In the mural room, I removed her harness, then her bonds. I took her to

the bathroom and asked if she needed the toilet. She did, and we

performed our familiar ritual. First her, then me, then both of us used

the bidet. She went first, then adjusted the shower while I had my turn.

We agreed we were both hungry, so we showered quickly with a minimum of

groping and moaning - although there was enough of that to give me a

raging boner. She offered to do something about it, but said I was

practicing to be celibate, and I would wait. She said that would be the

day, when I renounced sex. Then she added that it would also the day she

would start looking for a replacement Master. I told her that celibates

still had tongues and hands, and she hadn't seen all my tricks yet. We

both laughed.

After we dried one another, I dressed her in her high heels and new

housewear. She smiled at me while I tied the bow for her, and I was

relieved to see that there were apparently no hard feelings from this

morning's disagreement about the "apron." We went to the kitchen and

stood side-by-side with our heads in the refrigerator, planning our

lunch. I was pleased to see that Philip had left us a full pitcher of

iced tea. The rest of lunch was quickly assembled and we carried

everything to the dining room and went at it.

After lunch I noticed that it was only 12:10 PM - we hadn't wasted as

much time in the basement as I had feared. I told her I had an idea for

something that we should take a few minutes to prepare, and I had her

take the lunch dishes to the kitchen, then meet me in the guest bedroom.

While she did that, I went to Philip's office.

When I came into the guest room, she was waiting for me, facing the door

in the Waiting Pose. Her eyes opened wide when she saw the pistol in my

hand. I put the three ammo clips and box of shells I was holding in the

other hand on the bed. The pistol she had been taking to bed with her

was a revolver, so I asked her if she had ever fired a pistol like this

one, and she said that she had, a long time ago. The pistol I had

selected was a popular, lightweight, semiautomatic. I showed her that it

was unloaded, and emphasized that even though there was no clip in the

gun, if there was a lone shell in the breech it was a loaded gun. I

showed her how to load it, and explained how the action worked when it

was fired, to eject the spent shell and insert a fresh one from the

clip. I explained what happened to the mechanism when the last shell was

fired, and the correct procedure to eject the empty clip, slap in a new

one, and ready the gun to fire. I made sure she understood the safety

latch, and how to safe the hammer once the gun had been cocked. Finally,

I showed her how to fill the clip from the ammo box. Finally, I asked

her if she had any questions, and she said, "Yes, Master. Why are we

doing this?"

I had her sit on the bed, and I knelt in front of her and took her hands

in mine. I said that Mr. Collins and Philip were of the opinion that she

should be kept in the dark as much as possible about what was being done

to protect her, because they loved her and they didn't want to worry her

or scare her unnecessarily. But I knew something she had not told either

of them, which was that she was already terrified. So I was taking

unilateral action to make her a participant in her own defense. I told

her about everything that I had learned from my talks with Philip,

including the ongoing investigation by the detective who had brought me

back to her. The only thing I left out was my willingness to be

imprisoned to help shut down the organization and protect her. I told

her that she should always remember that we did not know of any real

threat to her right now, but prudence dictated that we act as if there

was a threat, and take all possible steps to neutralize it.

But she and I were going to take specific defensive action together,

right now. We were going to prepare, and have available to her at all

times, a package of clothing and a gun, so that she would always know

that she could take steps to defend herself. I told her what the

contents of the kit would be: the gun and ammo I had brought here, a

pair of panties, socks, slacks, and a pullover sweater, all from the

pile of rejected clothes on the bed beside her, and a pair of her old

sneakers. When we went out on our walks, where she would be naked nearly

all the time, this kit would go with us. When we went to the basement,

where she would likewise be naked, we would take it down there with us.

If she wanted to, we could even take it with us as we moved from room to

room in the house, although I recommended that we just choose a central

location where she knew it would always be located during the day, and

maybe take it to the bedroom at night when we went to bed.

