Anxiety raising comments or noise

As we are waiting our turn, what have you heard that increased your anxiety?

When I was waiting for a job physical I heard… didn't we tell you to STRIP to the WAIST

And the familiar coughing always raises my anxiety…among other things

My aunt once brought me to the doctor because I had a fever. While I waited for my turn, I saw her talking to the nurse at the reception desk, and I knew they were talking about me because the nurse was looking at me. I felt a bit uneasy but figured they were just chatting.

When the doctor saw me, he told me that a pimple on my face was caused by constipation and toxin buildup from poor bowel habits. He then told my aunt he will give me something to move my bowels. I had no say in the matter and was led to the exam table. Like an obedient sheep, I stepped onto the stool and the nurse lifted me onto the table, As I lay there, my anxiety started to build as I heard the doctor talking to a nurse and the fridge door opening and closing. Suddenly the nurse grabbed my shorts and pulled them down with my underwear, and then quickly lifted my legs upwards. She was strong, and I saw my hips lift off the table and rotate upwards. So there I was, held in an almost knees to chest position, shorts and panties around my knees, my butt and genitals in full view of the doctor and two nurses. I felt the draft of the air conditioning on my butthole. My heart was pounding and I sure as hell was anxious, but I did not cry or resist. At the back of my mind I realized “so that's how they are going to move my bowels, by putting medicines in it”. The doctor proceeded to insert a cold suppository.

All the while my aunt sat silently in her chair watching my butt get medicated.

I realized later that my aunt had told the doctor about my bowel habits, and the doctor had extrapolated to some BS about pimples and constipation as an excuse to administer a suppository.

Prepare the injections.

It's the blood pressure cuff specifically at my gynecologist's office. My white coat syndrome is off the chart and the cuff gives it away.

Sounds and sights are always the stuff that stirs anxiety and curiosity. As a teen, seeing others enter or leave an exam room was something I fixated on and would look for signs of distress and if they walked funny, clearly wondering if he or she had a shot given. If lucky, one might hear the nurse telling someone to undress or overhearing her advise about a shot and then the sounds of protest. All of this kept me occupied until I was summoned to follow the nurse or in the room. Then I had to contend with my own distress and protests.

While waiting in a exam room one time I heard talking and the patient moving around on the exam table. Couldn't hear specific words and sounds but sensed the person was getting a physical exam.

The dentist drill = extremely high anxiety

Noises or words that increase my anxiety while at the doctor's office.

• The first words that increase my anxiety at the doctor's are when I check in with the receptionist. Just acknowledging out loud what is about to happen is all it takes to get to me.
• Anytime the door separating the waiting room and hallway leading to the exam rooms is opened I tense up.
• When the nurse standing in the doorway finally calls my name.
• Blood pressure cuff. I too have white coat syndrome really, really bad.
• When the nurse/ medical assistant confirms “So you're here for a physical today?” Or “total body skin exam”, or any other event that might require exposure and/ or embarrassment.
• Being told to undress.
• Hearing the “exam sounds” in the room next door. Partly because I know I'm probably next to be seen, and partly because I like imagining what's going on in there. This is especially true if I saw the person being called back from the waiting room. Bonus points if this person was attractive in any way. The more intimate I believe the exam is, the more anxiety I produce. Examples of this are hearing the crinkly paper, *the cough cough, the step being pushed in, or stirrups being pulled out. These are very distinct sounds and everyone who hears them knows exactly what is going on in the room.
• The knock on the door and doctor entering the exam room.
• When the doctor tells me to have a seat on the exam table, or “Let's have a look”, or whatever words is used to indicate he/ she is about to start examining me.
• Being told to lie down on the table, and even more so, being told to stand up.
• “I'm going to bring in the chaperone now.”
• Any words where I'm instructed to expose myself or warned that I'm about to be exposed. “Go ahead and drop your pants”, “If you will lift your gown”, “I'm just going to lower your gown”, etc.
• Whenever the “exam sounds” are coming from my exam. See #7 above. Other people hearing and picturing me being subjected to this embarrassment really gets me.

Needless to say, I have a lot of anxiety when I'm at the doctor's. That's an understatement. When I hear these things, my anxiety increases. However, when I think back and remember hearing these things, or look forward to expecting these things, my excitement and arousal increase even more so! It's all worth it.

The speculum clicking. I'm sure it makes my vagina tighten.