My ageplay origin

So for me it's like this: I practice ageplay because my childhood was really a pure nightmare for me. I can't and won't go into it any further, because these are topics that don't belong in this forum , just this much: I was pretty close to the edge, but then ageplay became like my lifeline! When I become my “little me”, I basically replay my childhood , but this time in a better/prettier way. I'm just trying to compensate for my bad/dark past, which works very well for me. In addition, it is now a great balance to my very demanding job, in which I usually have to be very dominant.

I can fully understand; grew up with csa some of which pretty sadistic I can relate to the benefits of RP and its been big benefit for me personally.

For myself … my fantasies began in early childhood, and were very vivid. In those days, the fantasies largely involved myself, as I was then.

As I got older, I remained a kid in my fantasies. For me it just felt right, and natural, and exciting. I never imagined it could be any other way.

I was grateful to find people like myself on the internet, though I have also been shamed for my fantasies (by fellow kinksters!) as well.

For myself … my fantasies began in early childhood, and were very vivid. In those days, the fantasies largely involved myself, as I was then.

As I got older, I remained a kid in my fantasies. For me it just felt right, and natural, and exciting. I never imagined it could be any other way.

I was grateful to find people like myself on the internet, though I have also been shamed for my fantasies (by fellow kinksters!) as well.

It just goes to show that there are despicable assholes even among those who are supposedly more open-minded than the general population. I mean, it's normal/expected not to all share the same kinks, but to ridicule/shame fellow kinksters? Ugh. I find that despicable.

I’m finding myself attracted to women decades younger than me, despite being almost 70. (Young adult females, not minors). It reminds me of my younger days, which were definitely more enjoyable.

Unfortunately, not even one of them has ever expressed a reciprocal interest. In all, I’m not sure that I would want to be young again. I wouldn’t want to have to deal with the unnecessary pressure created by today’s world.

I’m finding myself attracted to women decades younger than me, despite being almost 70. (Young adult females, not minors). It reminds me of my younger days, which were definitely more enjoyable.

Unfortunately, not even one of them has ever expressed a reciprocal interest. In all, I’m not sure that I would want to be young again. I wouldn’t want to have to deal with the unnecessary pressure created by today’s world.

But what if you knew then, what you know now?

For me it was more of a factory setting. I don't really remember a time I wasn't at least fascinated by diapers and the possibility of wearing them. All the way back to 5 yrs. old I remember wanting to wear diapers and act younger than I was.

I don’t know the origin. I just like that time and fantasise about me as a child.