I told her I had no idea if this would help her, or if I was scaring her

even more by talking to her about this. But if I were her, I would find

it empowering to know that, if the worst happened, I would not be alone,

naked, and helpless to defend myself. I asked her if she could tell me

what her reaction was to what I had said. She launched herself at me,

pushing me down on the floor and landing on top of me. She began kissing

me tenderly, and murmuring how much she loved me, and how proud she was

of me, and how grateful she was that I was in her life. I asked her if

that meant she thought it was a good idea, and she said. "It means that

you have given me exactly what I needed. You're right, I've felt

ignorant and helpless and weak and terrified. This is a prayer answered,

a dream come true. I can never thank you enough for doing this for me,

Master."

I told her to pick out whatever clothes she wanted to put in the kit,

and that she could choose more than one item of each type if she wanted,

but I recommended that she try to select items that could easily be

folded or rolled into a small, dense package. She chose two pairs of

cotton panties and socks, one pair of denim jeans, and two pullover

sweaters - a light one and a heavier one. She asked me if her choices

were acceptable to her Master. I told her that it was not for her Master

to decide. If those were the items she wanted, they were the right

items. I asked her how much cash was in the house, and she said maybe a

thousand dollars. I told her to go get $200 dollars, and come back and

stuff it in one of the pockets of the jeans. I asked her if she had a

small gym bag, back pack, or anything similar that she could pack the

items in and carry them easily. She said she had the perfect thing, and

ran to get it and the money.

When she returned, she threw the money and bag on the bed, wrapped her

arms around my neck, and kissed me hard. She said this was so cool, it

was just what she needed to calm her terror and her feelings of

helplessness.

I looked at the bag she had chosen. It was a very small gym bag,

equipped with both hand grips and a shoulder strap. I told her that it

was a great choice, if she could cram everything into it, but it looked

too small. She said she would make it fit, and she set to work. I told

her to do it her way, but the ammo should wind up all together inside

the shoes at one end of the bag, and the loaded gun would be on top of

the clothes and the first item seen when the bag was opened. I told her

I forgot one item, she should go and get a zipper lock freezer bag from

the kitchen to put the gun in, so it wouldn't get oil all over her

clothes. She ran to get it. When she returned she began rolling or

folding the clothes, and planning how to pack the clothes and shoes. I

told her not to pack the two pair of socks. After several tries, she

could not get both sweaters into the bag. I told her if I were her, I

would either substitute another light sweater for the heavy one, or else

leave out the light sweater she had chosen. She had to choose whether it

was more important to have a heavy sweater, or two sweaters. She chose

the single heavy sweater.

When she had planned the layout for the clothes, I told her to take them

all out. I then had her insert a clip into the pistol, and told her

until she needed to use it she would not cock it to put a round in the

breech. It was much safer that way, there was no way it would fire until

a round was jacked into the breech. Then she sealed the loaded gun in

the bag. I told her to put the remaining clips and box of shells inside

the shoes, stuff a pair of socks in each shoe to hold the ammo in,

repack, and then put the gun on top. It all fit. She zipped up the bag,

put the strap over her shoulder, and turned to face me, beaming a smile.

"You're my hero," she said.

"And you're the love of my life. Nothing is going to happen to you while

I'm alive. Philip has more pistols just like yours. Monday I'll ask him

where we can go to give you some target practice. Now let's decide where

to keep your kit while we're in the house." She said she knew just the

spot. It was in a hallway, pretty much centrally located to all the

rooms of the house, right beside a small table. I told he that was a

good choice, to put it there until we were ready to take it with us on

our walk. She put it down, gave me another big hug and thanked me again.

I told her it was really simple for me - if she felt better, I was

happy. She said I should assume she felt better. It was 1:15.

I asked her if she was ready to take a walk, and she enthusiastically

said she was. I told her to gather up a blanket, the sun block, the

canteen, her harnesses and nipple clips, her defensive kit, and the

shoes and socks she would wear during the walk. She said, "speaking of

pack mules," but grinned at me and ran to get everything. I yelled after

her that she didn't need to get it all in one trip. But when she met me

at the exit door, she was carrying everything and grinning proudly.

"Ain't I a great mule?" she asked. "The best," I admitted.

