I was a late bloomer, my puberty started late. When I was 10yo I recognised that my penis sometimes got hard and bigger but I had no clue what to do in such cases. I realised that it occurred more often during getting my temperature measured in my bum when I was 12 or 13, and I really adored the warm feelin and tickling in my whole body. My 3 years older brother showed me how to wank when I was 13, but unfortunately I haven't ever reached the happy end. He also realised that I still look very childish at that age, compared to him, when he had been that young that I was. Even at age 14, I was only bit taller than 1.40m, very slim, had no pubic hair, no beginning growth of a beard, my voice turned into a scratchy horrible voice what was very embarrassing for me. I had my first anal sex experiences at age 14, maybe quite too early, because it hurt that much. My friend was 17, turned 18, and was fully developed, he had a deep voice, he almost shaved his pubic hair, and a 19 cm long penis, what I found really amazing. He said he didn't mind, that I wasn't that developed like him, but it let me think about the fact that something could be wrong with me. And my brother motivated me to go to the doc. At age 15 my parents and I had an appointment at the General Practitioner, who sent me back to my pediatrician, and he examined me and said that I needed hormones to get my puberty started fully. So for 2 years I got shots in my bum cheeks, first every week, later monthly. When I was 17 my pediatrician asked me if I had had an ejaculation already and said “not yet”. So he said that I should masturbate at home to find it out, and in case of success he will stop giving me that nasty injections. I tried it for weeks, I wanted to have my first cum, and I wanted to get away from that injections which always hurted and burned for several days, especially when I was sitting for longer time (e.g. in school), while doing sports like playing football, or when I rode my bike, what I did very often, sometimes several times per day, but especially to reach the school. It was at the first evening of Eid al-Fitr when I tried to cum all night long. Like obsessed I rubbed my penis that hard and long, it took maybe 3 hours. I was that sweaty that I could almost take a bath in my bed. But finally I reached a point where everything turned, I felt like being beamed up, and I realised that something clearly came out of my penis. I asked myself whether this is cum, because it wasn't white and creamy. But on that evening I really felt proud of myself that I made it. I felt asleep, I was that finished, and I woke up when I heard my family doing something in the kitchen. I realised that I still laid there on my back, my belly was sticky, and hopefully no one realised what I had done the whole night before. I tried to repeat it the next evening, but it didn't work. So I had to train myself. Nowadays I wank nearly three times a day, but in most cases I am still not able to cum when I have sex with others. Hope, this will get better in future…