Public showing

Today i was lounging around my apartment in a thick cloth diaper and some pink rubber pants ( or plastic pants). I had wet throughout the day so you could tell i was wet by the sag in my diaper. I found myself looking outside periodically at who was outside. I even opened my door and stepped out in the hall listening for movement or noise. I felt the urge to just go outside just the way i was dressed. I had a t-shirt on and my diapers..it was a little cool (check local weather) so i had a sweatshirt on too. I had to get something out of my car and i needed to get my trash out too. I found myself thinking of just going out there like nothing was different about me like any other day. I dont ever want to expose any children to this, so i put some shorts on and went out. I took the trash out and went to my car...not a soul was out and not even a car drove by...i felt kind of bummed.....i wonder what it is that drives this wish to be seen by strangers?? I don't get it. Anyone else think about this??

Could it be the wish to have this fetish not to be so lonely. Subconscious need to hear another human saying something about your diapers...

I don't know but maybe its a bit of we don't understand why we are like this and have a bit of I don't know how to say but Ill call it loneliness and don't really know how to cope with the feelings. But can't let others know because we don't want to hurt the ones we love and destroy our own lives over it but at the same time deeper down want to tell someone and be exposed. could go on but just a few thoughts.

Great answer Tenjoyse. Most of us would really love to let others know how we feel, who we really are, but realistically, this very difficult to do. We could put ourselves in jeopardy, and if we do create problems, our families can be badly affected by them as well.

This is the hardest part of living any secret - it can be quite discouraging sometimes, so I guess we all have to just carry on with our mainstream "real" lives, and enjoy them. We can at the same time, fantasize about our diapers, and keep it there. When the opportunity to enjoy our diapers without it hurting anyone arises, then maybe we should go for it. Always stay aware though, and think about your families, esp. Children and spouses, before you act.