I asked her if she was sure she really wanted to go out today, after her

exertions this morning. I looked at her ass, and I could still tell it

had been treated roughly. She said she would admit she was tired, but

wondered if her Master knew what was the most noticeable physical

symptom of clinical depression. I said I wasn't sure, and she told me it

was lack of energy for physical activity. She said she had suffered from

depression since the accident that killed her husband and son, then it

got much worse when she realized the terrible mistake she had made

getting involved with the organization. Since I came here, she said she

had made tremendous progress in working through her grief over her loss,

thanks in large part to my help, and now I was helping her to feel less

powerless to defend herself against anything the organization might do.

She wasn't claiming that her depression was gone, but she felt better

than she had felt in a very long time. So yes, she was tired, but at the

same time she felt energized and easily capable of a little physical

activity. When she said "physical activity" she reached out and lightly

ran her hand over my crotch. She laughed when my erection became visible

through my pants. "Celibate, eh?" she asked.

Instead of the circular hike we made on our second outing, I suggested

we just go to the first location we found, where we had our first talk,

spread the blanket, and spread my Slave. I said it was time to dress her

for the outdoors. She put everything down on the table, and I removed

her housewear and shoes, and put on her socks and walking shoes. I

covered her body in sun block, and rubbed it in thoroughly so we

wouldn't get the harnesses too greasy. I dressed her in her harnesses,

then spent a minute caressing her breasts while they were beautifully

framed in the harness straps. Finally forcing myself to stop, I attached

her nipple clips, tightened them until she winced a little, then

attached the weights. She smiled at me, and said the weight on her

nipples felt wonderful. I asked her if she planned any more

experimentation with orgasm control this afternoon. She said she hadn't

decided, and asked what her Master would like her to do. I told her it

would be a real thrill for her Master if she would refrain from having

any orgasms until I asked her to cum. She smiled at me and said she

would be happy to do that for her Master.

I told her it was her survival kit, she should get used to carrying it.

And she would carry the sun block. I got the blanket and canteen. We

went outside and started up the hill. She was carrying her kit in her

hand, with the shoulder strap stowed. Following her, I had a perfect

view of her swaying ass, with each jiggly cheek perfectly isolated and

framed by the harness straps. After drooling over that view for awhile,

I ran ahead and then turned around and watched her approach me. "More

bad jokes at your Slave's expense, Master?" she asked with a smile.

"This is no joke, lady. You got the finest body this poor boy has EVER

seen, and watching those breasts and that pussy framed by your harness

straps, and seeing those weights bouncing and swaying, and guessing what

that must feel like to your nipples, is driving me crazy. How much

farther is the clearing?"

She said we were almost there, and wanted to know if she should describe

to me in detail the sensations she was feeling right now in her nipples.

I started walking again beside her, watching her breasts and the

weights, and told her I would love to hear that. She said that the pain

from the clamps, and the stimulation of the weights tugging her nipples

back and forth, and some feeling that she couldn't describe, something

like electrical signals traveling back and forth between her nipples and

her clit, were all blended together to produce the most powerful

sensation that she had ever felt short of an orgasm.

I asked her if she would like to cum now, to add to the sensation. She

said Yes, she would, but to please not order her to cum yet, she wanted

to hold off her ultimate pleasure, under control of her Master, for a

long time today, if that was acceptable to her Master. I thought it was

interesting that I had "requested" her to hold off her orgasms until I

"asked" her to cum, but now she was talking about my "ordering" her to

cum, and wanting to be "controlled" by her Master. I was betting that

she would soon agree to my training proposal, and then I would have a

difficult decision to make. I told her that I would wait, but if I

didn't wait as long as she was hoping I would, she should realize that

it gave me pleasure also, to know that she had cum when I was fucking

her. She said that whenever her Master ordered her to cum, she would be

pleased to obey.

We reached the clearing, and she stood by while I spread the blanket and

put down the canteen. I took her kit from her and put it at one corner

of the blanket. Then I knelt down, and she rested her hand on my

shoulder as she raised her feet one at a time and I removed her shoes

and socks. I stood and moved close to her, reached down and gave her a

tender kiss on the lips. I took a step back, and said, "Tell me how this

adds to the sensations," as I rubbed each nipple with the tip of a

finger. She closed her eyes, reached out with her hands and held on to

my waist to steady herself, and rolled her head around in circles.

