Am I sick?

Hey, my name is Amy. When I was small, my dad and mom always spanked me for punishment. When I got sick, they found out via thermometer, I won't say what kind, I'll just say that it didn't go in my mouth.

When I was "plugged up(not in the nose)" my mom would have me bare hiney and bend over something, usually some pillows or the side of the bath. It would hurt, and it was terribly embarrassing when she made me go in front of her. Anyway a little tingle in my butt hole was better than my chronic constipation. It only bothered me after a spanking, because when I got spanked, I either had to spread my legs, which, in turn, made my butt-cheeks spread, or I would push my butt upwards or wiggle it around, which would have the same affect. The problem was that because my butt-cheeks opened up, whatever implement they used would hit me square in the anus sometimes.

They usually used a belt or a spoon, and my panties always came down. When that happened my anus obviously got hurt, and as if the regular red/pink butt wasn't bad enough, I'd end up with a nozzle being worked up my sore little butt hole.

Now that I'm older, either myself or my boyfriend administers my enemas, usually him because I don't like them so he'll come home and make me take one, plus It's hard for me to do it. After my enemas I had to wear a diaper for a couple hours until I, um, pooped, which hurt my butt hole more. I usually lie a lot, especially when my boyfriend asks me how I am "back there". So now he takes my temperature just to punish me, and once again, I'll give you a hint, it's the kind that you bend over for. I never have to wear a diaper, because he knows I'll poop, seeing as I'm not strong enough to hold that kind of pressure with my anal muscles alone.

What he doesn't know is that I like it... I like the feeling of a little glass tube being slid up my bottom, I like the feeling of the nozzle, and the feeling of when I poop. I like feeling like he's my dad, like he has power. I like feeling him march me over to the bed, bend me over his knee, and force that little tube up my ass. I wish that the one, single swat I get, just under my right butt cheek for lying would be one or two hundred. I want him to make me spread my legs, and spank me so hard that I wiggle my behind four feet in the air.

But I know that my dad did all these things, and so did my mom.... so, does that make me sick to want them like this? because seriously, I wouldn't mind calling my boyfriend "Daddy" and letting him change me for a while. I'd love it. ??? ??? ??? ??? ??? ??? ???

I find your story very moving. I wish you the most pleasureable experiences. Women in our society are taught to supress their sexual appitites. Try using vaseline on your rosebud and KY on the nozzle, I think that this will yield a "happy" butthole after you have expelled. Have fun.

I agree with insert on this topic.

Sick and taboo are two words used way too often these days. Some one once said "If you don't like me for who I am, then you don't like me for who I am, but all you're going to get is you don't like me for who I am.".

I also agree the best way to approach his over a few relaxing drinks and casually bring it up.

If you are sick, than I am sick, lol, but I like to think of it as being explorative. I am a long time time enema user, into BDSM, letting the imagination run wild, with dirty & kinky thoughts. A good cleaning is healthy, as we shouldn't let all that toxic matter stay inside our bodies. Its much more fun to have help getting it out, plus experiencing, degregration & humiliation lets those deep, dark thoughts come to the surface so we can face them, and hopefully have some fun 😁.

Accepting that you like enemas and being punished is sometimes hard.

I agree with the comments here. The desire for enemas and punishment is very personal. You don't tell many people about personal issues involving money, physical limitations, or other sexual desires, either. Its personal, not sick.

A psychiatrist named Dr.Denko (I think spelling is right) wrote several medical journal articles about treating a client who was ashamed of his desire for enemas. He had been given enemas as a child and wanted his wife to give enemas to him but could not bring himself to tell her.

The doctor's treatment was to get him to accept his desires for enemas, tell his wife, and enjoy them!

I had a gorgeous girlfriend a few years ago. She was a Phi Beta Kappa graduate and had a PHD. I didn't know that anyone could be as anal erotic as she was. She had a voracious sexual appetite. It took me years to recover after she left me. What is normal? The range of sexual activity is very broad but I would not condone child abuse. I have had many lovers with many varied desires. So I believe that for the most part that whatever turns you on is fine.

Your not sick thats how I got into enemas as a child I was given enemas over moms knees with a large bulb syringe , soap, salt or bakeing soda water enemas. 😃

No Amy! And thks for sharing ur personal experience with us; also, the term "fetish is getting in my craw." It's a PsychoBabbo Dx...term and as mentioned earlier "carries a connotation of "bad baggage." Naaa. we persons who are 'sexual persons have needs, wants, and desires.' And as such we choose to enjoy what we want to enjoy. We live in a society with 'norms, rules, boundries, yada yada." If it's not 'illegal, immoral, or fattening, let's all do it and enjoy.' I know that in our speciallly connected community, we have alot of 'word smiths who could articulate more on this subject than me." Thks again Amy and enjoy with ur boyfriend...pls make sure he's a gentleman and respects you for being you. grandpa d.douglasthomas 😉

Whether You are sick or not is largely a matter of definition.

It is evident that you have developed a preference, which is OK.

If you have a desire to get into a relationship (of any kind - heterosexual or unisexual) and this preference does not interfere, i.e. it is OK with you alone or together with your partner (F or M) then there is no problem. If however this

preference prevents you from prgressing and developing, personally, socially or sexually, then you may have a problem and may use an assistance of some kind.

