Loaded Up my diaper, should I feel so aroused?

So I took two fleet enemas to try and ease my constipation and ended up blowing a weeks worth of muck into the back of my diaper. At first I felt a little cramp and nothing more, but two hours later my gut was gurgling and growling until I bent over to stabilize myself on the counter and it all just started coming out. I couldn’t even control my bladder anymore as I just filled my pants. So, I’m sitting here with a mushy bottom (for the second time ever) and a raging hard-on wondering why having such an in sense accident has me all hot and bothered. What are your thoughts ( and remedies) for this

My thoughts: Just enjoy it, and celebrate the fact that you have found something that gives you an intense thrill. Recommendation: take the arousal to its natural conclusion, using whatever lube and means of stimulation seems most outrageous and most exciting to you. You are in good company here with people who are always discovering and owning whatever brings them (and their partners, in many cases) pleasure and joy. Finally, the words "should" and "feel" have absolutely no connection with each other. Don't overthink this; just go with it.

I am in about the same boat, I do it on purpose with enemas and such. I went to therapy for my "condition" and my counselor said it was unlikely I'd ever outgrow the need or want of liking diapers and to just embrace it, as it hurts no one, and makes me happy. Don't worry about it, it happens. If it makes you happy just enjoy it. I can't to this day explain what it is about messy diapers that are attractive to me. My own anyway. I didn't choose it. You're not hurting anyone, so just enjoy it. You've found a great way to have fun.