I was always really shy about my body and being naked in front of others, even the doctor, well probably especially the doctor seeing as how I have my white coat syndrome and all, lol. But that all changed the very first night that Doc and I got together.
I don't know how, why, or what made me change that night. I know it had to have been by his doing, but again, not sure how or why, or what he did that made me change inside. Maybe it was because he is a real doctor and even though my body is very very far from anything perfect, he still thought I was hot and wanted me. He gave me a sense of self that I never had before, felt before, a sort of self acceptance maybe?
From that point forward being naked was never a problem for me again. Maybe because I knew that someone found me attractive, someone important, a doctor who sees hot naked bodies all day long. That has to be it because when Doc and I split, my feeling of being embarrassed about being naked have returned. I no longer buy the sexy panties, the low cut shirts, or the tight pants. Yes I know it's silly and crazy to allow someone else to define me that much, or to be accountable to my own self worth, but I do. Without him all of my self confidence goes too.
I had a chance to be naked a few weeks ago with another couple who wanted to play. I just couldn't bring myself to do it. I have another chance to be naked next weekend. So, we will see what happens then.
Mashie