Feeling like a child again

Well I'm 62, and have been getting enemas since a baby, at 11 ,I started to self administer, but still got them from Mom also till about 16. Mom had no idea that I self administering . But when young, like most, I got enemas from Mom. They did something to me but I did not understand what. At that age it might have been sexual excitment, or sensation, or feelings of embarrasement, or a combination of all. I did not understand what I was feeling, but liked it. I was to young to relieve my sexual tention, with masturbation after the enema. I had no idea about that, or what I was feeling. At 11 ,though I realized it was sexual, by 13, I was self administering then masturbating. But the feeling was no longer the same. because at 9 or 10, I felt the feelings but was not devleoped enough to masterbate or understand. This made the feeling so much more intense. Well now at 62, I'm taking medication, this medication inhibits my ablity to get a errection, or ejaculate. So after taking a enema, I have no sexual release. I was supprised to find that the feelings were the same, since there is no climax to the event, like when I was a child. there is still the need but not the means. Now its so much more intense again.

So after taking a enema, I have no sexual release. I was surprised to find that the feelings were the same, since there is no climax to the event, like when I was a child. There is still the need but not the means. Now its so much more intense again.

tonyjf,

I begin by saying that I'd love to hear your answer to the question I made to you in a different thread ( see http://www.zity.biz/index.php?mx=forum;ox=display;topic=63201.msg490877#msg490877 ).

Coming now to your post below, as a female I can't experience what you feel you, however I think I understand it, at least partly.

When I get an enema from my best friend (like a sis), I don't masturbate neither seek sexual arousal in the strict sense: in such moments I love only to dream of being a little girl again and softly take my enema in Mom's lap.

And the pleasure I feel has nothing to envy to the most intense climax.

Claudia, I'm so sorry. Sometimes when I post things here, I do something wrong, and they don't stay. I answered the question, and I check, and it didn't post. I'm sorry and will answer it on that thread as soon as i finish this answer. So after you read this, check back to that thread. What I tried to say, was that as a child, I was innocent, I did not know what I was feeling. It felt good, the sensation, the feeling of the warm water filling me, the embarrassment of laying there with my bottom exposed. I didn't know why it all felt good. But it did. I didn't want to take it, I fought with mom and begged her not to make me take it. There might have been something with the fact that I had to submit , and cooperate. But I didn't know anything about sex. I thought about it, as i grew older. If I read something about a enema in a book, it did something to me,but again I didn't know what I was feeling. If I went into a drug store and saw the enema bags on the shelf, it did something to me but I didn't know what. As I got older, about 11 , I would go in the closet and get the bag, and just look at it, or fill it with water and play with it. At about 12, I got brave enough to try taking a enema by my self when no one was home ( also played with and took rectail Temp. ) Well it was then that I got errections, and learned about Masturbation, it was then that it turned sexual. After that , I realized that the good feeling I felt was arrousal. When Ever Mom gave me a enema after that, or when I self administered, it would end in masturbation. I would still fight with Mom and beg her not to make me take it, because I didn't want her to know I like it. But would submit and cooperate after making a fuss about it. Now , with this medication I can not get a errection ,or ejaculate. So when I take a enema I feel the same as when I was a child, because it doesn't end in a sexual way. I'm not good with words, so i hope you understand what I'm trying to say. The enema ends with no sex,,,I feel the feeling , but can't do anything about it. Its like when I was a child and coudn't do anything about it, because I was not mature enough to get the physical reaction, and didn't understand it. Now I can't get the physical reaction, but I do understand what I feel. I hope thaqt explains it

Enemas, childhood and awaking of sexual awareness are, for me, all interconnected. Who knows why we sometimes connect sexually with objects but it obviously happens all the time. Enemas are not the only objects that are connected to sexual feelings/thoughts. I imagine you can take any thing - for example - can opened, spring afternoon, basement and somebody some where in the world is turned on by this combination of words/ideas! I have never been afraid of my fetish (although I have always kept in private). I have always found my little enema thoughts as rather interesting and "fun".

When I think of enemas I can not help but associate the thoughts and feelings with early experiences. Really pretty natural. These thoughts are only problems if they take over and interfere with our happiness or our ability to function appropriately in the world around us.

I sure don't want to feel like a child. Maybe that's why I take enemas in private. They can leave you in a state where you have no more self control than an infant.