Seeing Yourself as the Patient

I have never expirenced it before but it would be interesting to see what happens after I have been given twilight sedation. What I say or do when under would be neat.

I once had a patient to whom we gave propofol to suture wounds and place a chest tube. As he recovered from he started complaining about having his genitals being manipulated by the nurses. Nothing was happening so we assumed he was recounting some incident. Our nurse was fascinated by the story and started asking questions. He started to answer but suddenly woke up and said with a grin--"I don't even think so! Dream on!" It was hilarious. We never knew if it was real or a hallucination.

In real life, I was offered the option to have my appendectomy videotaped. (I declined.) And I once underwent a rectal exam that involved the doctor using a camera, but it did nothing for me.

In a role play situation, I always thought it would be hot to have the exam filmed, and then after the exam the doctor would have me remain nude while he reviewed the video footage with me.

I would love to have a video of my second barium enema. It was administered by a cute young technician who was also very gentle. I'd like to see her inserting the nozzle into my anus and then pumping up the balloon that holds it in. It would also be nice to see myself turning over into various positions and seeing how much I was exposed as the gown flopped around. It would also be nice to have a video of one of my wife's BEs.

I did not watch my colonoscopy (I was not awake), however, when I briefly woke up at the end of the procedure I could feel the nurse gently cleaning me and I remember how good that felt.

As a switch, I often see myself as a patient. I would even be interested and watching some real medical procedures that I needed otherwise be performed. It's always interesting to wind up on the other side.

In fantasy context, mostly I see myself as a patient, especially surgical patient even though I've never undergone surgery. I've always wanted to be photographed and be videotaped for surgical procedure. I want to know what happens to me after I am out. Watching my own medical videos and photos do turn me on. I'd like to see anesthesia and intubation parts. I want to see my expression and my action before I am out. I also want to see how they place me in certain surgical positions, such as lithotomy (my favorite position, my knees are wide apart), jackknife, knee-chest ect. I'm interested to know what equipment they put on and inside my body.

I had surgery last week and 2 weeks ago ,I should have had my aide video me , the same anesthesiologist did me both times, on my second trip last week ,he gave me Midazolam about a half hour before he put me out according to my aide ,I became a zombie kitten, i dont remember anything after that ,it was legitimate news to me when they woke me up and said "we are done, you did great"I wanted to know what they did that I did so well without having any idea what they did , if that makes any sense . Admittedly I am not your dream patient , I scare doctors ,I am allergic to so many of there favorite "go to " drugs ,and had a a realy bad experience with emergency surgery like 40 years ago ,yep TY TY you saved my life ,but gave me PTSD while doing it ,so I will admit I felt a bit "triggered" last week in pre op ,maybe doctor picked up on that . Anyway I don't remember anything about an hour last week ,and I would like my own "this is your brain on drugs" refrence video .

It's a interesting idea and I'd love for someone to have filmed 'young Ken' at the GP's surgery and - even more - at the specialist's (an Ear, Nose & Throat specialist was one of them). Young Ken, like most teenagers, could be very obedient and tractable in following an authority-figure's orders!

Come to think of it, a year or so later a guy did photograph me in the nude after we'd done things together, but I never have seen those 'snaps'! Seems a waste, somehow! (Mind, I don't know if anyone else has seen them either. Maybe they've pleased a few people!)

- Ken

My 15th and last scheduled surgery had a complication. It wa a spinal tethering surgery, and has I got my staples taken out, I sprung a CSF leak, necessitating another major surgery the next morning, and an extra week in the hospital. I'd be curious to see all that, because I'm curious what chain of events led to the CSF leak.

It's not a fetishy thing at all for me. Just an unsolved mystery, like Natalee Holloway (though I'm sure J vd S did it).

Well I guess this one's crazy but I'd like to have one of my ECT sessions. I have some pictures I took myself before and afterwards.

Also my tonsillectomy.

I fantasize about given all kinds of tests nude by a male team of doctors, but would not be turned on in a real life scenario.