Happily married but always fantasizing about past girlfriends

If I'd of known then what I know now, I'd of taken a few of them up on it

Could not agree more. The time when nothing much more in the way of opportunities comes, comes far too quickly.

Having thoughts and dreams of past relationships, especially those that were a bit on the wild side, is normal. In my current situation, things are very vanilla and not likely to change and I don't want to end this relationship. But, I still think about those kinky times . And, I also fantasize about a women that I meet now and then and think about getting kinky with her.I even thought about getting enemas from my male chiropractor .