but it made the horrible burning sensation go away. “How do you feel now?” “So much better, thank you.” “Good. I’m going to go ahead and have you roll over now, Nicole.” “What? Why?” “I need to give you your shot, and then you can get dressed and go home.” I go ahead and roll over. Travis grabs my hand, and rubs my back. I feel Dr. Graham wipe off an area on my butt. “A little stick, and some burning ok.” I felt the needle go in, and I jumped a little. Travis just rubbed my back some more. I then felt the medicine going in. It felt like my whole rear end was on fire. I started wiggling away. “Easy, Nicole, I’m almost done.” I then felt the needle being took out. “There, you’re all done. You can get dressed now, and there’s a pad on the counter. You might want to wear it in case there’s any more draining. Travis, it would probably be a good idea if you went ahead and made an appointment for her in a week, just so I can make sure the infection is entirely gone.” “Sounds like a plan to me. Man, thank you so much for taking such good care of her. I owe you one.” They shake hands and tell each other bye. I get dressed and we make my appointment for a week later. Now I just have to get through the home treatments with Travis.