Amber, I just noticed your post below and wanted to offer my recent experience. I am always a solo enema person, and I do it for relaxation, erotocism with myself, and occasionally just to feel cleaned out.
I am generally a very happy, satisfied and high-energy person.
A couple months ago I was just feeling down, not sure I would call it depressed, but nothing seemed exciting to me for anymore. Then one day the idea of a relaxing enema just came into my head. I put it off for a couple days because I was too busy feeling sorry for myself.
Then one morning when I was home alone, I just decided to do it. Almost as soon as I began filling the enema bag, my spirits lifted, I started to really look forward to relaxing on my back and just enjoying an enema. I picked out a cute, somewhat smallish white plastic nozzle with a slightly sounded and gently bulbous tip.
Well, as soon as I started inserting the nozzle, it was like everything changed for me. I instantly became incredibly excited and aroused, not completely sexually at first but just very glad to be doing this, and almost out of my skin with anticipation of the enema that I now knew was about to happen.
After a short while, when maybe a third of the bag had flowed inside me, I started fondling and pleasuring myself.
Without going into detail, let me just say one thing.
That enema experience truly seemed like a turning point for me, emotionally and mentally. Not to say that you will be missing anything without an enema, or that an enema will do the same for you. But for me, I am so glad I tried it again.
Hope this helps, and good luck!