Finally she answered my question. "The feelings that I described as

electrical signals between my nipples and my clit are now under control

of your finger tips. As the friction between your fingers and my nipples

cause the nipples to be dragged by the fingers, and then to slip and rub

across the fingers, then repeat the whole thing again, I can feel that

motion in minute detail. Its almost like I'm feeling the individual

molecules in my nipples rubbing against the molecules of your fingers.

And each time two molecules rub against each other, an electrical signal

is fired off down my spine to my clit, and then echoed back to the

nipple. It's wonderful. Only you could do this to me. You are the best,

the love of my life. If you ever left me, I know I would die."

"Well don't worry, I'll never leave you." I asked her if it was Ok if I

stopped for a few minutes, while she undressed me and put sun block on

me. She said she was mine to control, I could start her and stop her

whenever and where ever I chose. I stopped, and she opened her eyes and

smiled at me, then began removing my clothes. when I was naked she

covered my body with sun block and slowly massaged it into my skin. I

told her I was going to sit down, and she would sit on my legs, wrap her

legs around my body, and slide close enough to impale her pussy on my

cock. Then she would lean back and I would stimulate her nipples some

more. She moaned as my cock slid into her, then leaned back until her

hands were on my knees, braced by her straight arms. I took the weights

in my hands and gently tugged on them, getting a gasp from her. Then I

rubbed her nipples awhile longer. Occasionally I would stop working on

one nipple, and move that hand down to stimulate her clit. After some

minutes of this she was moaning continuously and breathing in short,

shallow breaths. I had little doubt that she would suppress her orgasm

until I gave her permission to cum, but I was curious if I could get her

so excited that she would ask me to give that permission.

I asked her if she could swing her legs out straight as I lay down,

without letting my cock escape her pussy. She said she thought so, but

let's do it slowly in case she got to a point where her legs were

jammed. I said Ok, but first I wanted to remove the weight from her

nipple clips. I removed the weights, then told her I was starting to

lean back. As I did that, she smoothly spread her legs wide and swung

them around from behind my back, to wind up stretched out on top of my

legs. I don't think my cock moved more than an inch in her pussy during

the whole thing. I asked her how she did that, and she said she wouldn't

recommend anyone try it, it hurt like hell. I told her I didn't expect

her to hurt herself, and she said it was another demonstration of her

love for me, and she was pleased to do it.

Lying on my back, with her on top of me and my cock deep inside her, I

slid her down a little to try and maximize the contact with her clit,

then I began pumping my hips and fucking her. Our heads were still close

enough together that I could tilt my head a little and reach her lips

with mine. I continued fucking her very slowly while kissing her. My

hands were roaming over her shoulders, back, and ass. I fucked her like

this for about 10 minutes, until I had an intense orgasm. When she felt

that I was coming, she smiled at me and said I made her very happy. Then

I felt the awesome power I now had over her, power she was giving to me

voluntarily and joyfully. She was telling me how happy she was that I

had cum inside her, while I refused to allow her the same pleasure.

She slid herself up a little, and began kissing me all over my face, and

telling me how much she loved me. Then she held my head in her hands and

looked into my eyes and smiled. We stayed like that for long minutes.

Then she wiggled her ass and said, "Master, you've been celibate too

long, you still have a raging boner."

"What do you propose to do about that, Slave?" I asked her. She pushed

herself off of me, then pulled me up to a kneeling position. She turned

her back to me and then, on all fours, backed up to my cock, straddling

my legs with hers. I guided it into her ass, and then she straightened

up and leaned her back into me.

"Put the weights back on me, Master, then drive my nipples crazy again,"

She asked. I did as she asked, then while rubbing her nipples with my

fingers I kissed her along both sides of her neck, pumping my cock into

her ass the whole time. I asked her if she would like the harnesses

removed, and she said Yes, they were starting to chafe her a little. I

took a few seconds away from her nipples to remove both top and bottom

harnesses, then returned to my duties. By now she was moaning and

breathing in short, shallow gasps. She said she was being overwhelmed

with pleasure, and I told her I was having quite a bit of that myself. I

thought for sure she would either cum or ask for permission to cum, but

she did neither, and soon I had a jolting orgasm. I kept stimulating her

nipples and pumping my hips until my cock grew too soft to continue.

