The most embarrassing exams were the ones that took me by surprise. I'll never forget the visits to the pediatrician's where I ended up lying down on the examination table so that the doctor and nurses could look at my butthole. Those visits stand out in my memories more than the ones where I got injections, or that one time I needed stitches on my knee; I think the embarrassment of having to expose my bottom was more distressing than physical pain.
One unforgettable visit happened during allergy season when my parents brought me to the clinic to get a new type of anti-histamine. I was sitting next to the doctor's desk, watching him write notes in my patient card, when mom blurted out to him that I had complained of soreness in my backside. I did have a little pain and itching in my butt, but I neither wanted nor needed to see a doctor for it, so I was mortified to hear my mother blabbing about my ass; I frantically tried to cut her off by saying I had no problems in my backside anymore. The doc nodded, still jotting his notes, and I hoped he believed me or didn't care about such a silly thing as a butt itch, but my wishful thinking evaporated when he finished writing, stood up, and called me to lie down on the examination table. A feeling of dread washed over me. I remained in my seat partly in disbelief, and partly frustrated with mom and her loose lips, and I wanted to yell that I didn't need a stupid exam; however, when the nurse pulled the curtain in front of the exam table and beckoned to me, the good girl in me decided to quietly obey to avoid kicking up a fuss, or worse, being dragged to the exam table anyway.
I remember the unreal feeling as I got up from the chair and lifted my leaden feet one by one to cross the short distance to the exam table; it felt like I was watching myself walk to my doom. At the table the nurse guided me up the step stool and made me lie down on my front with my hips on a folded cloth sheet; I propped myself up on my elbows, but she put a cushion under my head and pulled my arms forward until I was completely prone. I felt nervous and self-conscious of being outstretched on the table while everyone else was standing around me, but the soft padding of the table soon made me relax and forget my anxiety. I have clear recollections of all the comfy positions my body was placed in just before intrusions into my butt; it was like the calm before the storm, and perhaps a part of my mind was trying to distract me from the anxiety of knowing that my body was vulnerable in those positions.
My relaxing reprieve was short-lived. I heard the nurse behind me saying she was going to take my pants off so that the doctor could take a look at my bottom. My anxiety returned in a surge when I felt her fingers like giant spiders clawing at my waist and tugging on my shorts. I remember also feeling ashamed and a bit miffed that she didn't trust me enough to take off own my clothes, so I lifted my hips slightly to help her slide my clothes off; I guess it gave me a sense of control over the situation although what I really wanted to do was to run out of the room. Although I was expecting it, it was still shocking when she pulled my pants all the way down to my thighs, and then pushed my shirt above my waist for good measure; I realized my panties had come off as well when I felt the cold air between my legs. At this point I remained composed and kept still as a rock, hoping it would make me less visible, but my heart was racing and my embarrassment escalating as it slowly hit home that my naked butt was now in full view of everyone in the room. I tried to steel myself for whatever was coming, but when I felt fingers touching my bare bottom, I could not help but flinch and look behind me; I caught a glimpse of the nurse leaning over me and the doctor with his gloved hand hovering over my bottom, but I did not get a good look because mom promptly turned my head back onto the cushion and held my arms down. I realized I was squeezing my buttocks because I heard the nurse telling me to relax and I noticed the steady pressure of her hands pulling my buttocks open. I had to will myself to relent and when I did so, I immediately felt my butt cheeks parting and spreading under her hands. Whatever embarrassment I felt earlier was now a zillion times worse because I could now feel the cold air on my exposed and stretched butthole. I was so embarrassed that my body was shuddering and my butt cheeks trembling involuntary as if they had a mind of their own and could not decide on whether to clench or to yield. The doc in a soothing voice said something about my butthole looking red and that he was going to apply some cream, but I wasn't really paying attention because I was trying hard not to cry and was looking at anything that distracted me from the utterly embarrassing and helpless situation I was in; I read the posters on the wall, looked at mom who was whispering to me, studied the contents of the dustbin on the floor, and settled on staring at the metal cup on the doctor's desk that held the tongue depressors...and I realized they were not ice cream sticks which I had thought they were, but wider and curvier. I was yanked back into the moment when I felt the doctor's greasy finger swiping over my butthole; each swipe was an electric jolt of embarrassment -- or perhaps excitement -- that made me cringe. It couldn't have been more than few minutes, but it felt like forever, before the doc was done with my ass and I was allowed to pull up my shorts and climb off the table.
I remember stepping out of the doctor's office with a slippery sensation between my buttocks and doing a gingerly walk past the other people in the waiting room, wondering if they could tell that my ass had just been inspected and treated.