Hi, just read a few replies to different questions from this site and thought I better join. Seems to be some very open minded and supportive people here. Saw this question and thought I should chime in & give some support to the opp, because I am in the same boat. So no, you're not alone! and NO! It's not "sick" to think of the same sex! I too have considered myself "straight" my entire life, and honestly, even though I greatly enjoy anal pleasure, and sometimes wonder if a real cock is that much better (as everyone seems to say) compared to my trusty dildo. I don't find myself attracted to the male persona or energy in terms of a relationship at all. My (current) stimulation of a MMF is more about my female life partner being so open minded, & supportive of the idea & me. Being next to me as I go through the experience for the 1st time, supporting me verbally & with touch... just watching out for & taking care of me in such a vulnerable state. Of course, I'm hoping the sex feels great too If I'm looking at porn and come across a good looking cock in the pic, I'll probably think, "Hmm, I bet he would feel good." Nothing wrong with admiring somebodies body, same sex or not. I'm not thinking, "I wonder if he's a good lover & lifetime partner." (not that there is anything wrong with that thought if I did, and for those who do! I just don't.) And recently, I'll admit my curiosity has increased (undoubtedly because I haven't tried it yet). Like someone below said (sorry I lost the reference), we might find out that anal sex with another guy isn't our thing, but still love anal with our female partner & our 'alone time'. Accept that we change, we evolve & like ProV1 said,"...Don't be frightened by it... embrace it." Don't let society dictate what you "should" or "shouldn't" feel. Be yourself... Love yourself, and when a moment that feels comfortable presents itself that you could take advantage of a MMF situation, and you feel ready... go for it. And smile (or moan) while you're doing it! It's just sex, and sex done right should feel good. That's what I hope for and look forward to. Good luck! Oh, & throw titles out the window and never look back.