Sick would relate to ones health. A desire for enemas would not make one sick. If it did then the hospitals would be over run. The desire for an enema is called a fetish know as klismaphilia. One persons fetish is another ones pleasure. Be yourself and enjoy. There are many fetishes that hurt others. Thats when the term "sick" might apply as the desire to hurt another would reflect an unstable mental state

Sick? If so you have plenty of company.

No, u are not sick alot of people enjoy anal play...and also nt bad to be submitive.!

My husband and I enjoy role play that involves me calling him daddy. I have no idea why ... maybe because I didn't grow up with one, or MAYBE because I trust him with my innermost secrets and desires. It is the sexiest thing in the world to hear him tell me how "daddy has to punish (my) bottom because ..... " of whatever it might be that we are playing. We are both over 18, and observe the safe, sane and consensual rules.

If you both enjoy it, forget what anyone else might think. Behind closed doors it is your business..

I just love being with ladies that have a Daddy fetish. With one in particular we would go out to a mall and go into department stores. She would always call me daddy and I would say things like be still I'm looking at something. She even had a little school girl outfit that she wore. Finally I would tell her that if she didn't stay still I would have to spank her when we got home, and she would say something like well my stomach hurts. To which I would say that all she needed was a good enema. Of course we would do all this in earshot of someone (not children) which made it all the more exciting! Once in a store I lifted up her skirt and swatted her bottom and told her to be still. Of course when we got home she was given an enema and then a good spanking so that she could be daddy's good little girl again.

Not sick, just a bit kinky. Join the club... lol

Everyone has things that turn them on be honest with your boyfriend and enjoy all that follows.

Just asking the question shows a healthy mind.

Amy,

Your perfectly normal....as far as we in this forum are concerned.

If it is safe and consensual, it is not sick.

Hence, my screen name.

ACME NY cites a useful clinical source in Dr. Denko.

Unfortunately, a close reading of her original report strongly suggests that she herself is "EWW" about enemas, which somewhat diminishes her source credibilty for me. Here's an abstract of a review published in the [url=javascript:AL_get(this, 'jour', 'Am J Psychother.');][u][color=#0000ff]Am J Psychother.[/color][/u][/url] 1982 Oct;36(4):554-66 that might have the right stuff for this group:

Dr. Joanne Denko coined the work klismaphilia to describe the practices of some of her patients who enjoyed the use of enemas as a sexual stimulant. Since then questions occasionally appear in the professional literature asking about the relationship between enemas and sexual pleasure. This paper considers some of the physiological aspects of the human sexual apparatus that relate to anal sensitivity and explores why klismaphilia can be sexually grafifying. The paper starts with a discussion of the physiological basis for anal sensitivity and anal masturbation in both the human male and the human female. The paper then goes on to relate all this to the sexual sensations received from an enema, and discusses the similarities and differences between all these types of stimulation. Some of the psychological aspects of klismaphilia are also considered in relationship to the physiology involved. The paper concludes with a brief discussion of masked anal masturbation among the population at large. A comprehensive list of references from the literature is given to support these findings.

I'm in agreement with ANewNormalcy. Brief and to the point. What happens in the privacy of one's own bedroom and it is mutually agreed upon why limit yourself and your partner to "the missionary position." There is so much to explore with each other and your immagination is the only limitation if you consider that a limitation. I don't.

I know how you feel. My parents did much the same.was very lucky my second wife understood and was VERY loveing in her care and our home life .

If your sick ...we are all sick

It is not sick. You are wonderful...anyone would be lucky to have you as a partner.

This is a perfect example of when society and its stigmas get in the way. If it feels good to you then its the best thing for you.

People who are concerned about their desires for "abnormal" sex should probably read Gloria Brame's books. The new one, Sex, A Primer for the 21st Century, is available on Amazon. The older ones are best found on Abe books.

In the interest of total disclosure, I consider Gloria a friend and mentor.

Speed

Your fine, just read all the encouragement that is displayed here.

I think there are several things at work here. I'm willing to bet that most of us who like enemas and other anal things, or spankings, or humiliation, do so because we were given enemas or regular spankings, and/or humiliated by someone in our childhoods. Actually, we are fortunate because once we're able to admit to ourselves that we LIKE enemas or whatever, our world of pleasurable experiences is broadened and deepened (no pun intended).

If some of us were too humiliated, we may be stuck at that age level (I am) while at the same time having to function as an adult. I couldn't say "enema" till I got into my 60's. But they were prominent in all my sexual fantasies.

And I think some of us like the submissive role because whatever happens isn't our responsibility. We may feel guilt about what happened when we were children (we believed it happened because we let it happen), so if someone else is doing it to us now, when our reasoning abilities have matured somewhat, we're just innocents being punished or molested by someone else.

And fourthly, our society's attitude toward sex is completely screwed up. If everyone felt the way we do about sex, we wouldn't have greedy banks, countries that colonize other countries by putting them in debt, tribal warfare -- any kind of warfare. Remember "Make love, not war"? That's how it should be. Or "Make sex, not war".

I know from personal experience that there's a direct neural connection between the anus and the clitoris (and presumably the penis). Therefore, the anus is a sexual area. I've also found out that a rectal massage, whether by someone else, my own finger, or a big vibrating penis-shaped dildo with a rotating end, is very relaxing and makes me feel less hostile to the world.

Enjoy it. If it turns you on, it's OK (unless it's with children -- that's something else).

So why not tell the boyfriend what you like and prefer? Ask him to pleasure you in the way you would like him to.

I bet he already knows. just let home 'catch' you.