Years ago, when I was in the US Army, I told my commanding officer about my fetish and was sent for a psyche evaluation with Army psychologist. The interesting thing is that they had absolutely NO IDEA about the fetish.
I was asked if I was a pedophile, atracted to children, which I responded with a resounding, "NO I was not".
Then I was asked, "WHY"
I didn't know then, what I do know now. Probably the reason I'm the way that I am with this fetish called Psycho Sexual Deviant Behavior - Infantilism is because I didn't have a real childhood or wasn't allow to be a baby and kid growning up. I was thrusted into adulthood by my single working mother and had to care for myself from a very early age.
I remember having a babysitter when I was preschool, but as soon as I started elementary school, I had to come home, clean the house and prepare myself a meal and get the supplies ready, necessary for my mother to cook dinner for us ready.
My mother would be returning home for a split-shift of work. About 2-4 hours to prepare a meal, relax a little and get me ready for be, before having to return back to work, after putting me to bed.
I had a friend that had a big sister, that would constantly offer my mother to babysit, only she had alterior motives. I would pick on her brother, since he was a bedwetter and she wanted her revenge and she got it one weekend when my mother took her up on her offer.
I was 9 and Bobby's sister dared me to steal diapers off a neighbors clothesline and I accepted and ended up in diapers all weekend long. That's my earliest recollection of being in diapers, but it wouldn't be my last