Dichotomy -- Dread Vs Fun

I have long been aware of the seeming incompatibility of my growing up dread of spankings and enemas on one hand and the excitement, buzz, they brought me at the same time. Today though I realized there was a similar, but different contrast between my wife's "necessary" health enemas and corrective/disciplinary spankings and the fun, play, enemas and spankings we sometimes engage in.

I don't pass this revelation off as profound but I'd never thought about how different the dread/buzz of youth was to the necessary/fun of today. The dread/buzz of youth is present when she gives me a necessary enema today and especially when I get a proper discipline spanking. What is different then and now is the fun excitement and buzz which is a whole different thing.

I suppose these ramblings should be in a blog, not here, but I have this feeling my thinking isn't complete. That there's something else in this swing from horrible to fantastic I'm missing and so I thought I'd post here to see if others might have a thought.