Time has stopped and has no meaning. "There is only now, there is only You." I keep repeating this to myself. My eyes have been closed the whole time. Using my sense I try to anticipate your feelings. I cant and I am nervous. You finally say something and my heart almost bursts.

"Very nice shadow."

I exhale in a quick sigh of contentment. Had I been holding my breath? I feel a little dizzy, was it from lack of air? Was it you? I cant tell. There is no difference between my needs and my desires to serve you.

Giving in so completely to the moment, the rest of the room might as well not exist. My hands are a little shaky as I take the waist band of your undergarments and gently roll them down trying not to disturb you balance once more.

You are still so rigid under my touch and my heart breaks a little. "Believe in me Mistress" I want to cry but dont. You will understand. This is new and very unexpected for both of us. Placing them on the small pile of clothing I stand before you once more.

Your skin is so soft. I cant help but want to touch you. To have you wrap your arms around me protecting me, loving me, saving me from my fears. Would you punish me when I deserved it? Would you correct my behaviour if i needed that? Would you hurt me If i needed that as well and asked? I blush at the thought. I hope you don't notice.

I run my fingers gently up your arms tickling them slightly before curving my hands around your shoulders; fingers tracing their way down your chest and finding he clasp holding your top together.

You shiver and I smile slightly. You don't say anything, but your sigh of contentment gives me strength. Slipping my hands under the top. I gently glide my hands across your skin moving the op up and over your shoulders letting it fall down your arms to the floor.

I pick up the top and fold it neatly placing it with the other garments. With my back to you I slowly let my robe fall to the floor leaving it a heap at my feet on the floor. I take a deep breath trying to ignore the body blush that I know is happening.

I fight the urge to cover myself up as I turn to face you. Can you tell how scared I am right now?

I turn towards the pool and hold my hand out for you to take. You have been so quiet. I cant tell what you are feeling. This scares me more then anything. Tell me this is right! Tell me this is wrong! Something! Anything! Please......

I slwoly lead you into the warm pool. It feels nice as the little air bubbles from the pool dance their way across my skin. It makes me want to giggle.

I lead you to the back of the pool and motion for you to sit down on the bench in the water. I help you down and give you a slight curtsy in the water before turning around.

"I will be right back Mistress I must collect my things."

"hurry back shadow"

I curtsy again, "Yes Mistress."

You are still so rigid, but I can tell that the warm water of the pools are working their magic. This was the perfect place for this. I hurry down the stairs as quickly as I can without looking disgraceful and hurried. I head to the supply room to get my tray.

Holding it carefully I walk back doing my best not to trip or slip. Coming up the stairs I notice your eyes are closed and your head is leaning back against the side of the pool.

I am smiling. Totally the perfect place.

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The Service of One.

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Part Three

Placing the tray on the side of the pool within arms reach, I slip into the pool behind you sitting on the edge using my legs to cradle you. I lean over and pick up the brush. I run the back of it across my palm eyes closed feeling how hard it is against my skin.

"Mistress as you wish I would like to brush your hair."

"Yes please shadow, thank you."

"Never say thank you Mistress, I am here for you. As you need me, whenever you need me."

I smile and almost burst with joy as you lean back against me. Do you understand? Your hair is still dry so it makes it very easy to brush your hair. I lay the brush in my lap and run my fingers gently through your hair taking out any knots or tangles. Your hair is so soft, so rich, so light. Just like baby's. You sigh again and let your shoulders relax. I want to cry im so happy. You might not understand yet, but your body does.

I pick up the brush and start to brush your hair. Long lazy strokes from top to bottom. Taking my time because there is only this moment, I keep the strokes coming. Can you feel the love I have? Lost in thought I almost didn't hear you talking to me. I was so relaxed now, lost in brushing your hair.

"That feels so good shadow."

If i could have purred I would have.

"that is what I'm here for Mistress, to ease your stress and help you relax."

I put the brush on the tray and run my fingers through your hair one more time giving your scalp a gentle massage. I reach over to the tray and pick up the wooden ladle.

"Mistress if you would please lean your head back."

You dont say anything but lean your head back against my legs. Dipping the ladle into the water I bring it up and gently pour it on top of your head. I use my other hand to block the water from running down your face. I keep doing this until your hair is properly wet. I have no idea how much time has past. I am caught up in the moment. I am so relaxed right now. This feels so right, my nervousness almost gone.

