Of course its naughty, very naughty to wet or mess myself. I do have control so when I do its intentional, on purpose, and big boys aren't supposed to do that, only children. But I'm way past being a big boy now, I'm an old guy and I still like to behave like I did when I was a kid whose mom had to keep him in diapers and rubber pants because he was so slow to potty train and stop wetting his bed. Of course the older I was the more method there was to my madness. I discovered the joys of getting a woody under my diapers, when mom got me ready for bed every night and I played with it until it spurted wet, sticky stuff into my diapers. Once that was revealed the world turned upside down and I thought the more I wore diapers and wet or messed myself the more I could play with it and make myself feel good. When I finally left home for good and was on my own, my mom let me take all of my diapers and rubber pants with me knowing how much I liked to wear them so when I had some spare time, a weekend or a day off from work, I'd pin some diapers on, pull up my baby pants and wet and mess myself as soon as I could. After a big mess, I'd play around in my mess, feel it squish up my ball sack and wiener, and up the back of my butt crack, get in my car and drive around. Sometimes, I'd go to see an adult movie, back in the days long before the internet or even VCR's, sit down in an already wet and messy diaper and push more poop out, filling the front of my diapers up above my pee-pee. I'd get so hard and excited I'd ended up cumming more than once during the movie. By the end, I was over all the excitement and I'd feel so naughty, ashamed of myself and humiliated and afraid someone would notice what I had done, I run out to my car, race home and clean myself up. I'd swear this was the last time I'd degrade myself, but of course a few weeks later, after fantasizing most every night about diapers and jacking off, I'd do it all again. Here I am now, in my 70's, married, in diapers and rubber all the time, diapers wet most of the time. My wife changes my diapers for me now, I still get a woody every time she cleans me and pins a fresh diaper on and of course tells me what a bad baby I am and how I not too old to be spanked. But even still, I find myself wanting to do the naughty and make a big mess in my diapers, but my wife won't allow me to do that, except every few weeks when I'm really nice and ask for her permission. When she lets me mess my diapers she makes me stay in them all day, and I love it until I finally get so hard I can't hold it any longer and tell my wife I need to cum and do so, knowing she will be mad at me for not being able to control myself. I know I'm in for a spanking for disobeying my wife and not waiting to cum until she gave me permission, and I swear this is the last time, but a few weeks later I'm back being really nice and asking “mommy, can I mess in my diapers today?”