Soap suppositories is my main fetish I think. I meet them when I was 4 or 5 years old. As I remember I got them “always”. It was my grandmother who did it with me.
It was always dark orange soap. You call it “hard soap” or “curd soap” or “Marseille soap” or “laundry soap”. In my country it literally called “general housework soap”.
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I remember two cases.
My grandmother called me from a kitchen and when I came, she grab me over her knees, pulled down my pants and push a soap suppository into my ass. I don’t remember how it ended.
Second case were when my mother came from her work and I staid in our hall holding my buttocks with my hands and tell my mother and grandmother “It burns” (I had in mind a suppository that had already been inserted by that time). When my mother checked my pants and said “Of course it burns, it came out. Mom, please, push it again”. Again I don’t remember anything else.
I’m sure there was a much more incidents, but I forgot them. After 6th or 7th birthday I stopped to take them. I think my parents thought it would be too humiliating to a boy to be forced like that. We never had a talk about it. I was remembering them from time to time and one day when I was 10 and was taking a bath I take a soap, break off a piece and push it in my bum... I regretted my decision. But then I was doing it from time to time when I was alone in my home. I did this no more than once a month. I liked the feeling of helplessness before soap suppository, not the burn itself. Of course when I was 10 I never had thoughts about high materia like “helplessness”. I didn’t understand why it was so emotionally arousing to be forced to poop with soap suppository.
I disliked burning sensation, so I found out something nice: If you wrap soap in medical wadding and then insert it into you rectum there will be NO burning, only bowel movement. When I inserted soap I always tried to wait several minutes. And then I found out if you could hold it for a 20 minutes, soap will stop burning and forcing bowel movements. But if I hold first suppo and the one after it, the third suppository will cause a big stomachache. One night I inserted 5 suppositories, one after one, every 10 minutes. I wanted to feel helplessness before my bowels. 5th suppository caused so much pain I regret doing it for a long time.
I liked to play with soap suppositories. And it was before I started to masturbate. If I inserted soap and then masturbate before the burning stopped I always ended with sad face on my toilet bowl and thought “Why I even did this? I could masturbated without it. And now my ass is burning.”
For example when I was 12 and stayed in my home. On TV was my favorite cartoon, “Spiderman” (I even remember the episode). I need to wait for a hour or so and then go back to school for additional classes for my profile subject, it was a preparation for the city competition. And I thought “maybe have fun with a soap? I think burning should stop before school”. I made a soapstick and pushed it where it should go. But instead of bowel movements I got only burning sensation. “Oh, no. I can’t even poop it out. My bowels doesn’t work because I’m empty. It’s only burns. No-no-no!”. If I remember correctly I got additional classes with slight burning in my ass. Of course I blacklisted that soap trademark for my purposes.
And I remember the same scenario again and again. “I want to play with soap and I will NOT masturbate. Inserted… I’m so aroused… Oh God, I came. Oh no, why I did it again? Now I need to go to the toilet with non-pleasuring burning sensation”. It was 10 or 20 or maybe a much more times.
And now my stories with other people.
I was 11 and had a 12yo old friend. Once I blackmailed him to insert soap suppository into his ass. Of course he did not agree on his own, but my blackmailing worked.
– Okay, I will insert it myself – he says.
– No, it should be me who did it.
He agreed and bent over my bath. I pulled down his pants and underwear, he spread his buttocks and I pushed damp piece of soap to his rectum. After minute or so he sadly said “Why did you do this? Now I want to take a shit”. He wasn’t my type, but in fact was my best friend at the time. Of course I understood I was doing something bad, but… you know… I think I DON’T REGRET IT.
