What started your interest in nudism?
I’m not a nudist, but nudism and exhibitionism is a fantasy of mine. I think, for me, it all goes back to my childhood.
I was an extremely modest child. I didn’t like having my private parts seen. I hated it. But unfortunately, I had a lot of experiences that involved having my genitals exposed. At the time, of course, it wasn’t particularly pleasant, but now, it’s exciting to fantasize about some of the things happening again. I’ll share a few experiences here, just the ones I remember.
I always got UTIs. At one point, my doctor had to examine my privates. As you can imagine, I was less than thrilled about that. I was very young, maybe 3 or 4. I was in that paper gown thingy they give you at the doctors office, and my doctor just pulled my underwear down and had me kneel and lean forward with my butt in the air and he examined me from behind. On another occasion a doctor had me spread my legs and she spread my labia, and looked inside to see if everything looked okay.
I also had to do those pee in a cup tests all the time. I don’t remember how often, but extremely often. I distinctly remember this. The first few times, it was done at the doctors office in the bathroom. My mom had me go bottomless and sort of straddle the toilet and lean back a little so she could clean my privates thoroughly so as to not contaminate the sample. She would spread my labia and put the cup under me after that, and tell me to start peeing. I remember watching the cup fill up with pee and her telling me that I was doing a good job and all that. At the time I didn’t mind it too much since it was my mom doing it, but it still wasn’t the most dignified thing. Sometimes, though, we’d do the sample with me standing on a towel, bottomless with my legs apart and my mom would hold the cup under me. Still not one of my proudest moments, but sort of exciting to look back on.
I also have both vague and vivid memories of having my diaper changed, being potty trained and all that other stuff. I remember one incident very clearly from when I was 7 and had an accident in my pants and was carried up to the bathroom by my dad and having to be naked from the waist down and stand in the shower while we waited for my mom to come clean me up. I had diarrhea, so it was kind of messy.
Oh yeah, I also have memories of being in first grade and this boy always sitting next to me on the bus, pulling my pants and underwear down and touching my privates and showing it to his friends, and they all laughed. That was humiliating. But luckily it didn’t last for long.
Overall, I just have many memories of my genitals being exposed at one time or another. Having my pants and underwear pulled down as a joke or being stripped naked below the waist after an accident, or for a medical exam or something. While I do enjoy the thought of being nude, I more so prefer the idea of being naked from the waist down. It feels better to me for some reason; I can’t really explain why. I’m hesitant to post this because it might not exactly fit in this particular sub genre of this site, but I thought being nude would fit in with the nudism discussion, lol. What are your thoughts? Any childhood experiences similar to mine? What got you into nudism?