When I Die!

While the topic seems over dramatic, as an older enema fan, it raises questions that others might ever contend with.

With seven plus decades behind me, and a "car load" of equipment, toys, art work, and videos (both private & commercial), I fear these treasures will end up enshrined in black plastic garbage bags in some landfill like that of my 80 year old colon therapist & enema friend whose family I recently helped discard of belongings in preparation for her move into assisted living. Among the completely filled and tightly secured trash bags filling the bottom of the dumpster lay a wealth of books & equipment that will never see the light of day.

Years ago, before and in the early days of the internet there were more than a few pen pals, of both sexes with whom I sold, traded, and shared videos & equipment with via secure P.O boxes & Snail Mail. But, no one any longer seems to venture further than their keyboard. Few, if any will even correspond on line, outside of this discussion page. How Sad!

To some degree, I'm at fault. An analog person in a digital age, I am neither willing or able to share photos, on line or engage in long, serial chat line conversations on this site. I guess it's partly an "old dog not wanting to learn new tricks" phenomenon. Nevertheless, Do you ever wonder about all the treasure being lost, the photo clips never watched, the illustrations never seen, the on line friendships that might over time have proved a valuable resource? You'll never know......

I don't think it's personal, I think people don't want to share equipment in this day and age. No matter how well it is disinfected. It's why hospitals use disposable stuff. If a stranger disinfected a toothbrush, I still wouldn't want to use it. It's nothing personal.

Among the completely filled and tightly secured trash bags filling the bottom of the dumpster lay a wealth of books & equipment that will never see the light of day.

Hmmmm.

Soooo sad ..........

You couldn't disinfect used/previously owned enema equipment used by anyone other than my husband well enough for me to use, and that includes my daughters. God only knows who they have used their stuff on!

I might use pre-owned equipment that was all silicone or metal after it was steam autoclaved at 270 degF for two cycles.

Years ago, before and in the early days of the internet there were more than a few pen pals, of both sexes with whom I sold, traded, and shared videos & equipment with via secure P.O boxes & Snail Mail. But, no one any longer seems to venture further than their keyboard. Few, if any will even correspond on line, outside of this discussion page. How Sad!

Nicely written... takes me back to those days.... checking my PO box to see what's arrived from pen pals.... Some really good trusting friendships developed back then..

Do you ever wonder about all the treasure being lost, the photo clips never watched, the illustrations never seen, the on line friendships that might over time have proved a valuable resource?

We've picked up and dug out alot of good "stuff" from other peoples trash. Not any enema or sexual toys but vintage and antique pieces. It just amazes me what and how much people actually throw away instead of donating it or giving it to someone who asks.

We've asked about many items. Some people would rather throw it away than have us buy it, getting money for it.

Such a terrible waste and a shame.

I have seen used enema bags advertised on eBay, but I would never use them on myself or anyone else. On rare occasions I have used my syringe on my husband, but my older daughter, who is staying with us during the coronavirus lockdown, has her own, and I would hesitate even to share with her.

I am already in my 70's and have disposed of every thing that might be embarrassing . But if I think my time is near I have a small jar of gold and a fake gold map and intend to be found out somewhere in the wild with them in one hand and pointing out to nowhere with the other ,

Books and art work can certainly be sold, either on-line or if you have the address of a secondhand bookshop specializing in such material. And yes, such businesses do exist here and there. I know of at least one in Brussels, Paris and also one in Seattle if I remember correctly.

There are almost always collectors for erotic material. And if at a loss, you could always donate artwork to places like the Kinsey Institute for instance. I've corresponded with illustrators who have done so. The Kinsey Institute keeps a rather low profile, but they do publish illustrated books occasionally that contain all kind of amateur material. And at the very least, it will be properly stored for coming generations.

Having once fabricated equipment for an online firm specializing in enemas, much of my equipment is new & unused. The remainder are Silicone and easily disinfected. I apologize if I gave the impression that I was intent on selling my things. I merely wanted to connect with someone with whom I might share my videos and provide a safe home for my surplus material. That said, I am neither desperate, or poor enough to bother pedaling personal items.

When I die, I want to be buried in Cook County Illinois so I can stay active in politics!!!

