..................And what I really want is to give up control.
............Past kicking and writhing and genuinely wanting it to stop. Not when I want it to stop but when my dom thinks it should stop.
Same concept with the enema. I want the first couple "I can't take any more" met with "sure you can, sweetie... let's just rest for a minute to give everything time to settle". And the retention, as likely as not restrained, goes on as long as she thinks necessary (but a good long time). "Of course you're cramping, sweetie. That's just the enema doing it's work. Try to breath deeply... you've only got 15 minutes left".
And no negotiation about the inevitable plugging and pegging... just a "spread your cheeks wide for me".
All in all, what I really want is a firmness of intention that understands the thinking and planning is not for the sub to do... "I know it hurts, but we're not even close to done with your spanking yet"
Yes, definitely with both pmoi and Doctors and Nurses about this. First, it's only with a woman Domme-ing me. Second, for me it's just an enema, possibly with some mild spanking. But a bit more strict about the enema filling and holding. Like the "I can't take any more" met with "Oh, honey, yes you can - and you will. Remember that I know all about how much you can take and what solutions do to you, and the more whiney, begging and submissive you are the better my orgasms get. So you may think your moaning gets you finished sooner, but really it just makes me hotter and Dom you even more. I know you feel like there's a soccer ball in your belly, but I do love watching you squirm. Next time I'll make it feel like like a basketball............."
And then for the retention, definitely restrained, as long as she wants to make me hold it, even overnight sometimes. "Of course you're cramping, dear little sub - it's so much fun watching you roll around and squirm and beg trying to hold it. Don't worry, you only have to hold this one for another half hour before your next bigger one..............."
"I know it's a humiliating challenge, but you're not even close to finishing your treatment today."
My ex-wife was especially good at doing this to me, and she loved forcing my other kinks on me at the same time - rubber suits and sneakers. I miss that about her.
Eric