While still inside her, I turned her torso slightly to let me reach her

lips. When she realized what I was after, she turned her head toward me

and leaned it back onto my shoulder, and we kissed passionately and

hungrily for several minutes. I fumbled around for a few seconds, then

managed to loosen her nipple clips and removed them. Then I began

caressing and massaging her breasts, alternating with letting my hands

roam everywhere they could reach on her body.

Eventually she pulled away from me and turned to face me. "Lie down,

Master, I'll clean you off," she said. I lay down, and she moved toward

my cock with her mouth.

I said, "Wait, Carrie, you haven't had an enema today, my cock is

covered with your shit. Let me wash it off from the canteen first."

She answered, "No Master, that water is ice cold. Let me clean you off,

then I'll rinse my mouth out from the canteen." And she proceeded to

engulf my cock with her mouth. But she didn't just clean me off then

stop to rinse out. She was on a mission, to get me off again. As she

worked on me, I told her to swing around to bring her ass within my

reach, so I could return the favor. She did, and I reached between her

legs and began stimulating her pussy and clit. After a few minutes of

that, I told her to straddle my head and stretch out so I could reach

her with my mouth. She carefully did that, including putting a knee down

on my face at one time. She was so afraid she had hurt me she let go of

my cock to look, but I laughed and told her she would have to do better

than that if she wanted to get back at me for this morning. She said,

"Don't make me laugh, Master, you don't want your cock in my mouth while

I'm laughing, I sometimes accidentally bite." She finished positioning

herself as I had commanded, then went back to work on me. I started

repaying her in kind, working her clit with my tongue while running my

hands over the backs of her thighs, her ass, and her lower back.

After several minutes she had my cock standing at attention again, and

that made her attack me even harder. Her mouth was pumping up and down

at a furious rate, her tongue running the length of my shaft then

flicking around its head on her upstroke. I would have sworn she was

capable of wrapping her tongue around the circumference of my cock, at

least that's what it felt like she was doing. It didn't take very long

at her accelerated pace, and I exploded for the third time in only a few

minutes. She greedily sucked up as much of me as she could, then

lovingly licked me until I was clean. She held her position for awhile,

tenderly kissing the head of my cock, as I continued to work on her

clit. Finally she slapped me on the side of my leg and asked if we could

rest for awhile. I told her sure, and she swung her leg over my head and

knelt beside me. She still hadn't cum, I didn't know the words to

express to her my awe and admiration.

I sat up and made a move to take her in my arms, but she pulled away,

saying "Wait, Master." She got the canteen, poured water into her hand,

sucked it up into her mouth and swished it around, then spat it out. She

repeated that procedure three more times, and only then would she touch

her lips to the canteen and take a big mouthful. She swished that in her

mouth for awhile then spat, then repeated that procedure once. Finally

she took a big mouthful and swallowed it, then offered the canteen to

me. "Water, Master?" I thanked her, took the canteen, and took three big

swallows of water. I handed the canteen back to her, and she replaced

the cap and set it down.

I lay down again and reached out a hand to her. "Lie down beside me, my

beautiful Carrie, and let me try to tell you how much I love, admire and

respect you. And the answer in all three cases is 'without bounds or

reservations'."

She sprawled out beside me on her side, but kept herself propped up on

one elbow. She looked in my eyes, and while her free hand was roaming

over my chest she said, "Why Master, you'll turn my head."

I asked her how she felt, and she said she felt tired, but wonderful.

She thanked me for all of the pleasure I had brought her, and hoped she

had done well for me. What I really wanted to tell her was about the

guilt I was feeling that she had expertly and lovingly brought me to

orgasm three times while at the same time I was denying her the pleasure

of any orgasms at all. But I decided to say nothing. She wanted to do

this as a demonstration of her love, obedience, and devotion to me. I

wasn't going to spoil it for her with my hang-ups. So I told her that

her Master had been given a rare gift today by his loving Slave, for

which he would always be grateful.