@LisaK, apparently you could also be buried in any Coastal California city and remain active in politics. It might even be better there because it's quite temperate (I'm an almost lifelong San Diegan).

When I die I will rot in the ground like everything else that ever lived on this planet.

No god, no soul, no spirit, no afterlife, no reincarnation.

I will just BE DEAD.

My survivors have been given instructions for dividing my estate.

no god, no soul, no spirit, no afterlife, no reincarnation.

I will just BE DEAD.

Like a dream dreamt and not remembered - that how it will be. It's drives me crazier that here I am, right now alive and experiencing this extremely short bit of reality I've somehow find myself in.

Like a dream dreamt and not remembered - that how it will be. It's drives me crazier that here I am, right now alive and experiencing this extremely short bit of reality I've somehow find myself in.

You wish to be driven crazy? Try this on, it is the opposite, about eternity, just as mind boggling a concept, something a Jesuit once told us in class:

Imagine a mountain ten times higher and massive as Everest. Every ten thousand years a small bird comes there to sharpen its beak on the mountain. By the time the whole mountain has been eroded by that small bird's beak, not even one second of eternity will have passed.

Contemplate that and then try to fall restfully asleep at night, I dare you ... ha ha

The best time of our life was when the Kids left home and we were active in training Golden Retrievers for Field Tests and hunting 17-18 years ago. We took off on weekends in Colorado and went up to the mountains with our two Bitches and trained in Dead Man's Gulch. We spent a lot of time and money with them - and it was worth every dollar/minute! We wrote in our will that we want to be cremated and have our ashes mixed with the bitches ashes and have them scattered over Dead Man's Gulch.

We’re going to doggie heaven! ?

@agracier said

You wish to be driven crazy? Try this on, it is the opposite, about eternity, just as mind boggling a concept, something a Jesuit once told us in class:

Imagine a mountain ten times higher and massive as Everest. Every ten thousand years a small bird comes there to sharpen its beak on the mountain. By the time the whole mountain has been eroded by that small bird's beak, not even one second of eternity will have passed.

Contemplate that and then try to fall restfully asleep at night, I dare you ... ha ha

Not to be driven crazy at all.

This is not a problem at all for a person based in reality; knowing full well from very young years that EVERYTHING and EVERYONE that ever lived, WILL DIE. This should NOT be kept a secret from children.

Eternity is an interesting concept. Astrophysicists have estimated the lifespan of the universe (not its present age) to be approximately 10^100 years (not a typo). (10, 000, 000, 000, 000, 000, 000, 000, 000, 000, 000, 000, 000, 000, 000, 000, 000, 000, 000, 000, 000, 000, 000, 000, 000, 000, 000, 000, 000, 000, 000, 000, 000, 000) At that point, the the universe that started as a superdense mass of heat and energy will die a cold, sparce, and scattered, completely dark, energy-less death where nothing happens; and nothing keeps happening FOREVER.

I have been privileged several times over the last 10 years to honor the last request of a fellow cannoneer. At one club in the Sierra foothills of northern California, we shoot at barrels at a 1/4 mile across a beautiful meadow. At the end of the competition, a club member from one club or another has had in his will to have his ashes scattered over the meadow by cannon fire! When we find out who it was, the Urn is Passed around to each Gun, we each have made our own ceremonial shells in which to load the ash; we each say a few words about the person. The referee calls for powder loads; I always use two 500 grain powder charges and ram them home nice and tight! Then I pick the vent and inject as much 4-F (flash powder) as the hole will take and then I insert a 10 second fuse. When we have all signified that we are loaded, the referee calls out, "Load (the first name)" and then I ram him home. When we all signal that we are ready, the referee calls for a rolling broadside. The meadow erupts with Thunder and Smoke, and as the hills still echo the thunder, the thick smoke settles out on the meadow and lingers there and slowly settles...that is where and how I want to be laid to rest, by my friends with Thunder and Gun Smoke!

Not sure anyone caught my saying " drives me crazier" instead of crazy.... 😁 This whole process of living and being here on a planet in this unbelievably vast universe will cause my brain to explode if I think about it for too long.. Oh, and amidst in all of this I'm here loving something like an enema and enema bags... kinda of comical..

Not sure anyone caught my saying " drives me crazier" instead of crazy.... 😁

I'd vote you for the "craziest" 😄