I have never been penetrated by a man and I wondered if the thought of this happenning to me makes me gay. I am married and I love sex but recently as I was giving myself an enema I found myself dripping from the tip prefusely and the nozzle gave me a very intense and erotic feeling . As I pushed it into it's position , it gave me a jolt and I started to swell immediately. When I expel the water the feeling of the water as it rushes past my anus is also an intense feeling.
It seems the first few inches or so of penetration are the most sensitive. So because of this I thought it might be something I would like to try to have some man have anal sex with me. To feel him sliding in and out and to give me that nice surge as he nears completion and then finsh with a nice " shot". I don't know if I could cum with this happenning or that I would ever do it but I have thought about it.
I have used the Aneros toy many times and that feels great to me as well. I don;t think having my wife use a strap on is the same as the real thing and she is not into that and would never do that. Having an enema is as close to getting this as I have done. Even though I have never done this , just the thought of it may mean I am gay? I love women , their bodies , curves , smell and their softness but I have this thought I shoud try it to see if it is something I might be missing. Should I or shouldn't I?