Well, what I’d love to do sort of contains all at once. I’d love to have a full time Dom, who would really care about me and my whole life and whom I could 100% trust. We’re supposed to be more or less equal, so he won’t interfere in my everyday life, like around co-workers or friends and family. Though my behavior is supposed to be nice and polite, if I don’t want consequences to be enforced. But he would take care for me to eat properly, workout, study or read a certain amount of books every month or maybe go to bed on time. And punish me when I don’t meet his expectations. He would be strict when needed and punishments shouldn’t be fun.
I’m not experienced in all this stuff, so I’d need a lot of corrections at least in the beginning. But I’m willing to be his good girl and would consent to discipline. I have a huge praise kink, so would love him to be around and give me attention (or things like spankings) whenever upset or uncomfortable.
I’m very shy and easily embarrassed, and really not comfortable being even looked at. It would be cool if he’ll deal with that for example by enforcing nudity and some sub-training. Postures or forced face fucking, restraints, things like that.
He’ll make me undergo regular medical check-ups, possibly in his presence. And if I have some health issues, he’d take care of me, like regularly checking my temperature rectally or giving me enemas.
Every once in a while we could try something a bit more extreme, just to know whether we both like it. Like spankings would be an everyday life, but we can level up to direct anus caning. Cuming in my ass is okay, but what peeing inside would feel like… I’ve recently read about a violet wand being put inside the body, if that’s safe, I’d like to try it with someone I trust.
And something that’d really push me - I’d like to go to some kind of a BDSM club, like in a collar and possibly on a leash. Maybe one day I’d be brave enough to put on a show like spanking or enema on stage.
Even thinking about such a life makes me wet, but all that’s highly unlikely as I’m too closed and shy to even talk to anybody about it.