Where is this heading - will I wear diapers 24/7 for the rest of my life?

It is raining outside – it’s very wet outside, just like in my diaper right now. July last year (2015) I started wearing diapers 24/7 without any expectations. It’s close to six years ago since I started using diapers every night – and then I mean every night. Now I always wake up wet in the morning. Even if I use Abri-Form at night – one of the biggest diapers that exist, I still suffer leakages. Thus, I have to wear plastic pants to protect the bed. I do not dear to try sleeping a night without my night diapers – but what about day time.

The summer is approaching, should I go through the summer 24/7? I have become comfortable wearing my Abri-Flex pants at the office. I have been on stage giving presentations in diapers. Have anyone notice? I don’t think so. If they do – I am in my mid 50s, it would of course simply be a natural explanation – I am incontinent. Though, I still have sufficient control during day-time. I simply love the feeling of the lump between my legs. I love the feeling of wetness between my legs – just let it drip and small splashes during the day. I have read several places that my sphincter muscle can be weekend by not being properly used. May be I will end up totally incontinent? Is that the journey I am on - The journey to wear diapers for the rest of my life? Or should I stop? Wondering if it is possible to stop? Right now it feels like I have become psychologically depended on diapers 24/7. Most likely I have become a full-time bed-wetter. I guess it is no return from that condition. It feels so incredibly good, but at the same time scary. Being diaper dependent sure bring practical advantages – I do not depend on finding a toilet, but it sure has disadvantages when travelling. I have to bring sufficient supply. Questions are spinning in my head. Right now it feels like I will be in diaper for the rest of my life – what do you think I should do?

I would probably say yes in your case as you already wear them pretty much full time.

As for myself I can go without them for months if my body didn't betray me, although that's on the rare occasion that the problem dosen't rule over my life, I've been in and out of diapers since 2010 or 9-10yrs if you include next year and I will be turning 40 sooner that I would have liked or thought was even possible.

And Yes I can for seeiably see myself in diapers for the rest of my life as my body is basically telling me something I've always suspected and that's that I should never have been potty trained in the first place although don't get me wrong I like being a adult and not a child.

However psycalogically its quite another matter all together you see I suffered from years of bullying because of my disabilities and although I was never in a wheelchair I was born highly Autistic and this sucks at times.

But going back to my main point of contention my issues with a disfunctional bladder this was due to past epilepsy when I was 12-13 years of age and other issues such as a horse riding accident in 1997 which unfortunately effected my bladder as it was brused as was my abdominal area and although nothing was wrong other than a broken left or right arm I can't remember which as the accident happened so fast I did have other issues that did not show until 2010 after I turned 30yrs of age.

At this time writing this I am going through a good time as I haven't had any problems for over a week but I can't always tell when this may change and it didn't help that the doctors couldn't nail down a physical problem that was causing my issues.

Although I am med free as the pills I was taking where so strong they caused a allergic reaction and thats why I don't like pills and am sort of managing the problem by my self and wearing diapers again as per my countless other replies on this website and sorry if this is just a repeat of them but until I get a definitive awnser as to what's causing my woes then this is all I can say about it.

Yours sincerly

Chinababy888.