I asked her if she was ready to return to the house. She said she would

prefer to let me rest for a few minutes, then see if I could give her a

repeat engagement. I asked her what part of the engagement she was

interested in repeating, and with a smile she said, "Why, the whole

thing, Master." I groaned, then told her to get down here and give me a

big hug, and maybe she could transfer enough energy into my tired,

broken body to maybe get another twitch from my cock. She rested her

head on my chest and wrapped her arm around me. Then she looked up into

my eyes, and said that she would never forget what I had done for her

today with the clothes and the gun. She said she was sure that no one

else in the world would have thought of doing that, and it was the exact

thing she needed. She felt she was the luckiest woman there was, to have

fallen in love and given herself to me. I told her I would agree that

she was lucky if she would agree that I was equally lucky. She smiled

and said "Agreed, Master. ... But I'm a little luckier than you are." I

told her she couldn't be more in error, that in fact I was just slightly

luckier than she was. Before we could go another round, we both broke

down laughing. She said, "Ok, we're both pretty damned lucky."

"Agreed," I said, and then added, mumbling under my breath, "but I'm

luckier." She said Ok, I was the Master, if I said I was luckier, then I

was luckier, end of story. "Hey, wait a minute, aren't you going to try

to talk me out of it?"

"No, Master, you're right. You win, end of argument. In fact, now that I

think of it, you are much, much luckier than I am."

I said, "Yay! I won! I won! ... Hey, wait a minute..." We both broke up

again, then kissed.

I told her that this was an obvious stall for time while my recovery

progressed, but I thought I could make the wait more pleasant for her if

she would lie on her back and spread her legs. She complied immediately,

wondering aloud, "What could he be planning? I wonder. Hmmmm." I knelt

between her legs, then stretched out with my face in her pussy. I

reached up with both hands and found her breasts, then her nipples. I

started working on her clit and her nipples, and she immediately began

moaning. "Master, you've got my number. This nipple/clit connection is

going to turn me into a quivering mass of jelly. You're going to have to

go back to the house and bring a bucket to scoop me up in."

"Just tell me what I can do to turn you to jelly sooner, that's my real

goal." She said if I really wanted to do that, try holding each nipple

between the thumb and middle finger, squeeze them moderately hard, then

rub the top of the nipples with the forefinger. I immediately switched

to doing that, and immediately she said, "Oh, my God, I guessed right.

I'm dying up here, I'm going to need a new nervous system when you're

finished with me." I told her that I could stop if it was too much for

her. She said, "No, please don't stop, Master. I can take it, but my

God, it's so intense. I'm yours for life, Master."

After about ten minutes of that, she was moaning continuously and

rolling her head from side to side, telling me how much she loved me. I

suddenly noticed that I had an erection again. I said I could continue

this as long as she wanted, or we could have another fuck. She said she

loved this, but she loved my cock more, to please give it to her now, I

moved up and mounted her in the good old missionary position, and

started humping. Then I saw she had tears in her eyes, but she was

smiling at me. I told her if this was too much for her, we could stop or

we could end the experiment, that she was long past needing to prove

anything more to me.

She softly said she would tell me her secret goal for today, if I

promised not to tell her Master. I promised her I wouldn't, and she said

she wished she would be commanded to cum tonight, as her Master fucked

her in their bed, and just as her Master was coming. She said it was

important to her that her Master forbid her to cum before then, but she

didn't want him to know her secret. I told her he would never find out

from me, but that I thought if he knew her secret, it would only

increase his admiration and love for her. She said that her Master's

love for her was unquestioned, as was her love for him, and that a Slave

was not for admiring, it was for commanding and using selfishly and

fucking. She said her goal was to demonstrate her total submission and

obedience to her Master, and her will to be dominated by him whenever he

chose. Finally, she said that an orgasm was only one pleasant sensation,

and her Master had given her a wealth of other pleasant sensations all

afternoon. Her Master had no reason to feel guilt for denying her a

little, while giving her so much.

She showed me some capital-T Truths with that little speech. I think her

real purpose was to tell her Master to stop interfering with her

demonstration of love, and start supporting her instead of undermining

her. But she also gave me a message that she probably didn't intend to

give, or even realize that she was giving. I already knew that she had

trained herself to be a better Slave than I could have ever made her

under the whip. Now I realized that, if I would allow it, she would also

make me a better Master than I could have ever been without her. I vowed

silently to myself, and to her, that I would allow it.