When I was 12 there was one boy who I liked to play with. Sometimes we spanked each other for fun. I remember his penis didn’t start to grow pubic yet. Once I wanted to do soapstick to him. I cut a small piece of soap and got a cap from shampoo bottle which was filled with plain water. I hid it behind me, he laid over my knees I pulled down his pants and underwear and start to spank him. I had major delays between slaps and hugged his buttocks with my fingers and spread them. When he relaxed I took soap suppository and quickly inserted to his anus. He had no chance to stop me, it was an unexpected attack. His sad face was amazing. He questioned what I did to him I answered “It was just a piece of soap. How do you feel?”. Then he went to the toilet. I did the same to him after a year or so and then hold him down so a soap could start to work properly. He said “I can’t hold it anymore” and I released him. He was so gentle, vulnerable and passive so I couldn’t stop myself from doing it. He was my type, cried a lot and had a cute face.
I was very-very naughty boy. Once we spent a whole summer night at his house (he was my neighbor). By morning, he fell asleep. I played on his computer and he was sleeping on a bed in his summer clothes with some football shorts. I think some of you could call me molester for the thing I’m going to tell you. He was sleeping so carelessly and I thought “maybe strip him?”. I went to him and slowly pulled down his shorts and underwear so I could enjoy the view of his bare bottom. I sat back at the computer and played for a 5 minutes or so. I turned my head, he was still sleeping. If I had a smartphone I would shoot him. And then I thought “maybe use soapstick to him? No, I couldn’t do that. This isn’t my property… Of, it’s just a piece of their soap. But their soap would had cut marks like someone cut it with a knife. I need to round angles after cutting it”. I went to the kitchen, took a knife and cut a small piece of a soap. The soap crumbled to many pieces and one large piece which I rounded. It looked unnatural, but I thought “okay, I will leave it”. I damped good worthy piece of soap for my friend. “Now it should slide without problem. I need to do it quickly. It’s long, but narrow. It should be good. I want to see his sad face.“ I went to him, he was still sleeping. I spread his buttocks, his defenseless anus was right in front of me. I touch his anus with the soapstick, my friend didn’t clenched. I started to push soap suppository. I don’t remember if I did it quickly or slowly. In any way the soapstick hid in his ass. I released his buttocks and then I thought “I don’t know what to do now! He will wake up soon with shorts and underwear down and with burning sensation in his ass. Omg, I think I don’t want to face him at this moment”. I went to another room in his house. Soon I heard a creak of the bed. He woke up and quietly went to the toilet and after several minutes to the bathroom. I sat back at the computer. He quietly walked past me to his bed and slept again. After some time I thought “maybe do it again?”. I couldn’t believe, but I downed his shorts and underwear and pushed second piece of a soap to his ass. I did it quickly and right after I finished he woke up. He said no words, only went to the toilet with sleepy face. I thought “no, It will be completely unfriendly if I do it the third time. He may be offended and will be right.” He wasn’t my best friend at the time, I had two other boys, but he was SO cute and let me PLAY with him, so I wanted to stay close to him. He is currently my best friend.
I understand it was pure sexual assault as is. Do you think I regret it? NO, I AM NOT. This wasn’t the only thing I did to him (for example I gave him a handjob and made him do the same to me), but other stories would be offtopic. I think I must call myself sociopathic, I heard sociopaths couldn't feel regret. Have I ever been assaulted? No, I haven’t. It’s just a thing I born with.
Also there was third boy, my classmate. We was 12. We was in my house and played check-and-mates. The winner should give a belting to a loser. I won easily and he took a belt from his pants because I didn’t have one. He took off his pants and underwear and lay down across my bed waiting for a belting. I said him wait, then went to my bathroom and quickly cut a small piece from my soap. I have to push it quickly so I picked up small one. He was still waiting for me, I squeezed his bottom and spread buttocks, I don’t know why, but he didn’t reacted, then I quickly pushed soapstick to his anus. “Are you an idiot?.. Oiled me with something...” I remember perfectly, he said “Are you an idiot?” not “Are you nuts?”. Then I gave him ten swats with his own belt and then he went to toilet without saying any words.
Oh, If I could do this again.
You could notice all my victims were boys. This happened only because I never had a chance to do such thing with a girl. If I had some female friend who was so careless that she let me do it, I would do it. Until my twenties all that I had with girls was vanilla things and slapping their buttocks from time to time.
Of course you may think I fantasized everything, but I'm afraid that all this is true.