I've been a victim of rape 3 times and I strongly believe that shaped my sexuality into getting deep into Crossdressing, liking to be passive and role playing.
I think that being a guy made it tough to accept this reality as my last two rapes were at age 19 and 21.
The crazy part is: had my rapists just talked to me I probably would have experimented it.
And what's even crazier is sometimes I fantasize of a similar situation where I'm a willing participant.
Anyone out there on the same boat?