Re-Adjusting to a life in diapers my story
Five to six years ago if someone had have told me that I would be in diapers again I would have thought that they where either crazy or joking however their is no joke about being incontinent and having to be padded for the rest of your-life when you reach 30+.
I have thought about what life would have been like had this not happened to me but mostly I've come to terms with the fact that I need to wear diapers virtually all of the time and for me it actually makes my life more better because of the fact I don't have to worry about any embarrassing accidents most of the time and this has made me more relaxed and less cranky than I was before I started wearing them aged 30 years old in 2010, although five to six years down the road from then I still face an up-hill battle with stigmatism which as you can imagine is no fun.
Whilst i did everything right from the onset of my battle with incontinence problems i still think my doctors don't understand me as they haven't given me the green light to get diapers for free as in their oppinion I don't have any problems other than a weak bladder. This sucks as I have to buy my diapers from the shops or supermarkets as i can't get them any other way and this as you can imagine is very expensive and embarrassing at times.
Before you wonder where i live i am in the UK and live in Cumbria so I am not in the USA although sometimes i wish that i was because diapers are much more accessible over there than they are here although this is slowly changing as more shops now have them in stock which can only be a good thing as long as they are of good qaulity and not those cheap ones that split or rip every-time i try to put them on to myself.
I also have no carer so i have to do everything for myself even though i have disabilities and should be entitled to one should i make that choice later on in life, or if i win the Euromillons Lottery Draw big-time which would be an awesome thing, fingers crossed. But if this where to happen the first thing i would invest in would be a new home and a adult nursery for myself so that I could live my life without stigmatism, although I will never consider myself as an adult baby as that's simply not in my mentality/psychological make up so to speak of.
I would also invest in around the clock care for myself as i have disabilities and need to be looked after and wouldn't mind having carers looking after my every want and need, including being diapered up like an infant/toddler again although this would be my choice and not what I was forced to become.
All things aside i must now try to get re-assesed and seek out another oppinion from a new doctor not just physiologically speaking but also psychologically. I am not crazy but need to find professional help as I suffer from P.T.S.D/post traumatic stress syndrome due to the fact in 2010 I witnessed my friend Chris being run over & killed by a drunken driver who failed to stop to render any assistance, this and other tragedies in my life well you could say I have issues/baggage and am definitely damaged or scared for life not just physically.
Anyway must go before I have another melt down or episode of survivors guilt trip and I also need to catch up on some sleep ?.
Yours sincerely
Chinababy888