You sigh contently. You had commented on something but I didn't hear you. I stiffen slightly hoping it wasn't something important. Your relaxed shoulders tell me it wasn't and I continue. Setting the ladle down i reach for a small bottle.

"Mistress I took the liberty of choosing lavender for this evening not knowing your preference. I hope this is satisfactory."

I hold my breath. Please say yes.

"That sounds lovely shadow, thank you."

Sighing with relief I pour some of it onto my hands and begin massaging it into your hair taking special care to make sure it is everywhere. I gently massage it into you scalp. All I can smell now is the lavender. It is so soothing. I love you Mistress.

"That smells so nice shadow I'm so relaxed right now."

Once again I thought my heart was going to burst with happiness. Taking the ladle I dip it into the water and begin rinsing your hair. With each pour of the ladle I run my fingers through your hair. Once your hair is rinsed completely I place the ladle back on the tray.

I pick up a soft cloth and a bar of lavender soap and slid myself into the pool behind you, my legs straddling you. Placing the cloth into the water i rub the soap against it lathering it it up. Moving your hair to the side I begin to wash your back top to bottom gently massaging as I go. I work your shoulders over taking special care to massage them and your neck. You are so tense.

After a few mins of this I move to your arms. First one then the other. Using my hands i rinse the soap from your arms and back. Lathering up the cloth once more, I reach around you and gently pull you against my naked body. Laying my cheek against your back i close my eyes. All i can smell is the lavender in your hair and on your soft skin.

This feels so right, how could I have ever been so scared. I would do anything for you. We both sigh contently at the same time. I listen to your breathing. With touch alone I wash the front of you body making sure I miss nothing. Your body is so relaxed against mine. I am so happy. I love you Mistress. Can you feel this as I hold you, take care of you, submit to you?

Softly I hum to myself as i wash your chest, your breasts and your stomach. How could I have been scared of this?! How wrong I was. Why couldn't I be fearless as baby, so strong, so incorrigible, so sassy.

"This is exactly what I needed shadow. I feel so relaxed."

This shocks me out of my thoughts, what else had she said? Focus girl this is about her.

"its what I am here for Mistress"

I move you forward gently and move myself away from your body. Everything within me cries out against it. Stay put, give into the closeness. Let your love out into her.

I move myself to the middle of the pool and kneel down into the water. Its up to my neck. I lather up the clothe as best I can and take a deep breathe of air and submerge myself under the water.

Is this how its done? Am I being silly? The warm water is hard against my eyes, but I search for your legs. Working my way up your leg, foot to thigh I do my best to wash your leg massaging as I do. I can hear the blood pumping in my ears as I start to loose my air.

Be graceful shadow, don't gasp for air. Don't ruin the moment by being clumsy. I raise myself up willing myself not to gasp. Its so hard to do. I repeat the same thing for the other leg making sure to massage as i go to work out the tension. Finishing that I kneel close washing your inner thighs. Its a good thing im under water because its hiding the full body blush I know is covering my body. I am careful to do everything I can and be respectful.

It is so hard to do this under water. There has to be a better way. Finishing up I raise myself out of the water and place the squeezed out cloth and bar of soap onto the tray.

I turn around and you are standing as well with your arms open. Like a silly little girl I practically fly into yor embrace. You hold me so tight I want to cry I am so happy.

"you make me so proud shadow. This was perfect. I feel so relaxed."

I dont trust myself to speak and only hug back tighter.

While we are drying off I ask you a lot of questions. I am so insecure right now. I need to know I did well. That i was a help. That I am worthy. I feel so silly but I cant help it. I don't know what the other girls do. I want to do it right.

I ask softly not really wanting an answer, but I need to know.

"is this how others do this sort of thing?" I bite my lower lip looking down.

"Not even close shadow"

My heart breaks I wanted this to be perfect for you.

"This was more special!"

I could just cry. My emotions were flying form one extreme to another. I drop to the floor at your feet in the best kneeling position that I can not caring that I am totally naked.

"I am yours Mistress, to serve you in whatever way you need. I love you Mistress"

I pause a second and repeat.

"I love you Mother."

"I love you shadow"

The End