@Cedar .. 🌹 .. no problem about me taking your questions wrong ... i'll try to answer them as best as i can .. also thank you for your compliments .. 😃

I am curious about a couple of things. From your excellent writings, it sounded like you and Gail began sharing enemas fairly quickly after meeting or became pretty intimate with each other after not too long.

Was this a, "Love at first sight," type of thing where you two hit it off almost right off the bat?

What did your husband think about you and her having enemas together in your "sanctuary" or did he know?

Did you have feelings for other women before or since, Gail? Did this effect the way you felt about your husband?

Gail and i got to know each other for a few months before we took the step of having enemas in the presence of each other. That first time when my husband and i were interviewing her for the 'parts' shoot we had been hired for was as i had said .. she did take off her clothes like i described and won us over right then and there. I .. we .. were extremely impressed with her confidence and what happened was pretty much what i wrote.

What i wasn't able to say .. or didn't say it well enough .. was that the shoot took about 3 months to complete .. we were doing stock photos for this company and doing as many shots as possible so that they could have 'stock' on hand when they wanted to advertise whatever they wanted to advertise and have some 'stock' photos on hand so they would not have to hire professional photographers all of the time .. and i assume that is what they did. This was a pretty big gig for us at the time and hubby has a job in town and i do most of the shoots myself .. and back then .. i was a mom and taking care of the house too .. all that domestic goddess stuff .. 😉

Gail was our main model and we had to do several weeks getting the shots .. the contact sheets .. all that jazz .. and during that time she and i got to know each other. She was a mom of 2 boys and a daughter and we compared notes .. and so on .. and so forth. When she would come down for a shoot .. we let her stay in my 'sanctuary' .. a testosterone free zone .. where i went to do my work on developing film .. prints .. what have u .. i have a bed over there above the studio where i went to have some privacy .. ie .. have an enema. I also go for morning walks .. or a run .. of about 3 to 4 miles on a creek bed .. i'm usually up before dawn .. and sometimes i will .. or did more so back then .. run through my kata's .. i used to compete in martial arts in my day. Gail was also into martial arts .. big time .. and was nationally ranked in her class and rating .. soooo .. that was just one more thing we had in common.

During one of her visits .. early on .. when she was there for a shoot and using my sanctuary to stay .. i didn't take down my enema bag .. like i said in my story .. that was probably a month after we hired her .. .. and she also would spar with me .. no contact .. she had a lot long reach and she was very .. very good .. or help or join me in kata .. .. i'm getting wordy here .. sorry ..

I was attracted to Gail that first day .. that is for certain .. partly .. or mostly because she was so confident with herself .. not self conscious .. and so that is what i thought all the attraction to her was about. But .. 'love at first sight' .. if i am honest .. i'd have to say .. yes .. at that time in my life .. i was in my mid to late 30's .. and raising my boys .. trying to make a living ... not really thinking about my sexual orientation .. i was a photographer and admired beauty .. whatever form it took ... ... ... my first clue was when i was looking at her through the lens .. finding middle gray .. and she was looking back at me .. right into the lens .. .. .. and i found myself thinking .. 'this chick is turning me on!' I was having some pretty serious thoughts about her .. in the sex department .. something way new to me.

Then there was the 'bullshit' of me 'searching my feelings' .. and all that crap .. trouble with hubby .. he was probably full blown diabetic then and .. well .. i've covered that in my blog ... i was a bitch too .. that's in the blog u have read .. so i won't repeat that here .. .. not love at first sight .. we were becoming friends .. she was .. or as my husband says .. 'had her shit together' .. and she knew what she was all about. She was .. she admitted later .. 'putting the moves on me' .. and i .. was denying it to myself .. but she did turn me on .. she would tell me a couple years later when we were .. or i was .. finally comfortable with what i was .. she said that when she saw my enema bag left out .. she figured i had done it on purpose .. and if not .. she was going to use it to get to me. That's about when she 'let' me stay with her while she had her first enema .. 'for' .. me. I could have excused myself .. but i didn't want to .. no way .. if i had been honest back then about what i was feeling .. that's hindsight.

As for hubby .. he had to know at the first that i was attracted to her .. but he was too .. and he knew that i almost exclusively had my enemas in the morning in my sanctuary and that Gail would be around when she was staying there ... but i was always back .. as i usually was after my run or workout .. to get the boys off to school and him to work .. even when Gail was there. So it wasn't sudden or real quick when i sucked it up and admitted that she was turning me on and i liked it .. but as i descrived below .. she woke me up to who i was .. who i am .. when she took me that first time. Gail told me that it took her a long time to get me to that point .. that i wasn't easy .. and we went from friends .. to friends who also did enemas .. to friends who did enemas ... gave each other enemas .. and then became lovers. Gail brought me out .. and taught me about what i probably was all along .. bi .. at the very least. Lesbian .. probably not in the strictest sense of the word .. i do love men .. and especially my hubby since i .. or .. we .. have worked out some issues .. again that is in my blog .. so i'll leave it at that.

If Gail was still alive .. and i had progressed on the path she was leading me down .. with her .. she would have been She .. and the Dom .. and i would be .. probably .. Her little bitch. Yes .. i have had other women since Gail .. 2 .. one i just fucked to fuck and then that was it .. .. and one who was a friend .. still is .. but she moved back to Canada. She was an 'enema friend with benefits' but not the kind of relationship i had with Gail.

The way Gail opened me up .. brought me out .. benefited me and my husband .. i used to be passive .. or 'just laid there' .. and expected him to perform .. again .. my blog .. and now .. he really 'does it for me' and we are pretty much equal in giving and taking from each other. I'm open .. now .. to toys and him getting me off .. it isn't me 'letting' him do me either .. i give it to him. 😄 .. and we push it with each other from time to time.

As for D/s .. i'm not very versed in that .. if i did other men .. they couldn't take it .. and i'm not interested in getting it on with a guy who thinks he's King Shit .. it's not why i'm here at Zity .. not at all.

I'm here because .. i fell in love with that dope i married all those years .. and kids ago .. and i'm too used to him to let that all go away .. i nearly did. So .. Cedar .. 😃 ... Gail brought me out .. i'm bi as hell ... now .. i want to do what i can to make things work with hubby. And if he doesn't always want that .. i'm going to make sure i get mine.