@Ms_Lila the talk went a lot better than I thought or could hope for and that was just about the enemas. I told him that @Dahiana and I had been talking about anal sex and that I had told her I used the Fleets enemas before we played. He remembers that I switched from the regular Fleets enemas to the saline Fleets enemas because they were a little too harsh. That is what I had told DD when we first talked about anal sex when it got to specifics. But I'm sort of skipping around here because it was a long conversation last night but a really, really good one.
When he got home we did the usual evening stuff and got the kids off to bed and then he gave me a pat on my butt and a little squeeze and a kiss. 🌹 He was in a good mood and I told him I thought so and he just touched his phone and gave me a smile, because the kids were running around in the room and there wasn't much more he could say. But I knew what he meant and my slide show on his phone did the trick. I'm between meetings now, so this may end abruptly.
Anyway we get the kids into bed and we go to our bedroom where I showed him my enema bag. I told him that DD had got it for me and she has shown me how to use it and get comfortable with it. He did raise his eyebrows on that and I went into DD's and my history in a lot more detail and didn't say much because he was really listening. I had a thousand things going through my mind and trying to read his face, especially, when I told him that DD and I, to put it bluntly, fucked. I didn't say it that exact way but I told him there was always that underlying feeling with her. I wanted to bring his focus back to the enemas and so I told him, or asked him, if he wanted to give me one while we talked or let me do one while we talked.
He had an erection starting already, when we first started talking about the anal sex and enemas and that is why I took the chance on asking him if he wanted to give me an enema or let me do an enema while we talked. Ted chose the first option and I stripped down and we kept talking while I got my enema bag ready and let him watch while I was doing it. He stood real close to me the whole time and brushed up against me and I knew he wanted me. I wanted him, too, in a big way but I was a little too focused getting my enema bag ready because I really wanted to have that conversation in our bed while having an enema. It's something DD showed me and we did, what few times we have, and I can see that enemas can be done without involving sex.
Although, just thinking here, any enema session DD and I have done has involved sex. I did tell Ted that, and I am using that name so I get used to it and don't mess up and use his name accidentally. Ted was great when he put the nozzle into my butt and it wasn't the big one I left at the Mother Ship but the douche nozzle. So it wasn't a problem for Ted to get that into me and then we settled in for that long talk.
Mainly, I've been worried that my having sex with DD would anger him or hurt him but he let me explain and, really, this has happened pretty fast. As I was talking to him about the sex with DD I saw that his erection stayed right there and so he knows that if he had any thoughts of righteous indignation in his heart, his penis was weighing in on the other side. 😉 I saw that his eyes kept going up to the enema bag and checking on the water level and what the hose or tube looked like when it disappeared into my backside.
To tell you the truth I was scared the whole time we were talking but it wasn't about the enemas, but that I hadn't cleared it with him about having sex with DD. We did talk about that a lot and he asked me if I wanted to continue with DD and the sex and I do, and that's what I told him. He wondered if it had anything to do with how it was going between me and him and that was a no brainer for me to tell him that was not even the case. I told him that several times in different ways, but he's my man, but he understands and talking about it with him was the best move I've made with him in a long time.
The sex afterwards was out of this world, and I'm not talking aliens. 😉 He did ask me how many enemas I could take, and I told him that he sounded like he wanted to give me another one. And what I love about him is that he told me straight up that he wanted to give me another enema we made that happen. 🌹🌹🌹
So my main purpose for joining zity.biz was to get enough information, points of view, ideas, and maybe some support for seeing if enemas are the way to go for me. From last night I think that enemas will become something Ted helps me with and maybe he will like them, too. We didn't talk about that last night. I also think that I'm going to be able to continue to see DD, i.e., not just to talk, but to have sex and/or keep doing our enemas together. I want that with her because we've always been close.
As for zity.biz, I've been able to start learning more about Aunt Lora, @Lora_C, and there is still a lot here I haven't read. It is easier to find her posts as a member. I wasn't sure, still am not too sure, about staying here as a member. There are a lot of very personal things here by people I either know or know of but I'm going to respect their privacy. But I am also tempted to stay here for awhile longer because just being able to write about last night and the whole enemas thing, and my husband, and it really is like a diary, but with input from some good people.
Thank you all. 🌹🌹🌹