When I was younger and at school I used to get bullied by the boys at school. I didn't have a great deal to do with boys, but I got on better with the girls. I didn't know what was wrong with me, other than I was different in some way to the other boys. With my friendship with girls I didn't really fancy them the same way as the boys did, but I liked talking to them about clothes, make up, and girlie things, including boys.
Sexually I was attracted to girls and not so much boys, yet I liked talking with the girls about boys. I knew I wasn't gay, yet why did I feel like this.??
I transitioned and started to live as a girl. Sexually I was still attracted to girls but still had not had any sort of sexual activity with either sex.
When I moved in with a friend I needed money for rent and living expenses.
She was doing sex work and I soon started doing the same with her. She started to teach me about sex, and this was my first ever sexual experience with anyone.
Yes I was still attracted to girls rather than men.
With living as a woman, and especially with doing sex work, I very soon started to enjoy the attention that men were now paying to me.
Doing sex work to start with I just worked the streets, at first, all I would do was hand jobs or oral.
I not only enjoyed the attention men now paid to me, but I also really enjoyed my sexual encounters with men. As time went on both my friends and myself knew that I needed to do intercourse with men. Obviously I could only do anal, and my friend decided with my agreement that I needed to learn about anal and be prepared to offer it as part of my services when requested by men.
She arranged with someone who we both knew and trusted to help me to lose my virginity so to speak one evening.
We were very careful, and gentle, and with time and practice I began to love anal.
I really began to love sex with men.
So by now I realised that I was bi, as I enjoyed sex with both genders equally as much.
To this day I am bi and still enjoy sex just as much with both genders, but in completely different ways, if that makes sense.? With a woman I find it more loving and caring, whereas with a man it is more about sex and lust if that makes sense.
Each is a completely different kind of attraction, and sex, if people can understand this.