I was a very late learner. Sex subjects and anything like it was a taboo subject when I was growing up. My mother and father never talked about it, or ever showed any sign of love or passion in public. I was completely confused with my sexuality and gender. I wanted to be a girl, but I couldn't talk about it, or show any feminine feelings to my parents.
When I was about 15 or 16, I started experimenting. Secretly buying female clothes with my pocket money, then getting dressed and going out late at night when my parents were in bed. I had tried wearing make up and jewellery, but they went crazy. I found somewhere and got my ears pierced without their concent and they made me take the earrings out, and forbade me to wear make up.
It was on one of my secret ventures out as a female late at night, that I stumbled across the mother of one of my school friends. She was doing sex work and, was equally as shocked and stunned as myself, when both of our secrets were discovered..
We became very good friends and I spent lots of time with her at her house.
She taught me everything I needed to know.
I was now hanging around the streets with her and other working girls. I never did anything other than just talk to them, and spend time with them whilst dressed as a girl.
One night my friend asked me if I was going to help her get ready for going out, and help do her make up.
She was not really that much older than myself, as she had both her children very young in her teens, and when she fell pregnant with her son, her boyfriend deserted her.
Wearing just her underwear, she closed the door behind her, and basically said that if I was going to be with her and the other girls on the streets, then really I had to learn what it was all about. She showed me how to pleasure a woman, it was the first time in my life that I had ever seen a woman's body other than in photographs. Over the next few days and weeks she taught me what men liked and how to pleasure men. She taught me about blow jobs, toys, and even how to put a condom on with my mouth.
Over the years we worked for the same escort agency, and independently, often doing lesbian acts, or threesomes on bookings. We knew exactly what to do with each other. Without her help, I honestly don't know how I would have survived in life, and when I would ever have had any sort of sexual experience.