Here is a submissive's discipline report from a sub I was training that may give you an idea for self-punishment.
I hope to not have to repeat the discipline assignment anytime soon. I'm laying in my freshly laundered bed 😃 boxer shorts, sans undies and a tshirt. My cat is laying across half of my chest and my legs are parted for you Sir. (This is a reoccurring theme of today!)
Sir, my stomach dropped a little when I received your email. I had an premonition of what was going to be inside the email. As I knew there was going to be discipline for my actions from earlier this morning.
As I had already messed with breast binding 3 times today, I felt it was ok to skip over that part. I laid a towel on top of my bed, grabbed the toothpaste and the snakebite kit. I applied the clit sucker first and then the nipple suckers. I set the alarm on my phone for 10 minutes. No crazy sensations to report about here. I'm so tired, I could have fallen asleep with the suckers on. The alarm went off and I yanked the suckers off (ouch). I applied the toothpaste directly to my clit, hood pulled back, the lips of my freshly shaved pussy and my nipples. Then came the most dreaded part. I really didn't want to put toothpaste on my butthole. Bad memories from last time I tried it. I kept secretly wishing you were going to email me back and shorten the length of time to 10-15 minutes. Yes, fat chance. I accepted my punishment and set the timer for 25 minutes. The first 5 minutes I was borderline in tears. It was painful. But I knew better than to close my legs or clinch. Because that increases the burn. The first few minutes I just focused on breathing. It was all I could do. Then I knew I had to get my mind off of it. I grabbed my iPad and started playing candy crush saga to help pass the time. Ugh. Time was moving like molasses. I checked the clock and I still had 12 minutes to go. I gave myself a pep talk that I could get through it. I closed my eyes and laid there for the remainder of the time. I was happy when the alarm sounded.
I immediately got up and took my third shower of the day. Yes you read that right. 3rd shower(my frugal Jewish roommate would be thrilled at that fact :p) . I had no choice. I had to wash away the burn. At first it felt like I was just rubbing IN the toothpaste and it burned even more. Finally after a few minutes of scrubbing with soap the burn started to subside.
It was a harsh reminder that you Sir are in control of my orgasms and I am not allowed to climax without your consent. I do not wish to repeat that anytime soon!!!
Making mistakes and still learning,
-subbie